Hello Everyone!! 2 Days and Dying...!!!

[RAZD611]

It seems my nicotine addiction is gone.  Ohhhh I'm so excited!

It will never be gone, yous always gonna be an addict. You will just learn how not to stuff nicotine into your body.

The last time I quit I ended up picking up cigars about a year later, and I became dependent on them.

My point exactly. You prolly thought your addiction was gone last time too. It wasn't it was just laying in wait for you to fuk up. And you did.

Don't ever allow yourself to be fooled into thinking you are cured.....

[JonathanEngr]

Don't know whether to double post or not since it's been a while. Let me know if it's a no-no and I'll not do it again.

Well, I've been driving a good part of the day, and I'm doing so, so well. I'm sooooo thankful for dip substitutes. Man has this stuff come such a long way. I couldn't do the fake dip when I tried to quit last time... it was so pointy it hurt my lip, and it came out in a glob that just stayed there. I've only tried Smoky Mountain, but it's working pretty well for me since it actually tastes similar to what I was dipping (Grizzly).

It seems my nicotine addiction is gone. Ohhhh I'm so excited! The last time I quit I ended up picking up cigars about a year later, and I became dependent on them. My wife's dislike of the permeating smell is what turned me back to dipping. No more. No nicotine for me at all. Zero, zilch, nada. If I get a terminal illness and they find that nicotine can cure it, I'll just die. LOL!

BTW--where am I supposed to post my pledge to quit? Kind of a moot point now I guess, but it would be good to do.

[JonathanEngr]

I'm still here!!!!! Drive went off without a hitch. I have more meetings this morning, so that means a little more driving. However, I woke up again this morning without cravings. WOW!!!!!! Thankfully, no Billy Joel!

Diesel--LOL! I'm not there yet!

Dougie--JBags avatar is always a good 15 minute or so distraction from the thought of dipping! (Okay... maybe 30 mins).

Thanks for the support fellas.

[Bean]

I'm interested in hearing how the drive went...or the "Jon-a-thon" as I call it.

Driving was a HUGE trigger for me. I had a once a month meeting...90 minutes each way with terrible traffic no matter what time of day. It was as if TxDOT was conspiring against me. I practically "Teen Wolf'd" it on the roof of my own truck the first couple of times.

Then, I embraced the suck. I decided to bring a cassette (yes, my truck still has a cassette deck) from my childhood...Billy Joel's Greatest Hits. I immediately understood that things could be much worse. And I began to feel better. See, Billy Joel's shit sucked so bad the Nic Bitch got out of my truck, I guess. I recommend it.

[Dougie]

cant stop staring at jbags5 avatar...

Glad to be quit with ya' Jonathan- if you need anything shoot me a PM

[Diesel2112]

6'3" 175???? that's what I was in 7th grade.

Keep quit twigs.

[Bean]

Regarding the October group, do I just go there and post?

Yes, you just post in the October quit group. Full instructions are at the Welcome Center link above. Don't worry about screwing up...the mods can un-fuck anything you fuck up (I think).

[jayd41]

DUDE...eliminate that thinking of "i probably would have if it was around". First day or not...you wouldn't have...you know how i know? Well i have no idea where you live but you probably live within 20 minutes of a gas station...your wife wasn't home so it would have been VERY EASY to drive and get you some....dip is all around you whether it's in your buddy's back pocket or a short drive down the street...you WOULD NOT HAVE dipped if some was around because some was around...you didn't cave..you made it. Embrace it all...you won last night.

[jbags5]

I guess I could do a lot of things, it's just that the "thrill" factor just isn't there.

You had mentioned this, as well as feeling like the "excitement" button was off.

I remember when I thought like that - "This would be so much cooler with dip." God, what a fucking idiot I was.

You will get over that phase, I promise. One day at a time, just like all of us here.

Enjoying your story. Keep posting everyday. Keep kicking ass

[JonathanEngr]

LOL! Bean--love your post. That's the whole ticket... with every second I'm NOT doing it, it simply reinforces my desire to NOT do it! Geez... I never want to go through yesterday again. Willpower or not, that was hell. I honestly think I would have taken a dip yesterday IF there had been any around. Glad there wasn't.

I'm still feeling pretty good. I'll be leaving in a bit to head out of town for a meeting, and won't be in until later this evening. Glad for this... keeping myself busy really, really helps. At the same time, when I'm traveling in my truck I dip virtually 100% of the time. Wish me luck on this one... I'll have about one hour in my truck each way. I know I can do it..!!!!

Regarding the October group, do I just go there and post?

[jrod]

Regarding my posts at this point, should I post in another section???  I didn't really see anything pointing me to any specific location.

Come join us in Community  Quit Groups  Pre HOF October 2013

This is our quit group, we will hit 100 days quit in October.

[Bean]

Jonathan - You can quit. You're doing it right now. Cold turkey, with bad timing...I FUCKING LOVE IT. I'm getting pumped up just reading about your quit. FUCKING AWESOME!!!

Now, all you need to do is change your attitude. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch. EMBRACE THE SUCK!!! See it for what it is...bullshit attempts by the Nic Bitch to get back in your life. She sneaks up on you physically (withdrawals symptoms, headaches, constipation, confusion, distraction, etc) and psychologically (the lies and rationalization you come up with to justify "just one more"). WELL FUCK ALL OF THAT!!!

You're in control now. There is no negotiating, no excuse-making, no rationalizing, none of that shit. YOU'RE QUIT TODAY...AND THAT IS THAT!!! One day at a time is all that matters. Don't think about tomorrow, next week, etc...we'll deal with them when they get here. And NODOBY is asking you to quit forever. All we're doing here is getting through today nic free. Then wake up tomorrow, post roll and do it again.

Quitting is a PRIVILEGE reserved to those who have the guts to do it. I used to sit in my garage and say (out loud) shit like, "I GET to feel this shitty because I choose to quit. I GET to have my wife and kids because I choose to quit. I GET to go through this shit instead of disfiguring mouth/jaw surgery and feeding tubes."

(Yes, there was some concern the neighbors might have me committed to the state hospital pajama party...but I would have been quit there, too. So win/win, right?)

My point is that I was ALL IN. My quit got easier when I CHOSE to EMBRACE THE SUCK. I quit looking ahead to what Christmas, hunting tips, birthdays or whatever would be like without dip. I would find out in time...but none of that shit mattered today. I made the decision that I would laugh at the shitty times...enjoy the worst the Nic Bitch could throw my way, and have fun with my new freedom. I mean, I wanted to know just how bad it could get, right? I was drinking Citrucel, not sleeping a wink at night, living with a constant headache, trying to exercise...it sucked. But I was exhilerated by the thought of getting clean and living free.

Burn the boats...no going back...come Hell or high water...do your worst...I'm going toe to toe with the Nic Bitch today and there's nothing anyone can do about it!!!

Nobody gets free for the asking. You've gotta earn it. Get pumped about quitting. YOU CAN DO THIS! Attitude is everything. Stay strong and stay quit, brother!!!

[kkljinc]

Thanks, guys. Regarding my posts at this point, should I post in another section??? I didn't really see anything pointing me to any specific location.

I definitely intend to continue exercising. I recently lost 22 pounds (from 209 down to 187) to get rid of the little beer gut I was growing. My goal is to not gain a pound of it back, and I think I can do it. I've become a very good eater from a health/caloric standpoint, and being active really, really helps with the cravings.

My ultimate weight goal is to get down to 175 pounds which, at 6'3" tall, leaves me a bit thin. However, I used to run competitively in college (before running was a fad!), and would like to get back into that. In college I competed in the weight range of 140-145 pounds.... LOL!

Anyway, I'm mumbling. So far today I've had very little cravings if any at all. I feel almost like the "withdrawal" scenes from movies. A person gets increasingly worse until they're just in complete agony, and then boom! Everything begins to calm. Yesterday was just so bad... I honestly think I had thoughts of dipping and *why* I should do it enter my mind every couple of minutes despite what I did to distract myself. If I had come across an empty can later last night, I swear I would have been licking it. Today it's completely opposite.

Of course, tomorrow is another day, and it could be better or worse. I'll just keep taking it a day at a time!!!

John, at your stage of the game you can change minute by minute, or second by second. If you can go day to day do it, but go to whatever you need to at this point.

[JonathanEngr]

Thanks, guys. Regarding my posts at this point, should I post in another section??? I didn't really see anything pointing me to any specific location.

I definitely intend to continue exercising. I recently lost 22 pounds (from 209 down to 187) to get rid of the little beer gut I was growing. My goal is to not gain a pound of it back, and I think I can do it. I've become a very good eater from a health/caloric standpoint, and being active really, really helps with the cravings.

My ultimate weight goal is to get down to 175 pounds which, at 6'3" tall, leaves me a bit thin. However, I used to run competitively in college (before running was a fad!), and would like to get back into that. In college I competed in the weight range of 140-145 pounds.... LOL!

Anyway, I'm mumbling. So far today I've had very little cravings if any at all. I feel almost like the "withdrawal" scenes from movies. A person gets increasingly worse until they're just in complete agony, and then boom! Everything begins to calm. Yesterday was just so bad... I honestly think I had thoughts of dipping and *why* I should do it enter my mind every couple of minutes despite what I did to distract myself. If I had come across an empty can later last night, I swear I would have been licking it. Today it's completely opposite.

Of course, tomorrow is another day, and it could be better or worse. I'll just keep taking it a day at a time!!!

[kkljinc]

Whoa Jonathon....lookin like you have 4 posts, all in your Intro thread here....

October 2013 will be your quit group. Every day, early as possible, post your promise not to use nicotine for that day. At this point though...take it by the hour, minute, whatever you have to do to stay quit. Exercise like a madman, drink a metric shiite ton of water, read, read, read this site. Stay distracted, and focused on your quit.

Let's get ya into that Oct group with your promise...and use KTC the way it was intended......

^^^^ this fine feller speaks the truth. I took my quit as an opportunity to get into better shape. I was already active, but when I quit is when I started hitting the weights. I started running more. I was one of the few that lost weight through my quit.

Nothing kills a crave like pushups or burpees or a half mile sprint at full run, get the picture? Get active, drink a lot, and be quit. FYI, 120 days in, so worth it. Promise, keep it Promise again. Be quit. Welcome to KTC