This morning, I posted a day 4 for me today. But, it won't be the full 72 hours for me for another couple of hours. That's okay, because I am quitting for good now!!
Truth is, I have had 3 attempted rather lengthy quits on my own for the last couple of months. Each time I went for about 3 to 7 days. I have also had probably about 2 dozens times where I have declared, "I am quitting!" in my mind, only to buy another can about a day later, and in some cases, only hours later. This is all in the last few months.
That was all before I found KTC.
My wife was shocked this morning when I told her that I quit dipping again three days ago. This was the first time I told her I quit again because she and the kids have been stressed out every time I "quit." The rage I had, the absolute vitriol I spewed toward them? It was amazing that I was capable of it toward them and in that way. Then, I found this site and NOW I know why I was raging.
So, these last 3 days? Was a walk in the park compared to the other times on my own. Every time I'd feel something coming on? I came to the site to read up on what I was going through. Also helped that the computer was in the basement and I was removed from the situation where I could also take deep breaths and then rejoin the family once I was "okay."
At any rate, these next several weeks I think I will really need this site due to the "habits" formed and need the accountability. I think that will be key. That, and getting through the next several weekends without drinking. Will just have to do it! No doubt about it.
My mouth right now is full of so many sores, it even hurts to smack my gum. I knew this was coming because it happened before, but, man, I am going to use this as motivation to never, ever do dip again. This pain sucks and I can't wait until it heals up.
Well, that's me...hope this helps some that are trolling the site right now.
-Steve (a.k.a. QualityTime)