Day 1... I quit

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ChickDip

Quote from: AppleJack on December 15, 2020, 11:26:44 AM
Geez.
This poor dusty thing was 11 pages down the intro waste bin. I should give it some love once in awhile.


Today, I posted up this number in my July ‘13 group:

2,800

I even typed that comma... I type it in every day. I earned that shit! Lol! Every new HOF number that rolls by gets me to thinking and reflecting and reinforces my deep gratitude for these halls. Without this place at ‘that’ time in April of 2013, I have a pretty good idea of the quality of life I’d be “enjoying”... stuck in an endless rut of lying and denial and fear and shame and ALL the various and similar garbage that this addiction saddles you with.

That’s not life, man.
Addiction over/hyper saturates the entirety of your life’s rhythm. It runs the show.
That’s not freedom, man.

This place...
This place gave me the tools to get strong and...
take back my life and...
do away with the need to lie and...
reverse the denial and...
conquer the fear and...
own the shame...
So that I could be free.

The freedom that exists in being able to face your addiction and tell it to “Fuck off” with complete authority is...

Life.
Congratulations on the 2800 days free my brother.
PNW Power right here!
Thank you for still walking these halls and showing us the power of brotherhood and accountability.
We are or were all scared, scared of failing mainly, scared of dealing with things without the mask of the bitch nicotine.
I am proud to quit with you and your no-nonsense approach to the quit.
July 2015 Jackals - House of WUPP
"....the load doesn't weigh me down at all, he ain't heavy he's my brother"
Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think.
"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack
"Make It Through Today" WarE2013 (Rest Easy)
"I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP
"Endeavor to Persevere!" Lone Waite

my intro / my HOF speech / my comma club
Building a Strong Quit / My HOF Day

AppleJack

Geez.
This poor dusty thing was 11 pages down the intro waste bin. I should give it some love once in awhile.


Today, I posted up this number in my July ‘13 group:

2,800

I even typed that comma... I type it in every day. I earned that shit! Lol! Every new HOF number that rolls by gets me to thinking and reflecting and reinforces my deep gratitude for these halls. Without this place at ‘that’ time in April of 2013, I have a pretty good idea of the quality of life I’d be “enjoying”... stuck in an endless rut of lying and denial and fear and shame and ALL the various and similar garbage that this addiction saddles you with.

That’s not life, man.
Addiction over/hyper saturates the entirety of your life’s rhythm. It runs the show.
That’s not freedom, man.

This place...
This place gave me the tools to get strong and...
take back my life and...
do away with the need to lie and...
reverse the denial and...
conquer the fear and...
own the shame...
So that I could be free.

The freedom that exists in being able to face your addiction and tell it to “Fuck off” with complete authority is...

Life.
Well, it's one louder, isn't it? It's not ten.

worktowin

Quote from: Keith0617 on February 19, 2020, 12:22:42 PM
Quote from: ChickDip on February 19, 2020, 12:06:17 PM
Quote from: AppleJack on February 19, 2020, 11:35:11 AM
Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha


This is life today. Check this out:

AJ... 2,500



Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.

“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)

I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.

Done.

I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.
Complete badass quitter here. Not easy but it's simple!

Impressive and BADASS
Thanks for your leadership over the past 7 years, Shane.  We've seen a lot of stuff here... leaders come and go, drama out the wazoo, threats, platform changes, lost friends to cancer, seen divorces and health problems play out, but in the end... we keep following the plan that was laid out by KTC (post roll, keep your promise, brotherhood + accountability = success) and here we are - winning at something that seemed so damn impossible. 

Thanks for being a leader, and a friend.  Congratulations on another huge milestone - with many more to come.

Keith0617

Quote from: ChickDip on February 19, 2020, 12:06:17 PM
Quote from: AppleJack on February 19, 2020, 11:35:11 AM
Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha


This is life today. Check this out:

AJ... 2,500



Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.

“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)

I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.

Done.

I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.
Complete badass quitter here. Not easy but it's simple!

Impressive and BADASS
Jan19

ChickDip

Quote from: AppleJack on February 19, 2020, 11:35:11 AM
Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha


This is life today. Check this out:

AJ... 2,500



Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.

“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)

I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.

Done.

I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.
Complete badass quitter here. Not easy but it's simple!
July 2015 Jackals - House of WUPP
"....the load doesn't weigh me down at all, he ain't heavy he's my brother"
Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think.
"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack
"Make It Through Today" WarE2013 (Rest Easy)
"I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP
"Endeavor to Persevere!" Lone Waite

my intro / my HOF speech / my comma club
Building a Strong Quit / My HOF Day

AppleJack

Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha


This is life today. Check this out:

AJ... 2,500



Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.

“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)

I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.

Done.

I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.








Well, it's one louder, isn't it? It's not ten.

Gunnar

Quote from: worktowin on April 19, 2019, 02:43:31 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus on April 19, 2019, 02:14:51 PM
Quote from: Batdad on April 17, 2019, 03:44:25 PM
Quote from: ChickDip on April 17, 2019, 03:10:19 PM
Quote from: AppleJack on April 17, 2019, 02:00:47 PM
Quote from: Skolvikings on April 17, 2019, 12:37:38 PM
6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.

You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.

Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man!  ;D

6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.

More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.

I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:

AppleJack... Day 1

(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)

It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.

I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.

Never. Again.

6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?

Gladly.

Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!

Great job man.

You.  Are.  The.  Man.

Thanks Shane for being a great asset and mentor on this site, and a great friend.  Congratulations on 6 years!

Impressive. Good for you sir.

worktowin

Quote from: Broccoli-saurus on April 19, 2019, 02:14:51 PM
Quote from: Batdad on April 17, 2019, 03:44:25 PM
Quote from: ChickDip on April 17, 2019, 03:10:19 PM
Quote from: AppleJack on April 17, 2019, 02:00:47 PM
Quote from: Skolvikings on April 17, 2019, 12:37:38 PM
6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.

You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.

Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man!  ;D

6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.

More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.

I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:

AppleJack... Day 1

(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)

It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.

I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.

Never. Again.

6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?

Gladly.

Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!

Great job man.

You.  Are.  The.  Man.

Thanks Shane for being a great asset and mentor on this site, and a great friend.  Congratulations on 6 years!

Broccoli-saurus

Quote from: Batdad on April 17, 2019, 03:44:25 PM
Quote from: ChickDip on April 17, 2019, 03:10:19 PM
Quote from: AppleJack on April 17, 2019, 02:00:47 PM
Quote from: Skolvikings on April 17, 2019, 12:37:38 PM
6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.

You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.

Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man!  ;D

6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.

More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.

I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:

AppleJack... Day 1

(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)

It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.

I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.

Never. Again.

6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?

Gladly.

Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!

Great job man.

Batdad

Quote from: ChickDip on April 17, 2019, 03:10:19 PM
Quote from: AppleJack on April 17, 2019, 02:00:47 PM
Quote from: Skolvikings on April 17, 2019, 12:37:38 PM
6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.

You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.

Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man!  ;D

6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.

More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.

I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:

AppleJack... Day 1

(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)

It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.

I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.

Never. Again.

6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?

Gladly.

Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!
[spoiler=signature stuff]Leonidas nickname is Dyson because he he sucks like a cracked out meth whore - Candoit

Could I quit without KTC? Probably. Let's say it's 99.9% yes, I could quit without KTC. That 0.1% risk of failure isn't worth it to me. That 0.1% is enough to keep me here, long into the future, just to be sure.-srains918

Not sure who Batdad is, but he keeps coming up as an asshole =P so he can be an asshole if it helps others quit lmao. BTW who is batdad? I'm newer so it might be something I am missing. -evillen

With all the craziness swirling around us, it's nice to have certain constants that we can always count on, like Batdad is an asshole. -Rewire

Quitters I have had the honor to meet
Viking, MNxEngineer, PMILS, Weedsta, Natro, Jenahen, Bucky, Palpatine, Gassy, JohninSLP, DonkeyMN, ReWire, Clemte, Wepdoc
[/spoiler]

ChickDip

Quote from: AppleJack on April 17, 2019, 02:00:47 PM
Quote from: Skolvikings on April 17, 2019, 12:37:38 PM
6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.

You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.

Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man!  ;D

6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.

More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.

I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:

AppleJack... Day 1

(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)

It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.

I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.

Never. Again.

6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?

Gladly.

Rock on Brother!
July 2015 Jackals - House of WUPP
"....the load doesn't weigh me down at all, he ain't heavy he's my brother"
Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think.
"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack
"Make It Through Today" WarE2013 (Rest Easy)
"I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP
"Endeavor to Persevere!" Lone Waite

my intro / my HOF speech / my comma club
Building a Strong Quit / My HOF Day

AppleJack

Quote from: Skolvikings on April 17, 2019, 12:37:38 PM
6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.

You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.

Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man!  ;D

6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.

More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.

I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:

AppleJack... Day 1

(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)

It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.

I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.

Never. Again.

6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?

Gladly.


Well, it's one louder, isn't it? It's not ten.

Skolvikings

6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.

You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.

Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Be humble... grow everyday.

I fear I will always be chasing the vortex like a drug. None will be as special as my first hit.

MY HOF SPEECH

wildirish317

Quote from: AppleJack on March 01, 2019, 10:07:11 AM
Wow.

I thought this intro was just going to get moldy and fade into oblivion.

It does my Quit enormous good to see all/most of the KTC history and wisdom all in one place again! I (and others, for sure) gave Admin some serious shit when we moved over to this site.

For me... almost 6 years have passed since I first typed in this intro and posted roll for the first time. This is stuff I don’t want to forget... ever. That’s why I’m still here and still a 100% poster. To forget is to fail. Do I need to post roll anymore?... Pro’ly not. BUT... addiction isn’t ever cured... it’s just managed. At this point I’m really damn good at it. Being quit isn’t an effort anymore... the work I put in at the beginning let me move Quitting as something I was doing to Being Quit as something I am.

Profound difference.

Anyway... blah, blah, blah.
Loving my freedom more every damn day.

AJ... 2,145

Posting roll is a system.  It's a system that works.  If it ain't broke, don't "fix" it.  I've enjoyed our interactions in Wildcard.
“Everything good that has happened to me has happened as a direct result of helping someone else, everything". - Danny Trejo

AppleJack

Wow.

I thought this intro was just going to get moldy and fade into oblivion.

It does my Quit enormous good to see all/most of the KTC history and wisdom all in one place again! I (and others, for sure) gave Admin some serious shit when we moved over to this site.

For me... almost 6 years have passed since I first typed in this intro and posted roll for the first time. This is stuff I don’t want to forget... ever. That’s why I’m still here and still a 100% poster. To forget is to fail. Do I need to post roll anymore?... Pro’ly not. BUT... addiction isn’t ever cured... it’s just managed. At this point I’m really damn good at it. Being quit isn’t an effort anymore... the work I put in at the beginning let me move Quitting as something I was doing to Being Quit as something I am.

Profound difference.

Anyway... blah, blah, blah.
Loving my freedom more every damn day.

AJ... 2,145
Well, it's one louder, isn't it? It's not ten.