Day 1... I quit

[Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!

Right on Shane....keep leading the way

Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.

Nice work. Congrats!

Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.

One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1

[Steakbomb18]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!

Right on Shane....keep leading the way

Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.

Nice work. Congrats!

Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!

Right on Shane....keep leading the way

Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.

Nice work. Congrats!

[srans]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!

Right on Shane....keep leading the way

Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.

[worktowin]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!

Congrats my friend! This is a much bigger achievement than a non-quitter can understand. Today you can be proud of your accomplishment, personal growth, and the respect you have earned by so many great men and women on this site. Thank you! I'll have some Laphroig in your honor!

[pbrain04]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!

Right on Shane....keep leading the way

[rdad]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!

[Erussell]

Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!

[traumagnet]

I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!

Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.

See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.

So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.

Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.

It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?

Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress

Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.

Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.

Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!

Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.

Looking over your lists makes me think. I used to always have a can in my back pocket at work. If the can I had in my pocket was running low, I'd open a new can before I went on another call. Plus, I'd always have at least one full can in my ballistic vest that I kept on the truck. Usually had one in my turn-out gear that I kept on the truck, too. So glad that I don't have to worry about that anymore.

Now my biggest worry is if I have a pack of gum with me. Luckily, when I forget mine, my partner has one!

I'm with you at being at a loss for words on coming within a month of one year...it seems so impossible yet here we are staring at it dead in the face with no thought of it not getting here.......one day at a time has finally paid off and we are now far enough down the road to look back and see we've finally gotten somewhere. Looking ahead there's still plently of walking to do, but we've got measuarable progess now that a year ago we were so desperately wanting!

Congrats to all of us in July who have made it this far! And to many more!

Oh and to add hiding places plastic bag in the toilet tank and biggest doosh move was to create a false bottom in towel cabinet so that I was able to get in and out quickly and quietly. Another go to was a an unfinished room in the basement a can fits perfect on a floor joist. UGH what a load of crap that was using my woodworking skills and cleverness dooshbaggery for deceit.

Thanks for posting this AJ for a person who wishes he could write better hit this one spot on. QLF w you brother.

[MonsterMedic]

Welcome to the club. Others have hit the nail on the head, reach out. This forum is only as useful a resource as you make it.

[racetrackcowgirl]

I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!

Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.

See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.

So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.

Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.

It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?

Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress

Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.

Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.

Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!

Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.

Looking over your lists makes me think. I used to always have a can in my back pocket at work. If the can I had in my pocket was running low, I'd open a new can before I went on another call. Plus, I'd always have at least one full can in my ballistic vest that I kept on the truck. Usually had one in my turn-out gear that I kept on the truck, too. So glad that I don't have to worry about that anymore.

Now my biggest worry is if I have a pack of gum with me. Luckily, when I forget mine, my partner has one!

I'm with you at being at a loss for words on coming within a month of one year...it seems so impossible yet here we are staring at it dead in the face with no thought of it not getting here.......one day at a time has finally paid off and we are now far enough down the road to look back and see we've finally gotten somewhere. Looking ahead there's still plently of walking to do, but we've got measuarable progess now that a year ago we were so desperately wanting!

Congrats to all of us in July who have made it this far! And to many more!

[MonsterMedic]

I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!

Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.

See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.

So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.

Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.

It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?

Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress

Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.

Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.

Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!

Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.

Looking over your lists makes me think. I used to always have a can in my back pocket at work. If the can I had in my pocket was running low, I'd open a new can before I went on another call. Plus, I'd always have at least one full can in my ballistic vest that I kept on the truck. Usually had one in my turn-out gear that I kept on the truck, too. So glad that I don't have to worry about that anymore.

Now my biggest worry is if I have a pack of gum with me. Luckily, when I forget mine, my partner has one!

[Wt57]

I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!

Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.

See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.

So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.

Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.

It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?

Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress

Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.

Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.

Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!

Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.

[Erussell]

I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!

Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.

See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.

So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.

Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.

It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?

Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress

Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.

Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.

Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!

[worktowin]

I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!

Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.

See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.

So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.

Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.

It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?

Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress

Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.

Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.