Day 1

[wildirish317]

Over 100 hours of quit. I made my drive yesterday with no nic and a ton of chewing gum, thanks for the tips guys.

Today is the best I've felt so far. Minimal headaches, still a little foggy, but this is the first day I've been able to even wrap my mind around being out of the suck. Went outside this morning with a cup of coffee and just thought about how thankful I am to have all I do in my life, including all of you.

Looking back, there were definitely moments this weekend when I subconsciously doubted my ability to succeed with this quit. If I continue to feel as good as I feel now though, I know it's possible. The way I feel now beats anything I felt with nicotine, and I don't even think I'm 100% clear of withdrawal symptoms yet. I am very stressed right now with life and school stuff and I am learning to cope using exercise, meditation and optimism... not nicotine. If I can do it now, I can do it forever.

Future self, never forget the suck.

You are in a good spot. Forewarning, good spots can be just as powerful of a trigger as stress and bad spots. One brother told me to keep my head on a swivel. I did and still do because of that reason. Not saying live a life of paranoia. by no means. Just saying that complacency is a killer.

Side note. You are doing great! I am surprised by your success. And again, no offense. Like I said Med professionals tend to be the hardest. I say that as a counselor and having Doctors and male nurses as clients in the past I know how bull headed you guys are. Keep surprising me! Very proud to be quit with you!


Just for today, Self.

Hey kub, nice post, it definitely stuck out to me.

I have definitely recognized about my self that even when I'm feeling great, that can be the moment I desire a pinch. It might be some sort of self-destructive tendency... I'm not exactly sure, but its happened plenty of times over my life. For example back in college heres a scenario: Wake up on a Saturday morning, haven't dipped or had alcohol in like 2 weeks. Ate super healthy all week, chicken breasts, veggies, greens, etc. Girlfriend out of town for the weekend. So I feel fantastic... promptly go out and grab a pizza, 12 pack of beer, and 2 cans of dip (cause of course can't decide between straight and wintergreen so I get both) and sit at home playing video games drinking and dipping all day.

Be on your guard even when you're feeling great!!

The smarter you are, the more vulnerable you are. Why? Because you can argue with the nic bitch.

Nic bitch wins all arguments.

Best survival tool: learn to run.

One focking day at a time.

You got this, medquit. We all have this. Together.

[ddodge2]

Over 100 hours of quit. I made my drive yesterday with no nic and a ton of chewing gum, thanks for the tips guys.

Today is the best I've felt so far. Minimal headaches, still a little foggy, but this is the first day I've been able to even wrap my mind around being out of the suck. Went outside this morning with a cup of coffee and just thought about how thankful I am to have all I do in my life, including all of you.

Looking back, there were definitely moments this weekend when I subconsciously doubted my ability to succeed with this quit. If I continue to feel as good as I feel now though, I know it's possible. The way I feel now beats anything I felt with nicotine, and I don't even think I'm 100% clear of withdrawal symptoms yet. I am very stressed right now with life and school stuff and I am learning to cope using exercise, meditation and optimism... not nicotine. If I can do it now, I can do it forever.

Future self, never forget the suck.

You are in a good spot. Forewarning, good spots can be just as powerful of a trigger as stress and bad spots. One brother told me to keep my head on a swivel. I did and still do because of that reason. Not saying live a life of paranoia. by no means. Just saying that complacency is a killer.

Side note. You are doing great! I am surprised by your success. And again, no offense. Like I said Med professionals tend to be the hardest. I say that as a counselor and having Doctors and male nurses as clients in the past I know how bull headed you guys are. Keep surprising me! Very proud to be quit with you!


Just for today, Self.

Hey kub, nice post, it definitely stuck out to me.

I have definitely recognized about my self that even when I'm feeling great, that can be the moment I desire a pinch. It might be some sort of self-destructive tendency... I'm not exactly sure, but its happened plenty of times over my life. For example back in college heres a scenario: Wake up on a Saturday morning, haven't dipped or had alcohol in like 2 weeks. Ate super healthy all week, chicken breasts, veggies, greens, etc. Girlfriend out of town for the weekend. So I feel fantastic... promptly go out and grab a pizza, 12 pack of beer, and 2 cans of dip (cause of course can't decide between straight and wintergreen so I get both) and sit at home playing video games drinking and dipping all day.

Be on your guard even when you're feeling great!!

[medquit]

Wow haha what a pleasant surprise to see all these posts here!

I know the NRT thing was just me trying to convince myself it was okay to give up (lies!), and I think that happened yesterday because around 2 weeks was usually where I used to say "ok I have control I can dip now because I know I can go without it."

Breaking through the wall here I am finally in uncharted water, and I think the anxiety about that along with my other life stressors contributed to my mental frameshift. Thank you all for shifting me back.

[Bert75]

Would like someone to talk me out of this please.

I really want to go buy nicotine gum. I know it's my withdrawal/decreased concentration and memory making me want it because I used to be very productive while dipping (it up regulates memory and stuff) and I'm under stress to memorize 10-14 hrs of shit every day right now

I did a bunch of reading and NRT alone is less addictive because it doesn't have continine, nornicotine etc. Some people use it as a "nootropic."

I'm just not sure if this is the logical me just wanting to be focused or the addict me wanting more nicotine. I need to hear a "no you idiot" from you guys I think.

Hey Med! I am just reading this now and thought I would chime in on NRT. I know you are past this for the time being but here's my personal experience... I used NRT gum to stop dipping years ago.. I then became totally addicted to the gum.. After chewing the gum for years and my jaw getting sore I switched to NRT lozenges... This went on for YEARS!! Between the gum and the lozenges I ended up with some dental issues.. I was just as addicted to the NRT as I was the dip and heaters when I smoked.. It's a viscous circle and I would TOTALLY advise against ANY NRT.. I ended up going back to the dip because for some dame reason in my head I thought it was better than destroying my teeth.. That just makes no F'ing sense but that's what I did... Just not worth it in my book..

So, if this happens again please think about my experience and leave it alone! I have followed your intro and you have made my quit stronger!!

[Maddog59]

MedQuit, first thanks for the kind words you posted on my intro page yesterday. I now have my HOF speech posted so if you get a chance, check it out. Quitting this shit is hard and quitting while in medical school has to be brutal but you can do this man. I have read your progression on this thread and you clearly are on your way to being nic free for life. You have the right idea in reaching out for help and advice as you need it. I am always available to help in any way I can, so feel free to PM me. Hang in there it does get better. Freedom from nicotine is incredible.

[Thumblewort]

Would like someone to talk me out of this please.

I really want to go buy nicotine gum. I know it's my withdrawal/decreased concentration and memory making me want it because I used to be very productive while dipping (it up regulates memory and stuff) and I'm under stress to memorize 10-14 hrs of shit every day right now

I did a bunch of reading and NRT alone is less addictive because it doesn't have continine, nornicotine etc. Some people use it as a "nootropic."

I'm just not sure if this is the logical me just wanting to be focused or the addict me wanting more nicotine. I need to hear a "no you idiot" from you guys I think.

Just to reiterate what has already been discussed. No you idiot, don't fucking do it. You aren't going to get the OK from anyone here.

You are smart enough to know that isn't the right answer and no one here is dumb enough to tell you it is.

Through sharing the experience here, we all learn from what other's go through. A great scenario shared here that we can keep in our toolbox to beat back the nic bit(h. Thanks for the share Med and great recovery.

Since you asked, No you idiot!

I came into this site wearing a patch, and was soundly asked to leave until I manned up. It took me 30 days to man up, and guess what? I got to do withdrawals twice, I'm an idiot.

You already have a great start, and I promise it gets better, so much so you'll wonder why you ever started dipping in the first place.

[paul-san]

Would like someone to talk me out of this please.

I really want to go buy nicotine gum. I know it's my withdrawal/decreased concentration and memory making me want it because I used to be very productive while dipping (it up regulates memory and stuff) and I'm under stress to memorize 10-14 hrs of shit every day right now

I did a bunch of reading and NRT alone is less addictive because it doesn't have continine, nornicotine etc. Some people use it as a "nootropic."

I'm just not sure if this is the logical me just wanting to be focused or the addict me wanting more nicotine. I need to hear a "no you idiot" from you guys I think.

Just to reiterate what has already been discussed. No you idiot, don't fucking do it. You aren't going to get the OK from anyone here.

You are smart enough to know that isn't the right answer and no one here is dumb enough to tell you it is.

Through sharing the experience here, we all learn from what other's go through. A great scenario shared here that we can keep in our toolbox to beat back the nic bit(h. Thanks for the share Med and great recovery.

[Rawls]

Med... You lean on drugs or you lean on relationships.
You did good today sir.
Life will get hard tomorrow.
It will also get good.
Drugs are not an option to fight or celebrate.
Drugs are a lie.
They kill people physically and emotionally.
You never needed them before.
You will never need them again.
Learn to live without medicating.
Chase you name MQ.
I Quit with you today.
It gets alot better........ Lots
EDD ODAAT
Rawls 549

[kubiackalpha]

Good job, dude. Don't break weak on the bit(h! Proud to be quit with you!

[medquit]

Didn't mean to call it that, was more saying that if I didn't have KTC then it would have probably ended up being a "first try." I'm in it for the long haul man, or I wouldn't be here.

[FMBM707]

Anyone who reads this as a guest, this site can be a lifesaver. I spent the last 2 weeks building a big safety net and I'm glad I did, I fucking needed it today. Spent the last 30 min texting with 5 different people all explaining to me how wrong I am in every way possible. I personally couldn't have gotten this far (on my first try anyways) without these guys. Thanks for helping me through a rough patch guys, I'm looking forward to returning the favor.

Don't give yourself an 'out' by calling this your first try.

This isn't about trying it's about doing. If you are calling this your first try or thinking about how this is your first try then you are setting yourself up for failure.

This should be about your mission to rid yourself of that nasty shit. Do you really want to leave that door open and go through quitting again?

Med- I know you are having a tough time of it today and you did good by reaching out. Don't leave that door open.

This is a quit from nic, not a stop, not a break, not a vacation from it- this is about quitting.

[medquit]

Anyone who reads this as a guest, this site can be a lifesaver. I spent the last 2 weeks building a big safety net and I'm glad I did, I fucking needed it today. Spent the last 30 min texting with 5 different people all explaining to me how wrong I am in every way possible. I personally couldn't have gotten this far (on my first try anyways) without these guys. Thanks for helping me through a rough patch guys, I'm looking forward to returning the favor.

[FMBM707]

Would like someone to talk me out of this please.

I really want to go buy nicotine gum. I know it's my withdrawal/decreased concentration and memory making me want it because I used to be very productive while dipping (it up regulates memory and stuff) and I'm under stress to memorize 10-14 hrs of shit every day right now

I did a bunch of reading and NRT alone is less addictive because it doesn't have continine, nornicotine etc. Some people use it as a "nootropic."

I'm just not sure if this is the logical me just wanting to be focused or the addict me wanting more nicotine. I need to hear a "no you idiot" from you guys I think.

Just to reiterate what has already been discussed. No you idiot, don't fucking do it. You aren't going to get the OK from anyone here.

You are smart enough to know that isn't the right answer and no one here is dumb enough to tell you it is.

[medquit]

Would like someone to talk me out of this please.

I really want to go buy nicotine gum. I know it's my withdrawal/decreased concentration and memory making me want it because I used to be very productive while dipping (it up regulates memory and stuff) and I'm under stress to memorize 10-14 hrs of shit every day right now

I did a bunch of reading and NRT alone is less addictive because it doesn't have continine, nornicotine etc. Some people use it as a "nootropic."

I'm just not sure if this is the logical me just wanting to be focused or the addict me wanting more nicotine. I need to hear a "no you idiot" from you guys I think.

[mattlock]

Awesome stuff Medquit. Keep it up man you are rockin it! Journal how you are doing everytime you think about it. Not only will help anyone else that comes in here looking for an excuse to flush that poison but it will help remind you how much this whole damn process sucks and keep you committed to never posting another day 1! Anytime you have a crave you can come back and re-read what you were going through and say NAFAR.