Almost Through Day 1

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MonsterMedic

On top of everything, I'm in the middle of a pretty significant fight with the girlfriend. The worst one we've had yet and neither of us want to back down.

This is the worst crave I've experienced so far. But I'm at work, and my partner told me that she refuses to drive the ambulance or let me drive the ambulance to anywhere that sells tobacco. She's been a big help in my quit since she's my voice of reason when I'm away from my girlfriend.
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

MonsterMedic

Quote from: Minny
Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: Raider
Quote from: MonsterEMTDay 17 and I had a few drinks at dinner last night, and didn't have a craving until we were sitting there for about an hour after the drinks stopped.Ã,  Popped in some gum and I was good to go.

QLF EDD!!!
Doesn't it feel great. I complicated my quit by giving up alcohol but I can have it on Sundays. Had 3 cold ones on Sunday and didn't feel a crave at all. I love being nicotine free. Glad to be quit with ya.
People jumped on my case for using alcohol early in my quit. Luckily, I've had people around me to keep me accountable. And I plan to only drink when I have someone there to keep me accountable. As an addict, I can't trust myself (at least not yet). So I'll be keeping someone with me to make sure I don't screw up what I've worked for the last 17 days.

On another note: I had another dip dream last night, and it was terrible. What made it worse was my dream was about a cave. In the dream I put a dip in, and as I was putting the can back in my pocket I was hiding it from people. It was terrible and I am striving to make sure that it doesn't become a reality. I'm proud of my 17 days and plan to continue to add +1's for many days to come.
Cave dreams are a good sign that you are winning and that you respect the layers of accountability you've created.
Thanks. It just sucks waking up thinking that I caved. Then I realize that I'm awake and don't have a dip in. That's a small victory.

I am proud to say that I'm 17 days in and regardless of dreams, haven't caved. And I'm not going to.
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

Minny

Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: Raider
Quote from: MonsterEMTDay 17 and I had a few drinks at dinner last night, and didn't have a craving until we were sitting there for about an hour after the drinks stopped.Ã,  Popped in some gum and I was good to go.

QLF EDD!!!
Doesn't it feel great. I complicated my quit by giving up alcohol but I can have it on Sundays. Had 3 cold ones on Sunday and didn't feel a crave at all. I love being nicotine free. Glad to be quit with ya.
People jumped on my case for using alcohol early in my quit. Luckily, I've had people around me to keep me accountable. And I plan to only drink when I have someone there to keep me accountable. As an addict, I can't trust myself (at least not yet). So I'll be keeping someone with me to make sure I don't screw up what I've worked for the last 17 days.

On another note: I had another dip dream last night, and it was terrible. What made it worse was my dream was about a cave. In the dream I put a dip in, and as I was putting the can back in my pocket I was hiding it from people. It was terrible and I am striving to make sure that it doesn't become a reality. I'm proud of my 17 days and plan to continue to add +1's for many days to come.
Cave dreams are a good sign that you are winning and that you respect the layers of accountability you've created.
Quit Date 7/12/13
HOF Date 10/19/13


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MonsterMedic

Quote from: Raider
Quote from: MonsterEMTDay 17 and I had a few drinks at dinner last night, and didn't have a craving until we were sitting there for about an hour after the drinks stopped.Ã,  Popped in some gum and I was good to go.

QLF EDD!!!
Doesn't it feel great. I complicated my quit by giving up alcohol but I can have it on Sundays. Had 3 cold ones on Sunday and didn't feel a crave at all. I love being nicotine free. Glad to be quit with ya.
People jumped on my case for using alcohol early in my quit. Luckily, I've had people around me to keep me accountable. And I plan to only drink when I have someone there to keep me accountable. As an addict, I can't trust myself (at least not yet). So I'll be keeping someone with me to make sure I don't screw up what I've worked for the last 17 days.

On another note: I had another dip dream last night, and it was terrible. What made it worse was my dream was about a cave. In the dream I put a dip in, and as I was putting the can back in my pocket I was hiding it from people. It was terrible and I am striving to make sure that it doesn't become a reality. I'm proud of my 17 days and plan to continue to add +1's for many days to come.
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

Raider

Quote from: MonsterEMTDay 17 and I had a few drinks at dinner last night, and didn't have a craving until we were sitting there for about an hour after the drinks stopped. Popped in some gum and I was good to go.

QLF EDD!!!
Doesn't it feel great. I complicated my quit by giving up alcohol but I can have it on Sundays. Had 3 cold ones on Sunday and didn't feel a crave at all. I love being nicotine free. Glad to be quit with ya.

MonsterMedic

Day 17 and I had a few drinks at dinner last night, and didn't have a craving until we were sitting there for about an hour after the drinks stopped. Popped in some gum and I was good to go.

QLF EDD!!!
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

MonsterMedic

Quote from: jake
Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: Zillah
Quote from: ppolcyn
Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: slinger
Quote from: MonsterEMTI was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly.Ã,  That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking.Ã,  Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again.Ã, Ã,  15 days!Ã,  I'm not throwing that away!
Well done, Bro. I was in a similar situation last night. The craves were few and brief. Keep up the good work. I'm glad to be quitting with you.
Glad you made it through with few craves, as well!
Playing with fire, drinking early on it quit
What Paul said. He's right. New quitters: If the nic bitch has an accomplice, it's alcohol. A shitload of really solid quits have been lost around here because of what alcohol does. Be aware and beware. It's a real easy way to destroy your quit. This isn't a game. It's your life we're talking about.
ZC
I appreciate and understand your warnings. But, I was at home with no access to dip and I was with a friend and my girlfriend- neither of whom would have taken me anywhere to get dip. I had my plan in place. I kept some fake with me on the event that I felt I needed it. Luckily, I didn't.
Use caution..... AND good job. Half the battle in our quits is simply having a plan in place. This is a victory for you. Associating dip with beer has less power now. I wouldn't suggest trying to change associations too much this early in the game, but I understand. Well done! And I'm assuming your friend knew you were quit and had respect for it?!?!
He did. He knew and supports it. He is also helping to keep me accountable. I know that it's an unnecessary risk to take. However, since I was drinking at home, I had no access to dip. I was in no shape to drive and take that very seriously, so I wasn't going to go anywhere to get dip. And neither my friend, nor my girlfriend, would have driven me somewhere to get dip if I asked.

It worked out and as Ginet said "you will have a lot of 'firsts' with your quit." This was one of those. Believe me, I'm not going back to my old way of life. Nothing can make me. If the people here don't believe that, then you obviously don't know the kind of person I am aside from posting in my thread.
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

jake frawley

Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: Zillah
Quote from: ppolcyn
Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: slinger
Quote from: MonsterEMTI was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly.Ã,  That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking.Ã,  Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again.Ã, Ã,  15 days!Ã,  I'm not throwing that away!
Well done, Bro. I was in a similar situation last night. The craves were few and brief. Keep up the good work. I'm glad to be quitting with you.
Glad you made it through with few craves, as well!
Playing with fire, drinking early on it quit
What Paul said. He's right. New quitters: If the nic bitch has an accomplice, it's alcohol. A shitload of really solid quits have been lost around here because of what alcohol does. Be aware and beware. It's a real easy way to destroy your quit. This isn't a game. It's your life we're talking about.
ZC
I appreciate and understand your warnings. But, I was at home with no access to dip and I was with a friend and my girlfriend- neither of whom would have taken me anywhere to get dip. I had my plan in place. I kept some fake with me on the event that I felt I needed it. Luckily, I didn't.
Use caution..... AND good job. Half the battle in our quits is simply having a plan in place. This is a victory for you. Associating dip with beer has less power now. I wouldn't suggest trying to change associations too much this early in the game, but I understand. Well done! And I'm assuming your friend knew you were quit and had respect for it?!?!

MonsterMedic

Quote from: Zillah
Quote from: ppolcyn
Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: slinger
Quote from: MonsterEMTI was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly.Ã,  That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking.Ã,  Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again.Ã, Ã,  15 days!Ã,  I'm not throwing that away!
Well done, Bro. I was in a similar situation last night. The craves were few and brief. Keep up the good work. I'm glad to be quitting with you.
Glad you made it through with few craves, as well!
Playing with fire, drinking early on it quit
What Paul said. He's right. New quitters: If the nic bitch has an accomplice, it's alcohol. A shitload of really solid quits have been lost around here because of what alcohol does. Be aware and beware. It's a real easy way to destroy your quit. This isn't a game. It's your life we're talking about.
ZC
I appreciate and understand your warnings. But, I was at home with no access to dip and I was with a friend and my girlfriend- neither of whom would have taken me anywhere to get dip. I had my plan in place. I kept some fake with me on the event that I felt I needed it. Luckily, I didn't.
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

ZillahCowboy

Quote from: ppolcyn
Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: slinger
Quote from: MonsterEMTI was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly.Ã,  That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking.Ã,  Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again.Ã, Ã,  15 days!Ã,  I'm not throwing that away!
Well done, Bro. I was in a similar situation last night. The craves were few and brief. Keep up the good work. I'm glad to be quitting with you.
Glad you made it through with few craves, as well!
Playing with fire, drinking early on it quit
What Paul said. He's right. New quitters: If the nic bitch has an accomplice, it's alcohol. A shitload of really solid quits have been lost around here because of what alcohol does. Be aware and beware. It's a real easy way to destroy your quit. This isn't a game. It's your life we're talking about.
ZC

ppolcyn

Quote from: MonsterEMT
Quote from: slinger
Quote from: MonsterEMTI was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly.Ã,  That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking.Ã,  Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again.Ã, Ã,  15 days!Ã,  I'm not throwing that away!
Well done, Bro. I was in a similar situation last night. The craves were few and brief. Keep up the good work. I'm glad to be quitting with you.
Glad you made it through with few craves, as well!
Playing with fire, drinking early on it quit
You may not necessarily need the support, but others most definitely do. Be a shining beacon for others. Blaze the path for them to follow!!!

MonsterMedic

Quote from: slinger
Quote from: MonsterEMTI was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly.Ã,  That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking.Ã,  Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again.Ã,  15 days!Ã,  I'm not throwing that away!
Well done, Bro. I was in a similar situation last night. The craves were few and brief. Keep up the good work. I'm glad to be quitting with you.
Glad you made it through with few craves, as well!
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

slinger

Quote from: MonsterEMTI was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly. That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking. Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again. 15 days! I'm not throwing that away!
Well done, Bro. I was in a similar situation last night. The craves were few and brief. Keep up the good work. I'm glad to be quitting with you.
We are what we repeatedly do. ~ Aristotle

Quit or get off the pot, Sally. ~ Diesel2112

The way I see it, you can either post roll daily or fuck off. ~ jost2brown

Bam! Right in the ass! ~ MonsterEMT

Quit Date: 3/4/14
HOF Date: 6/11/14
2nd Floor: 9/19/14
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MonsterMedic

I was fortunate enough to have some drinks with a friend last night and not crave a dip too badly. That's saying something since I used to chain chew while I was drinking. Not one last night because I don't want the NB taking control of my life again. 15 days! I'm not throwing that away!
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting

MonsterMedic

Quote from: Ginet
Quote from: MonsterEMTI must say, I have a friend over and we're throwing back some brews.Ã,  It's a weird feeling to not have a dip in, but it's a new experience for me to get used to.Ã,  I will not give in.Ã,  QLF!!!
Just be careful. Alcohol can really play a powerful role in increasing that craving and helping the NB put a number on you.

You will have a lot of "new" and "firsts" with your quit....
It's actually going pretty well. Aside from feeling like something is missing physically, haven't had an actual craving yet. :D :D
"Frank Pierce: Saving someone's life is like falling in love. The best drug in the world." - Bringing Out The Dead

Quit Date: 03-02-2014
HOF: 06-09-2014
4K and counting