Hi, I'm JKE and I'm addicted to nicotine.

[danojeno]

With all the caving that has gone on in June the last couple of days I just wanted to come here and post an update. This is more of a journal type post, but if anyone wants to comment, feel free.

I had one of my worst craves in a while last week that was rage associated (meaning I got pissed off and all the sudden my lip started tingling) Link to that here

Also, today I started out very foggy. Felt like day 1 or 2. Very early stages of complete and utter fog. Feels a little better after lunch, but still concerning.

After the weekend of caving we dealt with, I questioned myself. What is stopping me from going back? My wife? She has actually told me to just go to the store and buy a can so I would stop being a shithead at least once during this process. She would be upset if I started dipping again, but she would get over it. I know she would. Is it my family? Most of them dip or smoke. The ones that have tried to quit have failed. Is it posting roll? No. This one is probably going to piss a lot of people off. Posting roll and chatting with a bunch of internet people who would never know that I went back to the can doesn't stop me from going back. So what is stopping me? Myself. I came to KTC because I wanted to quit. I am the only person that keeps myself quit every day. It isn't the goons (granted they are an extreme help). It isn't my family, my wife, my boss, my church, it is me.

While it hurts to see the goons thin out. All I can do is quit for me. Every day. I can't quit for anyone else. They have to win their own battles. I will gladly help sharpen your sword to take to war, but it is only you who can chose to swing it, or lay down and taste defeat.

I am here because I want to be here. I am quit because I want to be quit. I continue the battle every day because I have the will to say no to nicotine.

Love it. And while a bunch of anonymous internet people aren't going to be enough to keep someone quit, maybe some of us don't have the self-esteem or self-respect to 100% quit for ourselves. That's where I appreciate my quit family as a proxy, a vessel I can channel all of that pride and respect into while my love-of-self develops and grows with my quit.

I quit with you today.

JKE, what you didn't get is that it isn't all about YOU. You left this place not understanding that the benefits of the brotherhood go both ways. Good luck on your own.

It has never been about me. I have always been one to help. If you think that is incorrect, then why would it matter if I leave anyway?

And good luck? It isn't about luck. It's about doing. There isn't luck involved in quitting.

Really funny thing. I haven't gotten a single PM, or text from a goon. The only ones that contacted me were non-goons. Which to me, just goes to show why I don't want to post in June anymore. If I could transfer to a different month, I would.

Call me whatever you guys want to make yourselves happy. I truly do not care. I just don't want to be a part of your group anymore. That simple.

So when you take your ball and slam the door I'm supposed to run after you? Is that the game you are playing? If you are on your own you WILL need luck.

[JKEdwards]

With all the caving that has gone on in June the last couple of days I just wanted to come here and post an update. This is more of a journal type post, but if anyone wants to comment, feel free.

I had one of my worst craves in a while last week that was rage associated (meaning I got pissed off and all the sudden my lip started tingling) Link to that here

Also, today I started out very foggy. Felt like day 1 or 2. Very early stages of complete and utter fog. Feels a little better after lunch, but still concerning.

After the weekend of caving we dealt with, I questioned myself. What is stopping me from going back? My wife? She has actually told me to just go to the store and buy a can so I would stop being a shithead at least once during this process. She would be upset if I started dipping again, but she would get over it. I know she would. Is it my family? Most of them dip or smoke. The ones that have tried to quit have failed. Is it posting roll? No. This one is probably going to piss a lot of people off. Posting roll and chatting with a bunch of internet people who would never know that I went back to the can doesn't stop me from going back. So what is stopping me? Myself. I came to KTC because I wanted to quit. I am the only person that keeps myself quit every day. It isn't the goons (granted they are an extreme help). It isn't my family, my wife, my boss, my church, it is me.

While it hurts to see the goons thin out. All I can do is quit for me. Every day. I can't quit for anyone else. They have to win their own battles. I will gladly help sharpen your sword to take to war, but it is only you who can chose to swing it, or lay down and taste defeat.

I am here because I want to be here. I am quit because I want to be quit. I continue the battle every day because I have the will to say no to nicotine.

Love it. And while a bunch of anonymous internet people aren't going to be enough to keep someone quit, maybe some of us don't have the self-esteem or self-respect to 100% quit for ourselves. That's where I appreciate my quit family as a proxy, a vessel I can channel all of that pride and respect into while my love-of-self develops and grows with my quit.

I quit with you today.

JKE, what you didn't get is that it isn't all about YOU. You left this place not understanding that the benefits of the brotherhood go both ways. Good luck on your own.

It has never been about me. I have always been one to help. If you think that is incorrect, then why would it matter if I leave anyway?

And good luck? It isn't about luck. It's about doing. There isn't luck involved in quitting.

Really funny thing. I haven't gotten a single PM, or text from a goon. The only ones that contacted me were non-goons. Which to me, just goes to show why I don't want to post in June anymore. If I could transfer to a different month, I would.

Call me whatever you guys want to make yourselves happy. I truly do not care. I just don't want to be a part of your group anymore. That simple.

[danojeno]

With all the caving that has gone on in June the last couple of days I just wanted to come here and post an update. This is more of a journal type post, but if anyone wants to comment, feel free.

I had one of my worst craves in a while last week that was rage associated (meaning I got pissed off and all the sudden my lip started tingling) Link to that here

Also, today I started out very foggy. Felt like day 1 or 2. Very early stages of complete and utter fog. Feels a little better after lunch, but still concerning.

After the weekend of caving we dealt with, I questioned myself. What is stopping me from going back? My wife? She has actually told me to just go to the store and buy a can so I would stop being a shithead at least once during this process. She would be upset if I started dipping again, but she would get over it. I know she would. Is it my family? Most of them dip or smoke. The ones that have tried to quit have failed. Is it posting roll? No. This one is probably going to piss a lot of people off. Posting roll and chatting with a bunch of internet people who would never know that I went back to the can doesn't stop me from going back. So what is stopping me? Myself. I came to KTC because I wanted to quit. I am the only person that keeps myself quit every day. It isn't the goons (granted they are an extreme help). It isn't my family, my wife, my boss, my church, it is me.

While it hurts to see the goons thin out. All I can do is quit for me. Every day. I can't quit for anyone else. They have to win their own battles. I will gladly help sharpen your sword to take to war, but it is only you who can chose to swing it, or lay down and taste defeat.

I am here because I want to be here. I am quit because I want to be quit. I continue the battle every day because I have the will to say no to nicotine.

Love it. And while a bunch of anonymous internet people aren't going to be enough to keep someone quit, maybe some of us don't have the self-esteem or self-respect to 100% quit for ourselves. That's where I appreciate my quit family as a proxy, a vessel I can channel all of that pride and respect into while my love-of-self develops and grows with my quit.

I quit with you today.

JKE, what you didn't get is that it isn't all about YOU. You left this place not understanding that the benefits of the brotherhood go both ways. Good luck on your own.

[Robb Wolf]

With all the caving that has gone on in June the last couple of days I just wanted to come here and post an update. This is more of a journal type post, but if anyone wants to comment, feel free.

I had one of my worst craves in a while last week that was rage associated (meaning I got pissed off and all the sudden my lip started tingling) Link to that here

Also, today I started out very foggy. Felt like day 1 or 2. Very early stages of complete and utter fog. Feels a little better after lunch, but still concerning.

After the weekend of caving we dealt with, I questioned myself. What is stopping me from going back? My wife? She has actually told me to just go to the store and buy a can so I would stop being a shithead at least once during this process. She would be upset if I started dipping again, but she would get over it. I know she would. Is it my family? Most of them dip or smoke. The ones that have tried to quit have failed. Is it posting roll? No. This one is probably going to piss a lot of people off. Posting roll and chatting with a bunch of internet people who would never know that I went back to the can doesn't stop me from going back. So what is stopping me? Myself. I came to KTC because I wanted to quit. I am the only person that keeps myself quit every day. It isn't the goons (granted they are an extreme help). It isn't my family, my wife, my boss, my church, it is me.

While it hurts to see the goons thin out. All I can do is quit for me. Every day. I can't quit for anyone else. They have to win their own battles. I will gladly help sharpen your sword to take to war, but it is only you who can chose to swing it, or lay down and taste defeat.

I am here because I want to be here. I am quit because I want to be quit. I continue the battle every day because I have the will to say no to nicotine.

Love it. And while a bunch of anonymous internet people aren't going to be enough to keep someone quit, maybe some of us don't have the self-esteem or self-respect to 100% quit for ourselves. That's where I appreciate my quit family as a proxy, a vessel I can channel all of that pride and respect into while my love-of-self develops and grows with my quit.

I quit with you today.

[JKEdwards]

With all the caving that has gone on in June the last couple of days I just wanted to come here and post an update. This is more of a journal type post, but if anyone wants to comment, feel free.

I had one of my worst craves in a while last week that was rage associated (meaning I got pissed off and all the sudden my lip started tingling) Link to that here

Also, today I started out very foggy. Felt like day 1 or 2. Very early stages of complete and utter fog. Feels a little better after lunch, but still concerning.

After the weekend of caving we dealt with, I questioned myself. What is stopping me from going back? My wife? She has actually told me to just go to the store and buy a can so I would stop being a shithead at least once during this process. She would be upset if I started dipping again, but she would get over it. I know she would. Is it my family? Most of them dip or smoke. The ones that have tried to quit have failed. Is it posting roll? No. This one is probably going to piss a lot of people off. Posting roll and chatting with a bunch of internet people who would never know that I went back to the can doesn't stop me from going back. So what is stopping me? Myself. I came to KTC because I wanted to quit. I am the only person that keeps myself quit every day. It isn't the goons (granted they are an extreme help). It isn't my family, my wife, my boss, my church, it is me.

While it hurts to see the goons thin out. All I can do is quit for me. Every day. I can't quit for anyone else. They have to win their own battles. I will gladly help sharpen your sword to take to war, but it is only you who can chose to swing it, or lay down and taste defeat.

I am here because I want to be here. I am quit because I want to be quit. I continue the battle every day because I have the will to say no to nicotine.

[KSO FTZ]

FBI vs police South Park was just on....alll time favorite.

[KSO FTZ]

Sucking in all the KTC cool-aid with you brother! It always brings a smile to my face when I see your avatar on roll. Respecting the author-tie and the quit...... See you on the other side of 100. Look forward to your HOF speech.

[Dagranger]

Hey all, I'm JKEdwards of the June 15 group. I haven't made an intro yet, so I figured I should probably do that. Better late than never right? I am 26 days into my quit, and it feels amazing. The simple fact that I don't feel like a jackass for lying to my wife, I don't have to be ashamed about spit bottles laying around, and so many more small things that weren't possible while dipping. I had tried quitting before, but had no luck. Granted, I used to work at a gas station, so when I had a bad day, I just turned around and bought a can of dip. Kind of made quitting hard. These days I'm an engineer. So that has helped a bit. Also, I'm quitting for myself this time, before it was for my wife, or any other reason that I didn't care enough about. (Sad, but true). I also have KTC this time. Having the accountability and all the guys in June at my back, makes this hard battle easier. As many have said, it's as simple as ODAAT for me. We can all quit something for one day right?

June Goon strong! Make quits hard like woodpecker lips!

I will gladly suck woodpecker lips, if it means I am quit. LOL

This site saved my life...It will save anyone who wants to be free.

1057 days in a row. If my sorry ass can do this, anyone can.

Congratulations brother on the 26 days! Stay strong, stay focused and most of all stay quit! Odaat! EDD! All the little things you start seeing that you didn't do because of dipping and you just have hard time believing all the stuff you missed. Things are more clear! No more stinking ass breath. Proud to be quit with you today my friend! ODAAT! EDD!

I will stand by you JKE. I believe you get it. Well done brother. Keep going. It only gets better!

You are stepping up to the plate young man gonna be damn strong in the community! Damn proud to be quit with you!

Thanks guys. KTC works. My past attempts did not. So therefore I see absolutely no reason to not drink the koolaid. Plus it feels damn good to be there for the other quitters on the site. I wouldn't be where I'm at without this place. Thanks for all the support guys. KTC would be nothing without those before me, and I just hope to pay it back like you guys do for me. Happy to quit with you all EDD.

Keep posting +1's, and pay it forward, helping a new quitter in Day 1 is an awesome thing, because we were all there too.

For all the reasons I love being quit....number one by a mile is being able to be honest with my wife again. Nice reflection.

[Thumblewort]

Hey all, I'm JKEdwards of the June 15 group. I haven't made an intro yet, so I figured I should probably do that. Better late than never right? I am 26 days into my quit, and it feels amazing. The simple fact that I don't feel like a jackass for lying to my wife, I don't have to be ashamed about spit bottles laying around, and so many more small things that weren't possible while dipping. I had tried quitting before, but had no luck. Granted, I used to work at a gas station, so when I had a bad day, I just turned around and bought a can of dip. Kind of made quitting hard. These days I'm an engineer. So that has helped a bit. Also, I'm quitting for myself this time, before it was for my wife, or any other reason that I didn't care enough about. (Sad, but true). I also have KTC this time. Having the accountability and all the guys in June at my back, makes this hard battle easier. As many have said, it's as simple as ODAAT for me. We can all quit something for one day right?

June Goon strong! Make quits hard like woodpecker lips!

I will gladly suck woodpecker lips, if it means I am quit. LOL

This site saved my life...It will save anyone who wants to be free.

1057 days in a row. If my sorry ass can do this, anyone can.

Congratulations brother on the 26 days! Stay strong, stay focused and most of all stay quit! Odaat! EDD! All the little things you start seeing that you didn't do because of dipping and you just have hard time believing all the stuff you missed. Things are more clear! No more stinking ass breath. Proud to be quit with you today my friend! ODAAT! EDD!

I will stand by you JKE. I believe you get it. Well done brother. Keep going. It only gets better!

You are stepping up to the plate young man gonna be damn strong in the community! Damn proud to be quit with you!

Thanks guys. KTC works. My past attempts did not. So therefore I see absolutely no reason to not drink the koolaid. Plus it feels damn good to be there for the other quitters on the site. I wouldn't be where I'm at without this place. Thanks for all the support guys. KTC would be nothing without those before me, and I just hope to pay it back like you guys do for me. Happy to quit with you all EDD.

Keep posting +1's, and pay it forward, helping a new quitter in Day 1 is an awesome thing, because we were all there too.

[JKEdwards]

Hey all, I'm JKEdwards of the June 15 group. I haven't made an intro yet, so I figured I should probably do that. Better late than never right? I am 26 days into my quit, and it feels amazing. The simple fact that I don't feel like a jackass for lying to my wife, I don't have to be ashamed about spit bottles laying around, and so many more small things that weren't possible while dipping. I had tried quitting before, but had no luck. Granted, I used to work at a gas station, so when I had a bad day, I just turned around and bought a can of dip. Kind of made quitting hard. These days I'm an engineer. So that has helped a bit. Also, I'm quitting for myself this time, before it was for my wife, or any other reason that I didn't care enough about. (Sad, but true). I also have KTC this time. Having the accountability and all the guys in June at my back, makes this hard battle easier. As many have said, it's as simple as ODAAT for me. We can all quit something for one day right?

June Goon strong! Make quits hard like woodpecker lips!

I will gladly suck woodpecker lips, if it means I am quit. LOL

This site saved my life...It will save anyone who wants to be free.

1057 days in a row. If my sorry ass can do this, anyone can.

Congratulations brother on the 26 days! Stay strong, stay focused and most of all stay quit! Odaat! EDD! All the little things you start seeing that you didn't do because of dipping and you just have hard time believing all the stuff you missed. Things are more clear! No more stinking ass breath. Proud to be quit with you today my friend! ODAAT! EDD!

I will stand by you JKE. I believe you get it. Well done brother. Keep going. It only gets better!

You are stepping up to the plate young man gonna be damn strong in the community! Damn proud to be quit with you!

Thanks guys. KTC works. My past attempts did not. So therefore I see absolutely no reason to not drink the koolaid. Plus it feels damn good to be there for the other quitters on the site. I wouldn't be where I'm at without this place. Thanks for all the support guys. KTC would be nothing without those before me, and I just hope to pay it back like you guys do for me. Happy to quit with you all EDD.

[pab1964]

Hey all, I'm JKEdwards of the June 15 group. I haven't made an intro yet, so I figured I should probably do that. Better late than never right? I am 26 days into my quit, and it feels amazing. The simple fact that I don't feel like a jackass for lying to my wife, I don't have to be ashamed about spit bottles laying around, and so many more small things that weren't possible while dipping. I had tried quitting before, but had no luck. Granted, I used to work at a gas station, so when I had a bad day, I just turned around and bought a can of dip. Kind of made quitting hard. These days I'm an engineer. So that has helped a bit. Also, I'm quitting for myself this time, before it was for my wife, or any other reason that I didn't care enough about. (Sad, but true). I also have KTC this time. Having the accountability and all the guys in June at my back, makes this hard battle easier. As many have said, it's as simple as ODAAT for me. We can all quit something for one day right?

June Goon strong! Make quits hard like woodpecker lips!

I will gladly suck woodpecker lips, if it means I am quit. LOL

This site saved my life...It will save anyone who wants to be free.

1057 days in a row. If my sorry ass can do this, anyone can.

Congratulations brother on the 26 days! Stay strong, stay focused and most of all stay quit! Odaat! EDD! All the little things you start seeing that you didn't do because of dipping and you just have hard time believing all the stuff you missed. Things are more clear! No more stinking ass breath. Proud to be quit with you today my friend! ODAAT! EDD!

I will stand by you JKE. I believe you get it. Well done brother. Keep going. It only gets better!

You are stepping up to the plate young man gonna be damn strong in the community! Damn proud to be quit with you!

[rdad]

Hey all, I'm JKEdwards of the June 15 group. I haven't made an intro yet, so I figured I should probably do that. Better late than never right? I am 26 days into my quit, and it feels amazing. The simple fact that I don't feel like a jackass for lying to my wife, I don't have to be ashamed about spit bottles laying around, and so many more small things that weren't possible while dipping. I had tried quitting before, but had no luck. Granted, I used to work at a gas station, so when I had a bad day, I just turned around and bought a can of dip. Kind of made quitting hard. These days I'm an engineer. So that has helped a bit. Also, I'm quitting for myself this time, before it was for my wife, or any other reason that I didn't care enough about. (Sad, but true). I also have KTC this time. Having the accountability and all the guys in June at my back, makes this hard battle easier. As many have said, it's as simple as ODAAT for me. We can all quit something for one day right?

June Goon strong! Make quits hard like woodpecker lips!

I will gladly suck woodpecker lips, if it means I am quit. LOL

This site saved my life...It will save anyone who wants to be free.

1057 days in a row. If my sorry ass can do this, anyone can.

Congratulations brother on the 26 days! Stay strong, stay focused and most of all stay quit! Odaat! EDD! All the little things you start seeing that you didn't do because of dipping and you just have hard time believing all the stuff you missed. Things are more clear! No more stinking ass breath. Proud to be quit with you today my friend! ODAAT! EDD!

I will stand by you JKE. I believe you get it. Well done brother. Keep going. It only gets better!

[danojeno]

Proud to be quit with you, JKE. We got this Today!

[pab1964]

Hey all, I'm JKEdwards of the June 15 group. I haven't made an intro yet, so I figured I should probably do that. Better late than never right? I am 26 days into my quit, and it feels amazing. The simple fact that I don't feel like a jackass for lying to my wife, I don't have to be ashamed about spit bottles laying around, and so many more small things that weren't possible while dipping. I had tried quitting before, but had no luck. Granted, I used to work at a gas station, so when I had a bad day, I just turned around and bought a can of dip. Kind of made quitting hard. These days I'm an engineer. So that has helped a bit. Also, I'm quitting for myself this time, before it was for my wife, or any other reason that I didn't care enough about. (Sad, but true). I also have KTC this time. Having the accountability and all the guys in June at my back, makes this hard battle easier. As many have said, it's as simple as ODAAT for me. We can all quit something for one day right?

June Goon strong! Make quits hard like woodpecker lips!

I will gladly suck woodpecker lips, if it means I am quit. LOL

This site saved my life...It will save anyone who wants to be free.

1057 days in a row. If my sorry ass can do this, anyone can.

Congratulations brother on the 26 days! Stay strong, stay focused and most of all stay quit! Odaat! EDD! All the little things you start seeing that you didn't do because of dipping and you just have hard time believing all the stuff you missed. Things are more clear! No more stinking ass breath. Proud to be quit with you today my friend! ODAAT! EDD!

[30isEnuff]

Hey all, I'm JKEdwards of the June 15 group. I haven't made an intro yet, so I figured I should probably do that. Better late than never right? I am 26 days into my quit, and it feels amazing. The simple fact that I don't feel like a jackass for lying to my wife, I don't have to be ashamed about spit bottles laying around, and so many more small things that weren't possible while dipping. I had tried quitting before, but had no luck. Granted, I used to work at a gas station, so when I had a bad day, I just turned around and bought a can of dip. Kind of made quitting hard. These days I'm an engineer. So that has helped a bit. Also, I'm quitting for myself this time, before it was for my wife, or any other reason that I didn't care enough about. (Sad, but true). I also have KTC this time. Having the accountability and all the guys in June at my back, makes this hard battle easier. As many have said, it's as simple as ODAAT for me. We can all quit something for one day right?

June Goon strong! Make quits hard like woodpecker lips!

I will gladly suck woodpecker lips, if it means I am quit. LOL

This site saved my life...It will save anyone who wants to be free.

1057 days in a row. If my sorry ass can do this, anyone can.