Well today seems as good of day as any. I have been chewing since I have been 15 years old and I am not too far past 23. I have been a pretty consistent user and have gone from the causal chewer to the in denial addict to the guy who has claimed to have quit umpteen million times and always ends up back at square one- being comfortable with the fact that I chew and aignt nothing anybody can do to change that.
Came across this site with a fat lipper in at the office yesterday and after having been on the fence of mustering up the courage to try and go one more round with walking away from it for good, I figured why the hell not!
I have been off the chaw for just about a 20 hours now and I would be lying if I said it wasn't tempting me already. I have made a few weeks and months on occasion but its never a walk in the park. Reading the stories and some of the posts on here is as good as a motivator as any that it can be done and it is all up to me to do it.
I have a beautiful girlfriend I am moving in with and would like clear the first week of pure anxiety and instability while we aren't under the same roof.
This has been a long time coming and have not been comfortable with myself buying tin after tin and telling myself and everyone "This is my last one" and setting a quit date to get to it and say "I still have half a tin, I will start when it is gone". No more denial and no more backing down from the challenge. This is a victory that is worth fighting for and this is a victory I need to prove to myself I can overcome this obstacle.
