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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #40 on: February 03, 2021, 07:08:36 PM »
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I have 5 little questions if you can give me 2 minutes of your time. Just 120 seconds might change your life.

If you are reading this and you aren't part of this site ask yourself:

1) Why are you here?
2) Why do you keep chewing/using tobacco when you know you want to quit?
3) Why don't you take a serious step this time and quit for good?
4) Why do you keep promising yourself you will quit only to cave into nicotine?
5) Why don't you be accountable to yourself and quit?

Addiction sucks. It's expensive and it can take more from you than your money. You know what I am talking about but that can't happen to you. That always happens to someone else never you. That's what I used to think too back when I chewed. I used to freak out over any little bump on a gum or cheek or any sore on my tongue or in my mouth. I would make deals with God that I'd quit this time if it didn't turn out to be cancer only to fall back into addiction. Yeah I know where you are. You want to quit or you wouldn't be reading this.

Bottom line:
It will suck for awhile until it doesn't but the payout is so worth it if you take this seriously and quit for good. What do you have to lose?

Stop lurking and start doing. This is your golden opportunity to get serious about helping yourself be better. Gather some courage and make it happen and I promise in time you will look back on your accomplishment and think why didn't you do this sooner.

CTF

Wish all the guests would read this. Well said CTF!

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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #39 on: February 03, 2021, 11:18:36 AM »
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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #38 on: February 03, 2021, 12:05:22 AM »
11 guests viewing..

I have 5 little questions if you can give me 2 minutes of your time. Just 120 seconds might change your life.

If you are reading this and you aren't part of this site ask yourself:

1) Why are you here?
2) Why do you keep chewing/using tobacco when you know you want to quit?
3) Why don't you take a serious step this time and quit for good?
4) Why do you keep promising yourself you will quit only to cave into nicotine?
5) Why don't you be accountable to yourself and quit?

Addiction sucks. It's expensive and it can take more from you than your money. You know what I am talking about but that can't happen to you. That always happens to someone else never you. That's what I used to think too back when I chewed. I used to freak out over any little bump on a gum or cheek or any sore on my tongue or in my mouth. I would make deals with God that I'd quit this time if it didn't turn out to be cancer only to fall back into addiction. Yeah I know where you are. You want to quit or you wouldn't be reading this.

Bottom line:
It will suck for awhile until it doesn't but the payout is so worth it if you take this seriously and quit for good. What do you have to lose?

Stop lurking and start doing. This is your golden opportunity to get serious about helping yourself be better. Gather some courage and make it happen and I promise in time you will look back on your accomplishment and think why didn't you do this sooner.

CTF


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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #37 on: January 04, 2021, 06:45:53 PM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeies are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more aboutme. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.

Honored that I could help you quit just one more day.

You're at a weird stage in your quit. It's lost its luster.... you question if you'll ever be free from its clutches. You start looking off to the horizon, wondering if you can do this forever.... wondering if you can do this by yourself....

We've all been there in some form or fashion. All I know is, it gets better. You've been hearing those words for the last 200+ days. And you know they are true. I promise you the best is still to come. If you're here long enough you start to see some of the patterns. You'll see people leave, only to com e back and post a day 1..... and some of those people end up not making it... and there's people that just silently become slaves again.

Keep posting roll every day. One of the best ways to fight craves is find a fresh new quitter and take them under your wing. When you have someone looking up to you, it will strengthen your own quit. And when you see someone struggling through that first week, it's a great reminder that you NEVER want to be there again. 

Sorry for being king winded....

Proud to be quit with you today.

batman-wink
Hang in there brother!  Days 200-300 for me had some horrible f*ucked up days with cravings, funk, and fog.  I felt like that this shit should be long behind me.  Then a short time after day 300 it was like the sun shining after a nasty storm...everything changed.  I still have cravings now but my head is clear and zero effects that I used to have.
Just remember we are all there for you and each other... if it take one min at a time then do it.... message me if you need me...
What you are experiencing is incredibly common and something I experienced as well. It is the reason we really try to drive home the fact that the HOF is merely the end of the beginning. Slumps and periods of urges happen at various stages throughout the first couple years. The best advice I can give is to stay close to the site, post early EDD and keep those digits handy. Drink water, exercise and find some candies or seeds or fake to curb the intense cravings.

There will always be peaks and valleys in this journey. I've always said to enjoy the periods of smooth sailing and fight like hell during the tough times. Remember, what you are experiencing will pass. Keep fighting brother and proud to be quit with you today.

Hey CTF.  I may be the wrong person to respond to this one.  I feel like a little bitch whenever I think about how often I crave and how much mental energy I use to fight them off.  I feel somewhat unique in this as I do not see too many posts like yours out there...especially from folks past the HOF. 

That being said, the difference in these craves from day 100 to present (539) is not even comparable.  The more time and space I put between myself and the can, the brighter the light at the end of the tunnel becomes. 

Unfortunately, as you know, there is no silver bullet.  We are addicts...always will be.  As a result, we will ALWAYS have to fight this battle in one way or another.  Bright side:  you will never have to do it alone!!!

Shoulder to shoulder with you my friend.

~HAG
Thanks buddy! No wiser words will I read today.

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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #36 on: January 04, 2021, 06:05:22 PM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeies are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more aboutme. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.

Honored that I could help you quit just one more day.

You're at a weird stage in your quit. It's lost its luster.... you question if you'll ever be free from its clutches. You start looking off to the horizon, wondering if you can do this forever.... wondering if you can do this by yourself....

We've all been there in some form or fashion. All I know is, it gets better. You've been hearing those words for the last 200+ days. And you know they are true. I promise you the best is still to come. If you're here long enough you start to see some of the patterns. You'll see people leave, only to com e back and post a day 1..... and some of those people end up not making it... and there's people that just silently become slaves again.

Keep posting roll every day. One of the best ways to fight craves is find a fresh new quitter and take them under your wing. When you have someone looking up to you, it will strengthen your own quit. And when you see someone struggling through that first week, it's a great reminder that you NEVER want to be there again. 

Sorry for being king winded....

Proud to be quit with you today.

batman-wink
Hang in there brother!  Days 200-300 for me had some horrible f*ucked up days with cravings, funk, and fog.  I felt like that this shit should be long behind me.  Then a short time after day 300 it was like the sun shining after a nasty storm...everything changed.  I still have cravings now but my head is clear and zero effects that I used to have.
Just remember we are all there for you and each other... if it take one min at a time then do it.... message me if you need me...
What you are experiencing is incredibly common and something I experienced as well. It is the reason we really try to drive home the fact that the HOF is merely the end of the beginning. Slumps and periods of urges happen at various stages throughout the first couple years. The best advice I can give is to stay close to the site, post early EDD and keep those digits handy. Drink water, exercise and find some candies or seeds or fake to curb the intense cravings.

There will always be peaks and valleys in this journey. I've always said to enjoy the periods of smooth sailing and fight like hell during the tough times. Remember, what you are experiencing will pass. Keep fighting brother and proud to be quit with you today.

Hey CTF.  I may be the wrong person to respond to this one.  I feel like a little bitch whenever I think about how often I crave and how much mental energy I use to fight them off.  I feel somewhat unique in this as I do not see too many posts like yours out there...especially from folks past the HOF. 

That being said, the difference in these craves from day 100 to present (539) is not even comparable.  The more time and space I put between myself and the can, the brighter the light at the end of the tunnel becomes. 

Unfortunately, as you know, there is no silver bullet.  We are addicts...always will be.  As a result, we will ALWAYS have to fight this battle in one way or another.  Bright side:  you will never have to do it alone!!!

Shoulder to shoulder with you my friend.

~HAG

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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #35 on: January 04, 2021, 11:43:57 AM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeies are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more aboutme. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.

Honored that I could help you quit just one more day.

You're at a weird stage in your quit. It's lost its luster.... you question if you'll ever be free from its clutches. You start looking off to the horizon, wondering if you can do this forever.... wondering if you can do this by yourself....

We've all been there in some form or fashion. All I know is, it gets better. You've been hearing those words for the last 200+ days. And you know they are true. I promise you the best is still to come. If you're here long enough you start to see some of the patterns. You'll see people leave, only to com e back and post a day 1..... and some of those people end up not making it... and there's people that just silently become slaves again.

Keep posting roll every day. One of the best ways to fight craves is find a fresh new quitter and take them under your wing. When you have someone looking up to you, it will strengthen your own quit. And when you see someone struggling through that first week, it's a great reminder that you NEVER want to be there again. 

Sorry for being king winded....

Proud to be quit with you today.

batman-wink
Hang in there brother!  Days 200-300 for me had some horrible f*ucked up days with cravings, funk, and fog.  I felt like that this shit should be long behind me.  Then a short time after day 300 it was like the sun shining after a nasty storm...everything changed.  I still have cravings now but my head is clear and zero effects that I used to have.
Just remember we are all there for you and each other... if it take one min at a time then do it.... message me if you need me...
What you are experiencing is incredibly common and something I experienced as well. It is the reason we really try to drive home the fact that the HOF is merely the end of the beginning. Slumps and periods of urges happen at various stages throughout the first couple years. The best advice I can give is to stay close to the site, post early EDD and keep those digits handy. Drink water, exercise and find some candies or seeds or fake to curb the intense cravings.

There will always be peaks and valleys in this journey. I've always said to enjoy the periods of smooth sailing and fight like hell during the tough times. Remember, what you are experiencing will pass. Keep fighting brother and proud to be quit with you today.
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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #34 on: January 04, 2021, 10:59:13 AM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeies are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more aboutme. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.

Honored that I could help you quit just one more day.

You're at a weird stage in your quit. It's lost its luster.... you question if you'll ever be free from its clutches. You start looking off to the horizon, wondering if you can do this forever.... wondering if you can do this by yourself....

We've all been there in some form or fashion. All I know is, it gets better. You've been hearing those words for the last 200+ days. And you know they are true. I promise you the best is still to come. If you're here long enough you start to see some of the patterns. You'll see people leave, only to com e back and post a day 1..... and some of those people end up not making it... and there's people that just silently become slaves again.

Keep posting roll every day. One of the best ways to fight craves is find a fresh new quitter and take them under your wing. When you have someone looking up to you, it will strengthen your own quit. And when you see someone struggling through that first week, it's a great reminder that you NEVER want to be there again. 

Sorry for being king winded....

Proud to be quit with you today.

batman-wink
Hang in there brother!  Days 200-300 for me had some horrible f*ucked up days with cravings, funk, and fog.  I felt like that this shit should be long behind me.  Then a short time after day 300 it was like the sun shining after a nasty storm...everything changed.  I still have cravings now but my head is clear and zero effects that I used to have.
Just remember we are all there for you and each other... if it take one min at a time then do it.... message me if you need me...

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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #33 on: January 04, 2021, 08:25:15 AM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeies are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more aboutme. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.

Honored that I could help you quit just one more day.

You're at a weird stage in your quit. It's lost its luster.... you question if you'll ever be free from its clutches. You start looking off to the horizon, wondering if you can do this forever.... wondering if you can do this by yourself....

We've all been there in some form or fashion. All I know is, it gets better. You've been hearing those words for the last 200+ days. And you know they are true. I promise you the best is still to come. If you're here long enough you start to see some of the patterns. You'll see people leave, only to com e back and post a day 1..... and some of those people end up not making it... and there's people that just silently become slaves again.

Keep posting roll every day. One of the best ways to fight craves is find a fresh new quitter and take them under your wing. When you have someone looking up to you, it will strengthen your own quit. And when you see someone struggling through that first week, it's a great reminder that you NEVER want to be there again. 

Sorry for being king winded....

Proud to be quit with you today.

batman-wink
Hang in there brother!  Days 200-300 for me had some horrible f*ucked up days with cravings, funk, and fog.  I felt like that this shit should be long behind me.  Then a short time after day 300 it was like the sun shining after a nasty storm...everything changed.  I still have cravings now but my head is clear and zero effects that I used to have. 
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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #32 on: January 04, 2021, 08:19:21 AM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeies are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more aboutme. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.

Honored that I could help you quit just one more day.

You're at a weird stage in your quit. It's lost its luster.... you question if you'll ever be free from its clutches. You start looking off to the horizon, wondering if you can do this forever.... wondering if you can do this by yourself....

We've all been there in some form or fashion. All I know is, it gets better. You've been hearing those words for the last 200+ days. And you know they are true. I promise you the best is still to come. If you're here long enough you start to see some of the patterns. You'll see people leave, only to com e back and post a day 1..... and some of those people end up not making it... and there's people that just silently become slaves again.

Keep posting roll every day. One of the best ways to fight craves is find a fresh new quitter and take them under your wing. When you have someone looking up to you, it will strengthen your own quit. And when you see someone struggling through that first week, it's a great reminder that you NEVER want to be there again. 

Sorry for being king winded....

Proud to be quit with you today.

batman-wink
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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #31 on: January 04, 2021, 02:18:25 AM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeys are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more about me. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.

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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #30 on: January 04, 2021, 01:56:51 AM »
CTF day 219

For some time now, maybe a month, I have been fighting the urge to chew.  I am saying this not trying to alarm anyone but I am being truthful about my journey and it is happening. I mitigate these moments of temptation/stupidity with the realization that I don't want to go back to chewing, dealing with mouth sores, having my jaw hurt, my gums bleed, stinky breath, yellow teeth, dealing with a bottle of chew spit that will eventually be spilled, the possibility of cancer or dying from this shit, etc.

These moments are just that but I have been experiencing them multiple times a day. Usually they last 15-30 seconds and I am past it. I have enough willpower/resolve to get through this. Strange though how I am past physical addiction but my mind keeps playing with me from time to time.

What helped me tonight was reading the drama going on in April 21. There were some epic posts by: @Batdad @69franx @EXBEARHAG @FH @Athan  and I am sure I missed someone but those names come to mind. All of their words spoke to me basically saying don't be stupid and you are 219 days down the road and going back to day 1 is a fools choice.

These moments of craving makes me ask myself:
Why is this happening?
Will this continue and if so for how long?

I expect no one person has a good answer for me because all of our journeies are unique to oneself. Still I am trying to understand more aboutme. Stupid ass nicotine how I hate you.

Stay Strong my friends.
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« Reply #29 on: December 30, 2020, 06:35:28 PM »
Reflecting on 200 days

It's been awhile and it has been an interesting ride. It hasn't been too bad but I have had some challenges. I have passed the challenges of the first 30-60.days, long road trips, golf outings with the buddies, beers with the usual suspects, mindless house project tasks where a chew would be in my face but here I am at 200 days still rock solid. I honestly couldn't be happier. I can go to the dentist with out a dirty look and lecture from the doc and/or the hygienist. I have lower health insurance being a non-user. I am beating this addiction one day at a time.

It is not to say I don't have my difficult moments but still they are just moments rather than hours or days. It does get easier. I really think now I have to take a serious stupid pill to ever dip again. Then I think of guys who have been exactly in my shoes who caved and why did they do so? Is it a moment of stupidity? A fuck it attitude? The guilt I would have if that was me. Worse than Catholic (times) Jewish guilt but still I feel for them and wish they had been stronger willed.

Short story:
I ran into a kid, he is 25 years younger than me so kid he is, who was dipping the other day. I said why don't you quit that junk? The answer somewhat surprised me with his brutal honesty. "I don't want to!" I was surprised because I wanted to quit but didn't forever. This kid has been dipping for at least 10 years and he doesn't want to? He must be some US Tobacco Superman because my ass wanted to quit a bunch of times by that year mark. I don't want to, please. Still I tried to say all the right things like it will kill you or it is expensive or don't your gums hurt? No luck. The kid was resolute with his decision. I left him and saying come talk to me one day when you want to quit because it will come and I can tell you how. You can't win them all.

I am just glad I have 200 in the books and I can look the old wife in the eyes and say nope not today. I am beating this demon one day at a time. Screw you big tobacco! I am so glad to be free of your crap garbage product.
Congrats brother. Keep following your routine and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you today.
Great job CTF, love seeing you win and post about it.
Great stuff CTF, I have a friend who also doesn't want to quit. Despite the fact that myself and one of our other buddies are bot quit for almost the same amount of time. Tried again to talk some sense into him last weekend to no avail. All we can do is try. We can help them along the way, but they have to make the choice. He will realize sooner or later and come asking you.

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As I write this there is 25 guests viewing these pages. 25 people who are on the verge of saying I'm done. If you're reading this and you are considering quitting just do it. It will suck for a little while but it will be worth it in the long run. Happy New Year! Now make that resolution and quit.
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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #28 on: December 16, 2020, 12:26:42 PM »
Reflecting on 200 days

It's been awhile and it has been an interesting ride. It hasn't been too bad but I have had some challenges. I have passed the challenges of the first 30-60.days, long road trips, golf outings with the buddies, beers with the usual suspects, mindless house project tasks where a chew would be in my face but here I am at 200 days still rock solid. I honestly couldn't be happier. I can go to the dentist with out a dirty look and lecture from the doc and/or the hygienist. I have lower health insurance being a non-user. I am beating this addiction one day at a time.

It is not to say I don't have my difficult moments but still they are just moments rather than hours or days. It does get easier. I really think now I have to take a serious stupid pill to ever dip again. Then I think of guys who have been exactly in my shoes who caved and why did they do so? Is it a moment of stupidity? A fuck it attitude? The guilt I would have if that was me. Worse than Catholic (times) Jewish guilt but still I feel for them and wish they had been stronger willed.

Short story:
I ran into a kid, he is 25 years younger than me so kid he is, who was dipping the other day. I said why don't you quit that junk? The answer somewhat surprised me with his brutal honesty. "I don't want to!" I was surprised because I wanted to quit but didn't forever. This kid has been dipping for at least 10 years and he doesn't want to? He must be some US Tobacco Superman because my ass wanted to quit a bunch of times by that year mark. I don't want to, please. Still I tried to say all the right things like it will kill you or it is expensive or don't your gums hurt? No luck. The kid was resolute with his decision. I left him and saying come talk to me one day when you want to quit because it will come and I can tell you how. You can't win them all.

I am just glad I have 200 in the books and I can look the old wife in the eyes and say nope not today. I am beating this demon one day at a time. Screw you big tobacco! I am so glad to be free of your crap garbage product.
Congrats brother. Keep following your routine and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you today.
Great job CTF, love seeing you win and post about it.
Great stuff CTF, I have a friend who also doesn't want to quit. Despite the fact that myself and one of our other buddies are bot quit for almost the same amount of time. Tried again to talk some sense into him last weekend to no avail. All we can do is try. We can help them along the way, but they have to make the choice. He will realize sooner or later and come asking you.
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Re: CTF - new to the group today
« Reply #27 on: December 16, 2020, 09:04:48 AM »
Reflecting on 200 days

It's been awhile and it has been an interesting ride. It hasn't been too bad but I have had some challenges. I have passed the challenges of the first 30-60.days, long road trips, golf outings with the buddies, beers with the usual suspects, mindless house project tasks where a chew would be in my face but here I am at 200 days still rock solid. I honestly couldn't be happier. I can go to the dentist with out a dirty look and lecture from the doc and/or the hygienist. I have lower health insurance being a non-user. I am beating this addiction one day at a time.

It is not to say I don't have my difficult moments but still they are just moments rather than hours or days. It does get easier. I really think now I have to take a serious stupid pill to ever dip again. Then I think of guys who have been exactly in my shoes who caved and why did they do so? Is it a moment of stupidity? A fuck it attitude? The guilt I would have if that was me. Worse than Catholic (times) Jewish guilt but still I feel for them and wish they had been stronger willed.

Short story:
I ran into a kid, he is 25 years younger than me so kid he is, who was dipping the other day. I said why don't you quit that junk? The answer somewhat surprised me with his brutal honesty. "I don't want to!" I was surprised because I wanted to quit but didn't forever. This kid has been dipping for at least 10 years and he doesn't want to? He must be some US Tobacco Superman because my ass wanted to quit a bunch of times by that year mark. I don't want to, please. Still I tried to say all the right things like it will kill you or it is expensive or don't your gums hurt? No luck. The kid was resolute with his decision. I left him and saying come talk to me one day when you want to quit because it will come and I can tell you how. You can't win them all.

I am just glad I have 200 in the books and I can look the old wife in the eyes and say nope not today. I am beating this demon one day at a time. Screw you big tobacco! I am so glad to be free of your crap garbage product.
Congrats brother. Keep following your routine and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you today.
Great job CTF, love seeing you win and post about it.

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« Reply #26 on: December 16, 2020, 06:58:38 AM »
Reflecting on 200 days

It's been awhile and it has been an interesting ride. It hasn't been too bad but I have had some challenges. I have passed the challenges of the first 30-60.days, long road trips, golf outings with the buddies, beers with the usual suspects, mindless house project tasks where a chew would be in my face but here I am at 200 days still rock solid. I honestly couldn't be happier. I can go to the dentist with out a dirty look and lecture from the doc and/or the hygienist. I have lower health insurance being a non-user. I am beating this addiction one day at a time.

It is not to say I don't have my difficult moments but still they are just moments rather than hours or days. It does get easier. I really think now I have to take a serious stupid pill to ever dip again. Then I think of guys who have been exactly in my shoes who caved and why did they do so? Is it a moment of stupidity? A fuck it attitude? The guilt I would have if that was me. Worse than Catholic (times) Jewish guilt but still I feel for them and wish they had been stronger willed.

Short story:
I ran into a kid, he is 25 years younger than me so kid he is, who was dipping the other day. I said why don't you quit that junk? The answer somewhat surprised me with his brutal honesty. "I don't want to!" I was surprised because I wanted to quit but didn't forever. This kid has been dipping for at least 10 years and he doesn't want to? He must be some US Tobacco Superman because my ass wanted to quit a bunch of times by that year mark. I don't want to, please. Still I tried to say all the right things like it will kill you or it is expensive or don't your gums hurt? No luck. The kid was resolute with his decision. I left him and saying come talk to me one day when you want to quit because it will come and I can tell you how. You can't win them all.

I am just glad I have 200 in the books and I can look the old wife in the eyes and say nope not today. I am beating this demon one day at a time. Screw you big tobacco! I am so glad to be free of your crap garbage product.
Congrats brother. Keep following your routine and let the days add up. Proud to quit with you today.
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