Day 1 and intro

[ChickDip]

Thanks for the continuing support, my KTC brother/sisterhood.

Since I'm in my intro, I will throw down something that I've learned recently. It's kind of sad.

I've been struggling a lot in the last 30 days or so with my quit. Crazy waves of stress come at me out of nowhere, and cravings on the order of Day 1 size. Maybe it was the holidays, or maybe it has to do with some personal shit I have going on, I don't know. However, I've dealt with them. I've crammed tea in my mouth, I've done some deep breathing, I've hit the gym spontaneously, whatever it takes, and it's worked out. The craves keep coming, and I just keep swinging back.

What I've learned, and this is the sad part, is that it really isn't that hard. These cravings last about 1-2 minutes, but since I now know how to truly WANT to quit, I can just ride them out. I've realized that all of my past failures have been rooted in my lack of desire to quit. Sure, I've always gave lip service to wanting to quit, but it's not the same as finally deciding to focus all of your energy into becoming a non-user. Before, I was a past user, or a paused user, because I was caught up in grieving over never using again, or mourning my past use. Now I just focus on being a non-user for today. I don't fret over the past, and I let tomorrow take care of tomorrow. For me, this is the key, and I learned that here. Again. Thanks, KTC. Thanks to my bros in my group, thanks to ChickDip for getting my back, thanks to the newbies for giving me a look back at Day 1 so that I know never to go back there, thanks to the chat room, and thank you Al Gore, for inventing the internet so that KTC could exist. Sorry for rambling.

deep serious stuff, laced with some great humor!
Quit on Iggy, that's some strong ass talk, which you are backing up here every damn day!

[Igloo27]

Thanks for the continuing support, my KTC brother/sisterhood.

Since I'm in my intro, I will throw down something that I've learned recently. It's kind of sad.

I've been struggling a lot in the last 30 days or so with my quit. Crazy waves of stress come at me out of nowhere, and cravings on the order of Day 1 size. Maybe it was the holidays, or maybe it has to do with some personal shit I have going on, I don't know. However, I've dealt with them. I've crammed tea in my mouth, I've done some deep breathing, I've hit the gym spontaneously, whatever it takes, and it's worked out. The craves keep coming, and I just keep swinging back.

What I've learned, and this is the sad part, is that it really isn't that hard. These cravings last about 1-2 minutes, but since I now know how to truly WANT to quit, I can just ride them out. I've realized that all of my past failures have been rooted in my lack of desire to quit. Sure, I've always gave lip service to wanting to quit, but it's not the same as finally deciding to focus all of your energy into becoming a non-user. Before, I was a past user, or a paused user, because I was caught up in grieving over never using again, or mourning my past use. Now I just focus on being a non-user for today. I don't fret over the past, and I let tomorrow take care of tomorrow. For me, this is the key, and I learned that here. Again. Thanks, KTC. Thanks to my bros in my group, thanks to ChickDip for getting my back, thanks to the newbies for giving me a look back at Day 1 so that I know never to go back there, thanks to the chat room, and thank you Al Gore, for inventing the internet so that KTC could exist. Sorry for rambling.

[Cope30]

Welcome to the BROYHERHOOD, we are all behind you 100%. Man does that story sound familiar. Glad you finally decided to throw in the towel. Post Roll EDD that's the only way I made it through this HELL. WE ALL QUIT WITH YOU TODAY!

[Tjschu]

Iggy!
My bro, congratulations on your HOF day.
100 days and beyond. Keep up the strong quit, don't let your guard down... Ever.
I will quit with you today, EDD.
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Congrats on HOF Igloo!!!

[ChickDip]

Iggy!
My bro, congratulations on your HOF day.
100 days and beyond. Keep up the strong quit, don't let your guard down... Ever.
I will quit with you today, EDD.
:wub:

[pab1964]

Im glad you didnt offer up a million bogus excuses. You just owned up to it and moved on. Way to be brother!! I quit with you every fucking day!!!

...And don't do it again. Keep your word to your group, post roll EDD, and earn their respect back. You also owe your old group an apology.



That being said, welcome back brother, I'm glad you came to your senses. I quit with you today.

Igloo my friend, I'm a 38 year addict. For some reason only God knows I was spared to see all 3 of my kids grow up and get married and have me some wonderful grandkids! I guess what I'm saying is, why was I spared , call it luck or whatever. One damn things for sure 296 day's of freedom and I damn well already plan on posting roll first thing in the morning. Nicotine is a powerful drug , you have to post, text, hit the forums ,whatever it takes keep this shit out of your mouth. Next time you even think about flirting with the bitch, take a picture of your wife and kids out and think about how fucking selfish you would be for one damn dance with death! Get your ass in gear, be the man you are and get this shit done! Pm me for my number if you want to. Quit on! Damn proud you came back , drink your damn kool-aid and move on with your quit!

[pete333]

Im glad you didnt offer up a million bogus excuses. You just owned up to it and moved on. Way to be brother!! I quit with you every fucking day!!!

...And don't do it again. Keep your word to your group, post roll EDD, and earn their respect back. You also owe your old group an apology.



That being said, welcome back brother, I'm glad you came to your senses. I quit with you today.

[DjPorkchop]

Im glad you didnt offer up a million bogus excuses. You just owned up to it and moved on. Way to be brother!! I quit with you every fucking day!!!

[Igloo27]

Thanks for all the support dudes and dudettes. For what it's worth, even while I was failing all of you guys, Kill the Can still helped me... Saturday I decided to lay it down again and face the music because of what I had learned here last month. Had I not been here last month, I'd still be dipping, and making up psycho reasons on why I should continue dipping until at least tomorrow...

[Tjschu]

So I'll let some other guys rake you over the coals about caving. I have a very similar story about my Dad. He died when he was 58. I watched him go through bypass surgery and carotid artery surgery. He had peripheral artery disease so bad that they wanted to do replacement surgery but said he was too young. I remember feeling disgusted that he had done so much damage to himself. Then I realized I was following in his footsteps. When things have been rough in this quit I just remember that I never want my kids to be disgusted by my actions or worse follow in my footsteps. Maybe you have now gained the perspective necessary to be successful at quitting. In case you didn't know you would be on your second month of quit by now. PM me if you need some digits. I quit with you today

[Supermoon Eclipse]

Way to push on Igloo!!

This is very tough stuff, and will have many hidden traps along the way. I remember my one relapse a couple years ago: i was celebrating some minor life achievement and believed that a chew would be reasonable reward. Just one and then back to not using. I also had begun to consider that nicotine might actually be beneficial to humans on some level, if only it didnt hurt us. I was going nuts and had no support to lean on to straighten out my thoughts.

Well that one reward chew turned into an aggressive dipping habit like nothing i had done before, lasting until last month. I am now glad to realize My mind will be playing tricks on me for awhile, and I need to stay close to you guys. ODAAT, and post roll EDD!

We dont need that crap anymore, i quit with you today

[Igloo27]

SoÂ… I caved. On 10/1/15, I made the 10-15 choices that are necessary in order to ingest nicotine. From what I understand, IÂ’m supposed to answer three questions. What happened?, Why did it happen?, and what will I do differently?

Ok. What happened? And Why did it happen? IÂ’m not going to sugarcoat this. I donÂ’t have a my dog died, lost my job, car broke down, and I was so STRESSED OUT story here. It was Thursday night, and I was out and about, and I hit a strong crave. I acted it on by making the wrong choices.

Why did it happen? I rationalized that I could hit it this one time, and all would be cool. Well, you Jedi Masters of quit know how this movie ends. The one time turned into one more week, which turned into another week, etc. fucking etc, and here I am.

What to do differently? Well, I’m sitting on a real fucking solid Day 3, which is good. Yesterday, I found out that my middle son bought an e-cig kit this past weekend. He was going to hide it from Mom and Dad, but Mama is an old school bloodhound sniffer outer. (She’s dealt with me for almost 30 years now.) He told us it was an impulse buy, and he planned on selling it when he got back to school. Of course, I read him the whole, “Don’t be dumb like me” spiel that we've all done with our kids. Then I thought about my Dad. My dad said that same shit to me, but he never stopped smoking until Jesus finally came and whopped him upside the head and took him home. I thought, “watching my dad truly become a non-user would have had the greatest impact on me.” So I explained to my son what I’m dealing with… Age 47, and on Day 2; more openly and honestly than I ever had before. That’s not necessarily a do things differently, but it is another bat tool in the bat belt. As far as actually doing something different, I will get some phone numbers for text support when a craving hits. I have also sworn to my wife and kids, that, I will add another step to the 10-15 step process of ingesting nicotine. The additional step would be to call each of them and ask permission to do so. If I can get a unanimous majority vote, then I will proceed.

I apologize to you guys that run this site, and to my old quit brethren of December. The December Disciples of Quit was a pretty fucking cool group name, and I blew that to smithereens. ItÂ’s a good thing that you guys werenÂ’t in a literal foxhole with me, because weÂ’d all be dead now. Hopefully, IÂ’ve got another chance to turn it all around here. If you guys will have me, IÂ’ll see you in the January GroupÂ… wearing a three piece humility suit.
I quit with all you today.

[KingNothing]

Quit win today.

When I used to dip, I was a big road trip dipper, like I''m sure a lot of you were. I had a early morning 6 hr trip in the car today for work. It was rough, but I made it.

Small victories mean so much right now.

Fuck you nicotine.

Keep piling 'em up Igloo. You're doing awesome man.

[Igloo27]

Quit win today.

When I used to dip, I was a big road trip dipper, like I''m sure a lot of you were. I had a early morning 6 hr trip in the car today for work. It was rough, but I made it.

Small victories mean so much right now.

Fuck you nicotine.

[Stranger999]

Great opening statement Igloo. Read your own words back to yourself every time you think you might cave. Bookmark those words on your smart phone so you have access to them everywhere you go.

Post roll with us on the December group. Promise to not use nicotine every day. I can't wait to see your name on roll with mine.

(I am on Day 14 and I seem to be making less typos - LOL)

I quit with you today.