Wow. Here's a thought. How about you fuck off with this "I'm quitting dip but here I am dipping in my introduction" nonsense? This place isn't going to help you if you don't actually want to quit. If you want to quit, grow a pair of balls and actually do it and get into the suck. Don't get in here with one of these haphazard, 2:30 AM anxious "i should really stop dipping" posts about how you need to remember how to be pissed at your addiction and so forth.
If you want to stop, stop, and the August guys and I and everyone else can help you from there. But until you make that decision for yourself, you can get fucked. If you keep putting off day 1 ("after this can!"), then day 1 never comes. Make the decision right now that you've already had your last dip ever and just start that 72 hours of suck.