Day 42 and my quit is very strong. However, there has been some serious shit going down in the Apes house. We've had 2 cavers consecutively and have received a lot of flak from others outside of our group. I fully support my fellow Apes in defending themselves against certain ass holes coming in and attacking us as a whole. Kash has stepped up as our Sheriff and places people into certain jails appropriately. Keep up the strong work guys. Unfortunately, I do not fully agree with the way we are dealing with one of the cavers. I'm posting this in my own introduction so that 1) I can later look back upon this and see where my head was at 2) it is my own my opinion and 3) if this attracts a shit storm it won't trash our house again.
My fellow Apes,
There's a big difference between helping someone and enabling them. I specifically chose to quit with KTC because I thought enabling was pretty much nonexistent here. I know some of you will consider me cold hearted after reading all this but I assure you that if your heads on straight and your quit is front and center, you'll at least understand where I'm coming from.
Owena has failed us and himself numerous times. To keep him in our group, be it on GroupMe or in April, would be a great dishonor to ourselves. I understand that he has circumstances that differ from ours but my question to him is this... Do you want to be treated like a man or a child?
As many of you are aware, I have spent many years in one of the worlds busiest EMS systems. Yes, I admit I am a bit jaded from it but what you need to understand is that during this time I have gained the ability to instantly tell the difference between a seeker and someone who genuinely wants help. Seekers repeatedly call upon and feed off of the enablers. Seekers display a pattern that does not change. Seekers often have early mental trauma of some sort and use that as extortion in the seeking process, as well as any other heart strings they can pull. Owena, I do not know you personally. I do not know the full story of your life. All I know is that I'm here to help myself and to get the help I know I need. I'm also here to return the favor and help those that I know are trying to help themselves. For me, Owena, you do not fall into that category. I have nothing personal against you but I do not trust you with my quit and I do not feel an obligation to expend any more of my energy on yours. Quit making excuses. Quit making people feel sorry for you. If you want help, get it. Be it from here or through your insurance, do whatever is necessary. Stop asking how and listen to what you are being told. The KTC way is rather simple. Post roll, be a man of your word, and repeat. Other involvement in the site itself is optional. You choose how involved you want to be. KTC can only help you if you truly want the help.
In conclusion... Flaw, mind your own fucking business and stay out of our house. You, yourself, have a lot growing up to do before you will be able to make it in the fire service. You have way more ahead of you than the Chiefs interview. Respect your superiors, even if they're not on your desired department. Despite initial impressions, our world is actually a very small world indeed. You sir are currently standing on a bridge to that world. Put the matches down and shut the fuck up.
Stay strong, stay vigilant, stay quit.