Day one again

[flynniej15]

Day 2 - Posted roll

Day 1 recap : Total fog all day - hope my team was working cause I spent the day here at KTC more or less - could not concentrate on anything. End of day let some in on the fact that I was quit and its fucking with me

Went home, quick run with wife, made something to eat, chatted with kids.

Went to bed at like 8pm / didn't even watch B's game.

Came clean to the wife that I was not quit until yesterday when I posted roll  then explained about KTC.

I am very fucking annoyed by everything right now - I think I have the shortest fuse - I am ready to go monkey crazy -

[Bruce]

I just said fu##it.... I'm done.

And I am done

Get some.

No need to censor yourself here, sir. FUCK IT is well received and frequently used.

Proud to be quit with you.

What Per said,

Well done brother, welome! First step is making the decision, second step is keeping your word.

Post roll everyday, quit one day at a time, no excuses no caving. It's no longer an option for you.

[per034]

I just said fu##it.... I'm done.

And I am done

Get some.

No need to censor yourself here, sir. FUCK IT is well received and frequently used.

Proud to be quit with you.

[Ready]

I just said fu##it.... I'm done.

And I am done

Get some.

[flynniej15]

I gotta ask - when you joined the site on March 22, why didn't you quit then?

Can't really say - I was still playing victim / this happened or that happened - just need a dip to get through etc...

Don't want to speak for all - but like some of the other posts I have seen
-my mind was totally wrapped up in the bs of why I couldn't do it, or it wasn't the right time etc -

Yesterday - sitting at my desk drooling into a coffee cup - I just said fu##it.... I'm done.

And I am done

still drooling into a coffee cup today - but its the herbal stuff my kid bought from chatta

[Ready]

Thanks Erussell

Havin a real hard time actually doing any work today.... posted roll today. will make it till tomorrow and start again!

Really wish I could do some work though - (going for walk around bldg)

I was pretty much useless at work for the first week. Work will still be there. It will get so much better.

It is so worth it.

You can do this.

[per034]

I gotta ask - when you joined the site on March 22, why didn't you quit then?

[SirDerek]

Thanks Erussell

Havin a real hard time actually doing any work today.... posted roll today. will make it till tomorrow and start again!

Really wish I could do some work though - (going for walk around bldg)

The first week, maybe 2, will be really tough to focus and concentrate on anything including work. But your life is the most important thing, so priority #1 is to stay quit, everything else is priority #2 or lower.

If you have a decent boss, you could explain to him/her what you're going thru, that its temporary, but you'll be a bit less effective at work for a week or two. Thats the best route IMO.

I'm quitting with you today bro, lets do this.

Hey -

yes rick is absolutely right, let your boss know as not only will it be the lack of focus as you go through the initial fog, but with all the ups and downs you will go through, it could be the anger and short temper that some have, or just emotional outbursts. It will let him know that it is what you are going through and not your true self.

Quit on....

[rickddd]

Thanks Erussell

Havin a real hard time actually doing any work today.... posted roll today. will make it till tomorrow and start again!

Really wish I could do some work though - (going for walk around bldg)

The first week, maybe 2, will be really tough to focus and concentrate on anything including work. But your life is the most important thing, so priority #1 is to stay quit, everything else is priority #2 or lower.

If you have a decent boss, you could explain to him/her what you're going thru, that its temporary, but you'll be a bit less effective at work for a week or two. Thats the best route IMO.

I'm quitting with you today bro, lets do this.

[Erussell]

I just PMd you with my number. Send me yours. My quit was pretty foggy. Actually I was in such a daze my secretary sent me home two different times once was two weeks into my quit. You will unlikely experience it for that long but who knows. Anyway call or text me if you need. And you are a total bad ass for posting roll man! I am quiting with you right now in this very moment!

[flynniej15]

Thanks Erussell

Havin a real hard time actually doing any work today.... posted roll today. will make it till tomorrow and start again!

Really wish I could do some work though - (going for walk around bldg)

[flynniej15]

Thanks CBird65 - Im all in

Killed the can yesterday afternoon - but calling today day 1

[Erussell]

Go read the stuff Cbird sent you. Then man, realize it is gonna be miserable. You already know that but we are here to support you. You can and will do this, it's as simple as making a decision to post roll every damn day and then keeping your word. You will be in the September quit group, good for you too cause they are shaping up into a bad ass group! Do this, I will do it with you!

[cbird65]

Started dipping in college/lacrosse team....kid told me not to start wish I listened. Was a Resident Assistant with the posters on the wall outside my room. Look at this guys mouth after dipping for 10 years the poster says - In my head = "Who would do that I would quit as soon as my gums started showing any wear"

So here we are 18 years later.

Have attempted to quit a number of times on my own for various different reasons, with varying degrees of success (if measured by how long quit) though if I am here not really ever successful.

Why now - well its just time - my gums are receding, just lost an old filling - but I think most impactful was that my oldest had ordered some Hooch (which I have used previously) for himself - so it would look like he was dipping. I dont even want him to start - even pretending - told him as much....now have the hooch in my face... need to get through today.

Flynnie

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[flynniej15]

Started dipping in college/lacrosse team....kid told me not to start wish I listened. Was a Resident Assistant with the posters on the wall outside my room. Look at this guys mouth after dipping for 10 years the poster says - In my head = "Who would do that I would quit as soon as my gums started showing any wear"

So here we are 18 years later.

Have attempted to quit a number of times on my own for various different reasons, with varying degrees of success (if measured by how long quit) though if I am here not really ever successful.

Why now - well its just time - my gums are receding, just lost an old filling - but I think most impactful was that my oldest had ordered some Hooch (which I have used previously) for himself - so it would look like he was dipping. I dont even want him to start - even pretending - told him as much....now have the hooch in my face... need to get through today.

Flynnie