Congrats on day 100!
Glad to hear your cancer wasn't any worse the Good Lord has given you second chance at the rest of your life. Congrats on not wasting that opportunity joining us here!
I'm sorry to hear you've had anxiety though. It's not uncommon, what was for me one of the worst aspects of quitting. I never thought I was an anxious person either, but had to have worktowin talk me down one night a couple weeks into my quit for quitting for me surely would've ended right there that night otherwise. I didn't yet understand what was happening. I'm still not clear if tobacco is used to mask anxieties, or if the brain chemistry becomes so messed up from it that it takes awhile to mentally heal. Either way it's common enough to experience, even for guys who haven't had those symptoms before.
Lexapro is a wonderful drug though. I'd made it to about where you're at in my quit, about broke down out of completely irrational anxiety. Thankfully I got a good doc who's helped me through it. I took ativan for the first couple weeks they say it takes the Lexapro to kick in. Low enough dosage to not be addicting. Lexapro though isn't really habit forming, your doc will of course monitor you on it. From my experience, that's only a good thing. I still take it a couple years later, at a lower dose ( not every day) to keep general stress/anxiety in check, but don't have the panic attacks I once did. After a long regimen I can see my way off it.
Congrats again nomo! Your body has already been healing for a hundred days now you're on the path to success. You'll notice the healing comes more more each day. One day at a time. Also with daily posting, it helps everyone to know we're all sharing the same struggle. Posting is quick insurance that no matter what happens that day, you won't go back. Day 1,151 I know I'm not cured of the addiction. I probably never will be. But as long as I post, that option is off the table. For today. I could always choose not to post tomorrow, but eventually as you work your way through the site get to know some good guys ( gals) that have your back, you won't want to let the down will keep posting. Even when you don't feel like doing it for yourself. When I was dipping alone, tomorrow was always soon enough to think about quitting. With a group of brothers ( sisters) doing it together, quitting has to get done today.
