Day 4
I've decided to use this post as kind of a journal of my journey. (Wish I knew how to change the title)
Anyway here it goes.
I came here about 5 days ago with the plan to quit, but my plan was to slowly ween myself off of the stuff. I signed up for the site and started reading some of the posts. I noticed one common theme, you guys don't deal well with wussies. I decided that if I was going to stay on the site and get the support that I truly needed, I was going to have to do it your way, cold turkey. So the next day I signed roll and left for work, my can in my lunch box, but still resisting the urge. I made it through the work day without using (luckily I was busy that day). I got home and I gave my almost full can to my wife and said "Open the can, dump it in the toilet, flush the toilet, wash the can out in the sink, and throw it away" I knew if I didn't have her wash the can I would be searching around for just a little "hit" later on.
It's only been 4 days of my quit, but this time it feels different. I think that I want it more this time then I ever have, also you guys on this site have really helped me. A big thank you to everyone that has texted me every day religiously, unfortunately I'm OCD so I never keep texts. I know Bovie, Brian G, Keith, Mike W, anyone else that I have missed I'm sorry but I truly appreciate your help.
I thought of a couple more things on my way home from work. Days 1-3, my lip where I used to put my dip was so sore I had troubles eating. Here on DAY 4, it does not hurt at all, as a matter of fact, it feels to me like the bumps from dipping are getting smaller.
My willpower today is pretty low, I don't think it would take much to make me cave other than I posted roll today and that is a promise that I WILL NOT break. I will get up tomorrow morning, piss, and post roll before my willpower says to go buy a can.
All of you guests I see down at the bottom, yes you. Take my advice, it is hard work, but if you do it right and talk to the people on here and read testimonials "posts", you too can be well on your way to being nicotine free. The fog lifts after a couple of days and you start feeling "normal" again, a couple of days after that you start feeling better than "normal. When you first sign up for this site, you will get a bunch of personal messages of people wanting to support you and your quit. Make sure you give a least a few people your number. As I stated earlier in this post, I have had quit buddies, dare I say friends I have never met in person, texting me every day to make sure I am doing well and giving me the strength to make sure I don't cave. Now don't get me wrong, these same people that help you out will also give you a tongue lashing if you need it.
Well I think that's enough rambling for today, I am in for the night so there will be no caving for me. I WILL make it to day 5 and I WILL post roll before I leave the house tomorrow. That and all of the texts I get from my friends will get me through tomorrow, then I can worry about the next day. ODAAT - sorry for any guests, that means One Day At A Time.