All,
The first day of the rest of my life is almost in the books. I have read almost everything on this website several times before, but never had the true desire to quit. There was always something coming up next week or trip planned next month that I couldn't imagine going on with out my best bitch Skoal Straight. I have been wanting to do this for awhile, but today I flushed 2 cans down the toilet.
My wife helped me quit once before and it sucked for both her and me. She told me at that time, she never wanted to go through a month like that again. I obliged, but then six months later I got hooked again and hid it from her for several years. Now, I am asking her to help me one more time.
It is going to be tough, but when my mind tries to confuse me I will fight back. A ground up plant stuck in the front of my mouth is such a ridiculous proposition that I am going to laugh at the cravings. When you really think about the habit itself, it so f#*$ing stupid it is hard not to laugh. "Hey, let's spend $1500/year to stick some plant in our mouths that is going to kill us." Ok genius.
I look forward to the battle with you guys. I will not be defeated this time.
