Day three!
I will be honest this has been the longest I have gone in the 9 years that I have dipped. I have kept saying in my head I will quit after blah blah blah. I have always thought about the money I would save and the health benefits of quitting but honestly I never thought about why I wanted to quit. I want to quit for me, and no one else. I have not told anyone in my family, g/f or anyone about my quit. I just stopped. My girl is going to pick up on it one way or another as I normally dip around the house and the last 3 days nada!
Yesterday was strange at random times I would sort of feel a little drunk or spaced out. I still feel the urge and have been working well with seeds, gum and water. Any time I feel the urge, I take turns between gum and seeds. Honestly, I can handle mind tricks and I am able to slap myself out of my mind tricking me, but the urges are the hardest part. I am just waiting for the day I wake up without the physical urge to dip. But like everyone says, take it one day at a time. Small victories wins the war!
David
David,
You didn't stop you quit. It takes a lot of balls to be a quitter. Involve her and others in your quit, it will help have direct support. Show your girlfriend the "Spousal Support" and have her be a pillar in quit for you. I stopped before my quit and now I can only think about what I would have done with all that money...new Harley, vacation, new gun...but oh well I will just enjoy my quit.
You sir are experiencing the fog, it is like you are a zombie. here is a small victory to look forward to, nicotine will be out of your system after tomorrow. Just focus on today and only today; it will get better...eventually. Food starts to taste different, your life is encompassed in quit and makes you a better person (bitchy at times but a better bitchy person). If you are ever not able to slap yourself back into reality please feel free to call me...anything to help a brother out.
I am proud of you bud,
P
I just poked my head into this thread and I smell nothing but quit in here. Damn sweetrice, you've pulled the trigger and quit!!!! Good for you!!! This shit is hard, extremely hard. It hurts like hell, pure hell. You can't think, your brain is mush. Your mind is constantly playing tricks on you, it's like your in a mind war with yourself. Swallow this pain, embellish it, savor ever flavor of it, and try to enjoy it. It's your body healing, it's your road to a better you and better life. I remember my first three weeks like a movie I watched a 100 times. I enjoy remembering the pain, it reminds me of two things, how wonderful I feel now that I am quit, it also reminds me that I never want another day one, never never never.
I will never miss
Pouring out a perfectly good drink for a spitter
Spilling that spitter
Forgetting a spitter and it smelling up the truck
Putting a dip in when the coast was clear but then someone approaching me and having to gut it awhile.
Having to hurry my ass to the store because I was close to running out.
Periods I couldn't dip and being out of sorts about it, such as the plane.
Going to the store only to find they don't have my brand of poison. Then traveling around to find it.
Having to spit while being in the house and having to walk to the sink or toilet.
The bad breath
The pain in my lip and switching to the side that was less raw but still painful.
Falling asleep with it in my mouth.
Heart burn. Horrible bad heartburn
Wishing ever single can purchase and then ever dip in that can that I was quit.
Worrying about cancer and other harm to my body.
Worrying about my dip can falling out of my pocket in business meetings or someone spotting the
"ring"
Worrying about the smell and extra movement while hunting.
Hurrying through my meal so I could dip.
On and on and on.
For awhile your brain will romanticize these things above as though you loved them and they where small nuances that where worth the joy of dipping. There is no joy in dipping, none, just addiction to a horrible poison with a disgusting delivery method. As you heal you develop a hate for tobacco. Use this pain your in to foster that hate. I don't believe ten big men could hold down and get tobacco into my mouth today, I posted roll and am a man of my word and intend to honor my brothers in quit all damn day. You have my word sweetrice, erussell day 696 and I promise you I will not use nicotine for any reason in any form all day. And no matter how bad it hurts I will hold you to your word to me! I quit with your bad ass!!!!!!
