20 Years packing, thanks Baseball

[Erussell]

Hello all. I just found this site and community. I'm 34 years old, married with 2 daughters, live in NJ (in case any of you guys are in the area) and have always played sports. I started dipping as a freshman baseball player at an elite athletic prep school. The high that it gave me from the tinniest pinch was amazing. I dipped constantly though high school. My junior and senior year I packed a lip in almost every class during class. At home I took extended showers and seemed to always have a "stomach ache" that kept me on the bowl for long periods of time.

Fast forward 20 years; I am married with 2 beautiful daughters who are 23 and 5 months old. I play a lot of golf and in 5 softball leagues. Dipping has always made me concentrate better doing these activities. My wife and family hate it. I helped nurse my sister to her passing 4 years ago from Cancer which started in her lungs from smoking. I quit for 6 months after that.

I didn't mean for me to quit on new years as a resolution. It just happened to fall on that date. I truly wanted it within. I saw a video of a young woman walking down the aisle with her brother at her wedding. The brother put together a tribute video of her father. It made me cry. It made me project years down the road and seeing that same disappointment in both my daughters eyes that their "Daddy" wasn't there to give them away...to be there for that special moment and all the others leading up to and after their wedding. It's when I realized that dipping was nothing but a selfish dirty habit.

Thanks for reading and sorry if I jumped around a lot.
Brian

Brian, welcome to the rest of your life as a free man, if you take in everything this site has to offer and follow it to a t. This is not a habit it is an addition!!!! Come to grips with the fact that you are an addict and that you have never quit only stopped for a period of time. You also need to dive in head first and read all you can on this site. Drink the coolaid. I am on day 617 today thanks to this program. I dipped 20+years over a can a day. If I can you can. Go to the welcome center and figure out how and why to post roll. We will quit with you ever day. Hell we will quit each and every second of the day of that's what it takes.

[BHeff]

Hello all. I just found this site and community. I'm 34 years old, married with 2 daughters, live in NJ (in case any of you guys are in the area) and have always played sports. I started dipping as a freshman baseball player at an elite athletic prep school. The high that it gave me from the tinniest pinch was amazing. I dipped constantly though high school. My junior and senior year I packed a lip in almost every class during class. At home I took extended showers and seemed to always have a "stomach ache" that kept me on the bowl for long periods of time.

Fast forward 20 years; I am married with 2 beautiful daughters who are 23 and 5 months old. I play a lot of golf and in 5 softball leagues. Dipping has always made me concentrate better doing these activities. My wife and family hate it. I helped nurse my sister to her passing 4 years ago from Cancer which started in her lungs from smoking. I quit for 6 months after that.

I didn't mean for me to quit on new years as a resolution. It just happened to fall on that date. I truly wanted it within. I saw a video of a young woman walking down the aisle with her brother at her wedding. The brother put together a tribute video of her father. It made me cry. It made me project years down the road and seeing that same disappointment in both my daughters eyes that their "Daddy" wasn't there to give them away...to be there for that special moment and all the others leading up to and after their wedding. It's when I realized that dipping was nothing but a selfish dirty habit.

Thanks for reading and sorry if I jumped around a lot.
Brian