Finally Gonna DO IT!!

[CleanFuel]

Wow...it's been awhile since I added to the chronicle here...

Today is day 48...tomorrow is 7 weeks down...It is definitely getting better...

Today was a rough day...I was working at a remote site, no cell reception, slow-no internet (except about 15 minutes while eating lunch), no KTC....I really struggled with temptation...fuckers all around me dipping all day....and on top of it I was just having a rough time getting things to work right...'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'

BUT...I told that sneaky little bitch to fuck off when she told me that "just one" would be ok....I kicked her in the cunt when I was about to either kill someone or cave...I did neither by the way...'na na' 'Finger'

And at the end of the day I am able to hold my head high...be proud as fuck to be quit with all of you....

I also need to say THANK YOU to everyone that posts at KTC everday!! Being away for just a day (really ony 13 hours) made me realize how much I rely on all my brothers (both in my group and in vet groups) to support me...I would do anything for you guys too!! Just let me know if you need anything!!

Well...incoherent rambling about complete....This was one of my most challenging days...It makes me feel stronger to know that I succeeded for yet another day...and I just couldn't wait to get home, get on the laptop, and let you guys know!!

Thanks

Kuss

KAPOWWWWW

outstanding bro......its all a head game the rest of the way.....fuck that cunt

[mfkuss]

Wow...it's been awhile since I added to the chronicle here...

Today is day 48...tomorrow is 7 weeks down...It is definitely getting better...

Today was a rough day...I was working at a remote site, no cell reception, slow-no internet (except about 15 minutes while eating lunch), no KTC....I really struggled with temptation...fuckers all around me dipping all day....and on top of it I was just having a rough time getting things to work right...'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'

BUT...I told that sneaky little bitch to fuck off when she told me that "just one" would be ok....I kicked her in the cunt when I was about to either kill someone or cave...I did neither by the way...'na na' 'Finger'

And at the end of the day I am able to hold my head high...be proud as fuck to be quit with all of you....

I also need to say THANK YOU to everyone that posts at KTC everday!! Being away for just a day (really ony 13 hours) made me realize how much I rely on all my brothers (both in my group and in vet groups) to support me...I would do anything for you guys too!! Just let me know if you need anything!!

Well...incoherent rambling about complete....This was one of my most challenging days...It makes me feel stronger to know that I succeeded for yet another day...and I just couldn't wait to get home, get on the laptop, and let you guys know!!

Thanks

Kuss

[Dozer99]

Short Update/Question to the vets:

Day 32 - My quit feels strong...I know that with my continued posting of roll and the support of my brothers here, the nic bitch won't get me back...I know that I have to keep up my guard!! FUCK THAT CUNT!

Now, the worst of my issues (and I am sure there are plenty) is RAGE...I am pissed off just about all the time...I don't really understand it and have a hard time keeping it in check...I can't count how many fights I have started at home only to find myself apologizing later...being unable to explain how I feel...just fucking angry at the world...

The site is keeping me centered...I have no idea how many hours I spend on here everyday...updating our spreadsheet (even when it isn't my shift), reading posts, fixing bumps....

And I still can't fucking sleep...I get about 5 hours total across the night and wake up 3 times or more throughout...I am lucky to be asleep by 10:30 or 11:00 and I am up by 4:00 almost every day...I think I am losing my fucking mind....that nic bitch must be yelling inside my head every time she sees me sleeping...

Anyone else have the RAGE/INSOMNIA issues?  Any coping strategies? Working out helps some, but not enough...

Well, I can quit babbling for awhile...

I am so fucking proud to be a part of our BAD-ASS quit group (Dec '12)...we have over 60 quitters posting daily....

KEEP THE QUIT STRONG!! I QUIT WITH ALL OF YOU TODAY!!

(day 64) for me. We are one in the same. I read your post and that was me 30 days ago. Minus the bump fixes lol.. First of all I had rage stamped on my forehead for awhile. I attacked almost everything in my path. Thank god I didn't beat the shit out of someone because I was real close. I thought WTF is wrong with me? I'm not an angry person. Or am I? Then one day BWB asked me if I was exercising? I wasn't.. but 5 minutes later I was on my bike. Guess what? It works.
Take some of the time you spend fixing the site and REALLY exercise. It will make you tired, and for some reason it helps the rage too. It really does.
At the end of my day I'm effin exhausted and sleep like a baby. The rage is definitely subsided. Haven't had any for 2 weeks. My routine? 2 hours. In the morning on a empty stomach 1hour yoga, followed with 1hour biking.
Any exercise will do, but exercise like a madman and the clouds will part.
pm me if you need anything..quit with you

the rage comes and goes, much better now at day 80 than day 30, it will get better, it may be a day or it could be weeks but you've got this. Keep quitting mfkuss.

mfkuss,

I have also been experiencing rage. I try to keep it in check the second it happens and I'm getting a lot better at picking it up right away. I just keep telling myself that I did this and not my wife or kids. So.....when I'm an asshat, I go out side, or in my office. The wife thanks me for not taking it out on her and the kids. Just try to identify it early on and you'll be gook. As always, PM me if you hit a rough spot.

Dozer

[mich 34]

Short Update/Question to the vets:

Day 32 - My quit feels strong...I know that with my continued posting of roll and the support of my brothers here, the nic bitch won't get me back...I know that I have to keep up my guard!! FUCK THAT CUNT!

Now, the worst of my issues (and I am sure there are plenty) is RAGE...I am pissed off just about all the time...I don't really understand it and have a hard time keeping it in check...I can't count how many fights I have started at home only to find myself apologizing later...being unable to explain how I feel...just fucking angry at the world...

The site is keeping me centered...I have no idea how many hours I spend on here everyday...updating our spreadsheet (even when it isn't my shift), reading posts, fixing bumps....

And I still can't fucking sleep...I get about 5 hours total across the night and wake up 3 times or more throughout...I am lucky to be asleep by 10:30 or 11:00 and I am up by 4:00 almost every day...I think I am losing my fucking mind....that nic bitch must be yelling inside my head every time she sees me sleeping...

Anyone else have the RAGE/INSOMNIA issues?  Any coping strategies? Working out helps some, but not enough...

Well, I can quit babbling for awhile...

I am so fucking proud to be a part of our BAD-ASS quit group (Dec '12)...we have over 60 quitters posting daily....

KEEP THE QUIT STRONG!! I QUIT WITH ALL OF YOU TODAY!!

(day 64) for me. We are one in the same. I read your post and that was me 30 days ago. Minus the bump fixes lol.. First of all I had rage stamped on my forehead for awhile. I attacked almost everything in my path. Thank god I didn't beat the shit out of someone because I was real close. I thought WTF is wrong with me? I'm not an angry person. Or am I? Then one day BWB asked me if I was exercising? I wasn't.. but 5 minutes later I was on my bike. Guess what? It works.
Take some of the time you spend fixing the site and REALLY exercise. It will make you tired, and for some reason it helps the rage too. It really does.
At the end of my day I'm effin exhausted and sleep like a baby. The rage is definitely subsided. Haven't had any for 2 weeks. My routine? 2 hours. In the morning on a empty stomach 1hour yoga, followed with 1hour biking.
Any exercise will do, but exercise like a madman and the clouds will part.
pm me if you need anything..quit with you

the rage comes and goes, much better now at day 80 than day 30, it will get better, it may be a day or it could be weeks but you've got this. Keep quitting mfkuss.

[kana]

Short Update/Question to the vets:

Day 32 - My quit feels strong...I know that with my continued posting of roll and the support of my brothers here, the nic bitch won't get me back...I know that I have to keep up my guard!! FUCK THAT CUNT!

Now, the worst of my issues (and I am sure there are plenty) is RAGE...I am pissed off just about all the time...I don't really understand it and have a hard time keeping it in check...I can't count how many fights I have started at home only to find myself apologizing later...being unable to explain how I feel...just fucking angry at the world...

The site is keeping me centered...I have no idea how many hours I spend on here everyday...updating our spreadsheet (even when it isn't my shift), reading posts, fixing bumps....

And I still can't fucking sleep...I get about 5 hours total across the night and wake up 3 times or more throughout...I am lucky to be asleep by 10:30 or 11:00 and I am up by 4:00 almost every day...I think I am losing my fucking mind....that nic bitch must be yelling inside my head every time she sees me sleeping...

Anyone else have the RAGE/INSOMNIA issues? Any coping strategies? Working out helps some, but not enough...

Well, I can quit babbling for awhile...

I am so fucking proud to be a part of our BAD-ASS quit group (Dec '12)...we have over 60 quitters posting daily....

KEEP THE QUIT STRONG!! I QUIT WITH ALL OF YOU TODAY!!

(day 64) for me. We are one in the same. I read your post and that was me 30 days ago. Minus the bump fixes lol.. First of all I had rage stamped on my forehead for awhile. I attacked almost everything in my path. Thank god I didn't beat the shit out of someone because I was real close. I thought WTF is wrong with me? I'm not an angry person. Or am I? Then one day BWB asked me if I was exercising? I wasn't.. but 5 minutes later I was on my bike. Guess what? It works.
Take some of the time you spend fixing the site and REALLY exercise. It will make you tired, and for some reason it helps the rage too. It really does.
At the end of my day I'm effin exhausted and sleep like a baby. The rage is definitely subsided. Haven't had any for 2 weeks. My routine? 2 hours. In the morning on a empty stomach 1hour yoga, followed with 1hour biking.
Any exercise will do, but exercise like a madman and the clouds will part.
pm me if you need anything..quit with you

[mfkuss]

Short Update/Question to the vets:

Day 32 - My quit feels strong...I know that with my continued posting of roll and the support of my brothers here, the nic bitch won't get me back...I know that I have to keep up my guard!! FUCK THAT CUNT!

Now, the worst of my issues (and I am sure there are plenty) is RAGE...I am pissed off just about all the time...I don't really understand it and have a hard time keeping it in check...I can't count how many fights I have started at home only to find myself apologizing later...being unable to explain how I feel...just fucking angry at the world...

The site is keeping me centered...I have no idea how many hours I spend on here everyday...updating our spreadsheet (even when it isn't my shift), reading posts, fixing bumps....

And I still can't fucking sleep...I get about 5 hours total across the night and wake up 3 times or more throughout...I am lucky to be asleep by 10:30 or 11:00 and I am up by 4:00 almost every day...I think I am losing my fucking mind....that nic bitch must be yelling inside my head every time she sees me sleeping...

Anyone else have the RAGE/INSOMNIA issues? Any coping strategies? Working out helps some, but not enough...

Well, I can quit babbling for awhile...

I am so fucking proud to be a part of our BAD-ASS quit group (Dec '12)...we have over 60 quitters posting daily....

KEEP THE QUIT STRONG!! I QUIT WITH ALL OF YOU TODAY!!

[eric71]

4 WEEKS DOWN!!

QUIT LIKE FUCK!!

everyday, one at a time with you

[mfkuss]

4 WEEKS DOWN!!

QUIT LIKE FUCK!!

[mfkuss]

Good Morning All! Thanks to Dozer99 and Mich34 for reaching out and helping me keep a lid on it yesterday! Feeling much better today....staying QLF!! Getting through a tough day without caving just doubles my resolve :D

[Wt57]

FUCK FUCK FUCK.....what a motherfucking cocksucking day....christ almighty...just got in a huge one with the wife about shit....wanna fucking rage hard at someone (not her)....craving/raging....and no one in fucking chat....

i gave my word for today...fuck fuck fuck

sorry all...just needed somwhere to vent/blast 'bang head'  'bang head'  'flush'

Hang in there! It will be all right, Try using profanity, it can help! Quit being suck a goody two shoes and say damn or something! :D

Have got do agree with Mich quit holding back!

[mich 34]

FUCK FUCK FUCK.....what a motherfucking cocksucking day....christ almighty...just got in a huge one with the wife about shit....wanna fucking rage hard at someone (not her)....craving/raging....and no one in fucking chat....

i gave my word for today...fuck fuck fuck

sorry all...just needed somwhere to vent/blast 'bang head' 'bang head' 'flush'

Hang in there! It will be all right, Try using profanity, it can help! Quit being suck a goody two shoes and say damn or something! :D

[mfkuss]

FUCK FUCK FUCK.....what a motherfucking cocksucking day....christ almighty...just got in a huge one with the wife about shit....wanna fucking rage hard at someone (not her)....craving/raging....and no one in fucking chat....

i gave my word for today...fuck fuck fuck

sorry all...just needed somwhere to vent/blast 'bang head' 'bang head' 'flush'

[SirDerek]

DAY 25

-Drank my first beer (since quitting the nic bitch) last night....slowly it seems like everything is starting to taste better without dip....but I kept it at one beer because I didn't want to put my quit in harms way...

It's the little victories that really help bolster the quit!

Thanks for all of the support everyone!

QLF today!!!!!

kuss....careful as I have found that EVERYTHING does now taste so much better. So much so I put on 15 pounds since I had quit. Now when I look at it I will ABSOLUTELY exchange a few extra pounds for that poison. As I heard it explained: you can always lose the weight, but not so much luck with losing cancer.

Quit with you today on my 90th day one at a time. PM me if you need anything.

[indycolts727]

DAY 25

-Drank my first beer (since quitting the nic bitch) last night....slowly it seems like everything is starting to taste better without dip....but I kept it at one beer because I didn't want to put my quit in harms way...

It's the little victories that really help bolster the quit!

Thanks for all of the support everyone!

QLF today!!!!!

Congrats! I'm almost to say 50 and I have no problem now having a few beers while watching football or hanging out with friends. I keep seeds around when I'm drinking... They do the trick!

[Arfy]

DAY 25

-Drank my first beer (since quitting the nic bitch) last night....slowly it seems like everything is starting to taste better without dip....but I kept it at one beer because I didn't want to put my quit in harms way...

It's the little victories that really help bolster the quit!

Thanks for all of the support everyone!

QLF today!!!!!

Congrats on knowing your limitations! I quit with you today!