So I couldn't find any intro here that I had done in the past. I guess it would be cool to see something old and odd that I had posted for perspective, but I just don't know how that would help me now. I've been here twice before. I don't even remember my first quit group. I flamed out super fast. In my second, I damn near made it to HOF and I regret that cave oh so much. That was the Dumpster Fire Oct16. BSR, one of my mentors is celebrating a year quit today, and here I am on day 33 due to being a pussy and caving. As far as reasons for caving other than putting nicotine in my mouth, I let myself get uninvolved with the site. Work got crazy and I put it was ahead of a quit. I smoked a cigar with buddies, and came back here proclaiming that it was just a cigar and it wasn't a gateway to get back to dipping. Man, I was just indignant about peoples reaction to it. I left on horrible terms. And they were all right of course. Within a couple weeks, I was back to finger fucking a can. And within 2 months, my consumption had gone UP. I spent the next few months dipping a can and a half a day.
My reasons for quitting this time are more pure. A lot of the reason is health issues that I've been worried about. My throat was chronically sore. I gutted all my spit. Never had a spitter at all. Occasionally, I'd spit the first couple times on a new dip, and gut the rest. I started thinking more and more about throat cancer, stomach cancer, etc, and getting scared. And I have an 8 year old daughter. She's my world and her momma isn't exactly great parenting material. If I die, her mom is about all she'd have and her chances of being a productive member of society would be about gone. And all those issues for a fix, for a high, for a weed. So I came back here, faced my past transgressions, and started posting again.
I'm at Day 33 now. I'm quit hard with a great group of quitters in Sept17. I'm ready to face those demons daily for my health, and for my little bitty family. In the first week of my quit, I had a talk with my daughter about my dip habit, nicotine, what it does to you, and why she should never start. Never too soon to have that convo. I was never that ninja dipper that I hear about on here. My family, coworkers, friends, etc all knew I dipped. My kiddo just thought it was "dirt stuff". Well she knows what it is now. I'm sad I ever tried it, but I'm glad I'm on this site with you great people.
I started dipping 10 years ago on a freaking dare when I was 28 years old! But I'm quit now. 33 days and going. I'm going to use this intro to post updates on my quit journey.
Bryan
