Here I go again

[MikeA]

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

Show her this Spousal support link it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.

you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"

The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.

No reason to stay up late getting in that last bit of poison for the day. Now you wife knows you can go to bed a little early and get your groove on.

I showed Megan the spousal support last night and we read it together. It opened up full communication in my quit and now she is a mega support. She also has full access to my KTC account so she can be involved in my quit. I donÃ,’t know why I didnÃ,’t get her on board earlier. Even though the quit every day is enough reward in itself, she's already got a pretty damn nice reward system in place. Duathman, you hit the nail on the head, I donÃ,’t know what the fuck I was thinking instead of capitalizing on opportunities with my wife in bed, I was trying to get cancer of the mouth.

There is also a facebook page for wives of quitters.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1375263019381879/

[ihatecope]

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

Show her this Spousal support link it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.

you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"

The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.

No reason to stay up late getting in that last bit of poison for the day. Now you wife knows you can go to bed a little early and get your groove on.

I showed Megan the spousal support last night and we read it together. It opened up full communication in my quit and now she is a mega support. She also has full access to my KTC account so she can be involved in my quit. I donÃ,’t know why I didnÃ,’t get her on board earlier. Even though the quit every day is enough reward in itself, she's already got a pretty damn nice reward system in place. Duathman, you hit the nail on the head, I donÃ,’t know what the fuck I was thinking instead of capitalizing on opportunities with my wife in bed, I was trying to get cancer of the mouth.

[Pinched]

I showed Megan the spousal support last night and we read it together. It opened up full communication in my quit and now she is a mega support. She also has full access to my KTC account so she can be involved in my quit. I donÃ,’t know why I didnÃ,’t get her on board earlier. Even though the quit every day is enough reward in itself, she's already got a pretty damn nice reward system in place. Duathman, you hit the nail on the head, I donÃ,’t know what the fuck I was thinking instead of capitalizing on opportunities with my wife in bed, I was trying to get cancer of the mouth.

You are getting it now. Just remember quit for you and let her support you and cherish the little wins with you. You will and do need her support fully. Honesty and openness are the best ways to win at anything.

Life will continue to happen around you weather you are quit or not. We do not become the men we are by the difficulties that we face but rather by how we deal with the difficulties that we face.

Great job and I quit with you today.

[ihatecope]

I was inspired by another quit brother (Mthomas3824) to use this page as a journal so I will not forget the hell I am going through to free myself from a poison that is ruining my life. I will not go through this hell again! Plus reading and writing right now is helping me quit so I will read and write all damn day if I have too. P.S. I really donÃ,’t know if writing thought and opinion of an addict on a public forum is a good idea but frankly I donÃ,’t give a shit. IÃ,’m pretty sure IÃ,’m going to F up and piss someone off. Well feel free to let me know. If I agree with you, I will say, Ã,“Thank You,Ã,” and if I donÃ,’t agree with you, IÃ,’ll say, Ã,”Fuck You.Ã,”


Day 11 Ã,â€" So far it has been a good day. Worked out early this morning for the first time in months and hit work feeling like I am winning this quit. Made roll call and knew as I hit post that I will keep my promise. The Vets tell me not to get complacent and just quit today and come back tomorrow. I am listing and I will. As I read everything I can find on this site, my eyes are beginning to open on UST. I now understand the strong hatred for UST. I am pissed at myself for being so dumb as to get into bed with such a horrible industry. I am pissed because I gave them everything precious to me and fucking willingly. I want my money, my time, and all my health back so I can give it to my family. I ran the saving calculator backwards to see how much I spent over 16 years. About $23,000 and that doesnÃ,’t include my time or health. Yea, IÃ,’m pissed. I want to take back something I wrote a couple of days ago about the taste and smell of tobacco. I no longer find that smell or taste appealing at all. I would rather eat dog shit than copenhagen. ItÃ,’s free and healthier than tobacco and a least the yard gets clean. (I think I read that analogy somewhere else but not sure)

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

Days 9Ã,â€"5 Ã,â€" Became a member of KTC on Day5. I was honest on the KTC site which surprised me. Things are getting better both at nights and during the days. I am still having stupid fight dreams and waking up drenched in sweat and craving. My wife thinks that I am sick or something and is worried about me. WT commits me to tell my wife what I am up to and itÃ,’s eating me not to take that wise advice. Work is still piling up and for some reason I donÃ,’t care. Cravings and stupid thoughts are less. One stupid thought of note was to buy a can for a friend and if he offers donÃ,’t be rude. Another was to cave and quit fresh with the New Year. I like KTC and all the help even though I feel like a newbe outsider (which I am). I feel like IÃ,’m in Ã,“protect myself mode.Ã,” I come late to work and hide in my office and act real pissed off so no one bugs me. I cling to KTC site all day and read read read. I go home early and try to find projects around the house to keep me busy.

Day 2-4 Ã,â€" (Pre KTC) I think about caving more than sex and I think about sex a lot. My fucking life is being consumed by this horrible quit. I need help because this has been the worst quit that I have ever attempted. I am not sleeping which hurts because the cravings are now day and night. I have a horrible attitude and piss everyone off around me. I decide that I will cave tomorrow patting myself on the back for at least trying.

Day 1 Ã,â€" On the drive home from Denver with a dip in my lip, I tell myself that I should try to quit again. IÃ,’m sick of Ã,“closet chewingÃ,” and I need to Ã,“man upÃ,” and turn my life right. Plus I am so sick of copenhagen and I know the only satisfaction I get from it is when I satisfy the cravings. At 2:00 PM I throwaway all my cans.

[duathman]

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

Show her this Spousal support link it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.

you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"

The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.

No reason to stay up late getting in that last bit of poison for the day. Now you wife knows you can go to bed a little early and get your groove on.

[B-loMatt]

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

Show her this Spousal support link it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.

you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"

The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.

[30isEnuff]

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

Show her this Spousal support link it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.

you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"

[Wt57]

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

Show her this Spousal support link it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.

[ihatecope]

Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.

[Wt57]

Paul, glad to see you get the roll call figured out and was really happy for the response to my PM. My advise for the next few weeks is get other numbers, read all you can. There is a wealth of experience among the brotherhood. It's a rough ride but it is possible if you really want it.

[ParadigmDawg]

Quitting is really simple.

Read everything on here, post roll call each morning and don't dip. Wow....that sounds so easy, doesn't it?

If you read through the other intro's you may see some of my same words on them but they always hold true so I will just repeat them...

You are in for one nasty fight but you have the tools here to make it.

Go load yourself up with gum, mints, fake chew, seeds and beef jerky. Also get some member phone numbers right now, they will help you through the rough parts.

Next, exercise to exhaustion every single day and drink so much water that you feel like you may bust. Both of these will help.

Make sure your wife reads about what you are going through. 99% chance that you are going to be a short fussed dick for the next 3-4 weeks. Try not to take it out on her and the kids. Get on here and take it out on us, we will be fine.

I quit with you.

[wmcatty]

Welcome aboard Paul. Read, read and read some more. Post roll daily and get ready for a wild ride on the KTC train. We are 16,000 members strong and will bend over backwards to help a new quitter. After you have posted roll in February 2014, your new quit qroup, look up at the top right of this screen and you will see Inbox (1). Open it and you will find a message from me. It is my telephone number. Call or text me with any questions or problems you are encountering. You might also want to try out our Chat room. It is a great place to meet new quitters, vent, rage or just talk to other quitters going through the same thing you are. It is not easy, but you should really try to control the anger and frustration when amongst family and friends...it will save you alot of apologizing in the future. Instead, take it out on us...we have been there and will will continue to support you. As far as your love affair with the smell, taste and relaxation of Copenhagen, you will soon find that is the addict portion of your brain trying to convince you to continue dipping. You will also soon realize that shit stinks, tastes bad and fouls your breath like a cow's nasty ass...just go ask your wife how pleasant dip breath is. Anyway, you are now quit and have joined the best quit site on the planet. Congratulations on taking back your life! Wayne

[ihatecope]

Hello. My name is Paul. IÃ,’m 38 years old, and IÃ,’m from Utah. I have been a "closet chewing" for 16 years. I know, closet chewing and for fÃ,’n 16 years thatÃ,’s pretty sad! I have been lying to my awesome wife and amazing kids and myself. I started chewing as a senior in high school because I liked the high and I was a pussy to any degree of peer pressure. I actually quit and cleaned up my life for 3 years serving a church mission and getting married after meeting my wife-to-be but caved back into my old ways of drinking and chewing when I rekindled old buddy relationships. IÃ,’ve tried to quit several times in the past 4 years but havenÃ,’t been able to overcome the addiction. I somehow convinced myself that since I quit for 3 years I wasnÃ,’t able to be addicted and can quit anytime. Well, I am addicted and quitting is going to be tough, especially since I really loved the smell, taste, and relax time of dipping with copenhagen.

Now, IÃ,’m 5 days quit (again). And it hasnÃ,’t been swell. I have pissed off everyone around me with my horrible attitude. IÃ,’m just thankful that I found this website for some reinforcement. I damn near cried (fÃ,’n mood swings) reading some of the articles of loss as people like myself who choose to chew have screwed up the lives of people they love. It reminded me of why I have been trying to quit for the past 4 years. I love my family and most of my dip shit friends. I have come to the conclusion that I would give my life for my wife and family, so why wouldnÃ,’t I give up tobacco for them?

IÃ,’m quitting because IÃ,’m scared of losing my face and life and the destructive wake that will wreak havoc on my wife and family who I love with all my heart and soul. IÃ,’m also quitting for myself because deep down I know that no one sees chewing as a good idea, something that smart, educated, respectable, and attractive people do. ItÃ,’s not cool and I now realize thatÃ,’s the reason I have been Ã,“closet chewingÃ,” all these years.

Thanks,
i hate cope

P.S. Future note to self: Even though you think you are a copenhagen ninja, youÃ,’re not! Hiding a nasty addiction like chewing and keeping close relationships is IMPOSSIBLE. They all know dumbass, you have been busted too many times to count.