I signed up and found this site yesterday, seemed cool and good for advice/ moral support, something I never had when previously trying to quit, maybe this is the missing link... I was going to quit Sunday, thank you all of you that told me to man up and do it now! Done! Truly, I know that this time it is for my resolve, my reason. Before, I wanted to quit cause of what others might think, for girls, expectations, stupid reasons. This time, I'm doing it for me.
After beginning to face and conquer all of my addictions, my confidence is returning, I'm gaining back love for life, myself and in return more for others in my life. You can't love you if you chew! It's self-destructive, degrading, disgusting and wrong. It's slow suicide. I didn't seem to care when I was younger, but now, I wanna buy some time! There is so much good still in this world; so much to acheive, to conquer and to experience. I need all the time I can get.
I'm expecting a fight, but I never back down from a good fight, and I only like winning. Not going to tap-out to this bitch again. No pussy-footing with gum or that shit, just going cold turkey. F-it! I'm not a tobacco user anymore. I am free. Today is my day. October 1, 2011. January 8th, 100 days. See you there and everyday until then! I am in, I'm at war with this demon and I am going to win. Thanks for the inpiration and support out there. This ain't gonna be easy, but I got this. Four hours and counting. Usually had one every hour. That's a start, just the beginning...
