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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #33 on: January 06, 2014, 05:14:00 PM »
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Today has just been one crave after another!  As soon as I get out of one for a few minutes the next one starts creeping in!  They move on fast but keep coming.  I am not liking this at all.

Note to self: no more McDonalds for lunch, I used to cut the after taste with a big ole' dip and without it, this is just adding to the crave!

'bang head'  'bang head'  'bang head'  'bang head'

Ok, I feel better now!
Mcdonalds sucks
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Keep quitting Today apogeeammo. It gets much better.
I used to love/crave McDonalds fillet o fish....since about day 150 when I tried one without the poison in my body, I can taste the shit that I have been eating for years. No more fillet o fish for me.
Everything will change for the better apogeeammo.
Keep quitting for Today.
Tomorrow isn't real yet.
Today is The Gift...That's why it is called The Present.
You got this! ODAAT.
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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #32 on: January 06, 2014, 02:00:00 PM »
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Today has just been one crave after another! As soon as I get out of one for a few minutes the next one starts creeping in! They move on fast but keep coming. I am not liking this at all.

Note to self: no more McDonalds for lunch, I used to cut the after taste with a big ole' dip and without it, this is just adding to the crave!

'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'

Ok, I feel better now!
Mcdonalds sucks
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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #31 on: January 06, 2014, 01:56:00 PM »
Today has just been one crave after another! As soon as I get out of one for a few minutes the next one starts creeping in! They move on fast but keep coming. I am not liking this at all.

Note to self: no more McDonalds for lunch, I used to cut the after taste with a big ole' dip and without it, this is just adding to the crave!

'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'

Ok, I feel better now!
--Focus on Remedies, Not Faults - Jack Nicklaus
--Do or Do Not, There is NO Try - Yoda
--Recalculating! - The GPS bitch!
--462 Just ahead of me! - Maynard

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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #30 on: January 06, 2014, 08:03:00 AM »
Welcome to the suck.
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One is one too many
One more is never enough


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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #29 on: January 06, 2014, 07:38:00 AM »
Rdad, thanks for the note about the avatar! I laughed till tears were rolling!

When I sent that picture to my brother after it scared the shit out of me, his reply was "oh good, you found him."

I don't know why but it just cracked me up! 'crackup'
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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #28 on: January 05, 2014, 09:14:00 PM »
Way to go Apogee....congrats on Day 5...you're rolling on a great quit! Keep it up! ZillahCowboy.

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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #27 on: January 05, 2014, 06:40:00 PM »
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Great reading all of your replies!  It really helps!  As I was reading them I was thinking "why do I think it would be good?"  There were so many times that I just did not want skoal anymore but I'd go get some more anyway! It was nasty and expensive and inconvenient and it got to where it tasted bad and it burned my fucking mouth but I'd go get it like it was the bestthingever!

Fuck that shit MAN! - Jeff Lebowski  'Finger'

Ok, that's off my chest.  Thanks for all the support.
A true hatred of the poison will take you far. good job! ( by the way, your avatar scares the shit out of me) :P
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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #26 on: January 05, 2014, 06:34:00 PM »
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Great reading all of your replies!  It really helps!  As I was reading them I was thinking "why do I think it would be good?"  There were so many times that I just did not want skoal anymore but I'd go get some more anyway! It was nasty and expensive and inconvenient and it got to where it tasted bad and it burned my fucking mouth but I'd go get it like it was the bestthingever!

Fuck that shit MAN! - Jeff Lebowski  'Finger'

Ok, that's off my chest.  Thanks for all the support.
A true hatred of the poison will take you far. good job! ( by the way, your avatar scares the shit out of me) :P

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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #25 on: January 05, 2014, 05:10:00 PM »
Great reading all of your replies! It really helps! As I was reading them I was thinking "why do I think it would be good?" There were so many times that I just did not want skoal anymore but I'd go get some more anyway! It was nasty and expensive and inconvenient and it got to where it tasted bad and it burned my fucking mouth but I'd go get it like it was the bestthingever!

Fuck that shit MAN! - Jeff Lebowski 'Finger'

Ok, that's off my chest. Thanks for all the support.
--Focus on Remedies, Not Faults - Jack Nicklaus
--Do or Do Not, There is NO Try - Yoda
--Recalculating! - The GPS bitch!
--462 Just ahead of me! - Maynard

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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #24 on: January 05, 2014, 04:47:00 PM »
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Nothing I do feels right!  My face feels different when I shave, my mouth tastes different brushing my teeth and my skin feels like it belongs to someone else.  I'm periodically dizzy and angry. This sucks! 'Finger'
Proud of you man. You are doing it right there. That's the feeling that you are doing things right. I even got a buzz. Like a whiskey buzz. I swore I was gonna get pulled over and get a ticket for being under the influence of not one damn thing. Really. Embrace it. Don't forget this feeling. It is definitely the price you have to pay for freedom. And you only want to do it once. When you get free you can get a beer buzz anytime. Quit On !!!
That's your body finally getting back to normal. Embrace this stuff now because it'll help you later remember you never want to have to go thru this nonsense again. You got this Apo, just stick with it ODAAT.

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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #23 on: January 05, 2014, 04:38:00 PM »
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Nothing I do feels right! My face feels different when I shave, my mouth tastes different brushing my teeth and my skin feels like it belongs to someone else. I'm periodically dizzy and angry. This sucks! 'Finger'
Proud of you man. You are doing it right there. That's the feeling that you are doing things right. I even got a buzz. Like a whiskey buzz. I swore I was gonna get pulled over and get a ticket for being under the influence of not one damn thing. Really. Embrace it. Don't forget this feeling. It is definitely the price you have to pay for freedom. And you only want to do it once. When you get free you can get a beer buzz anytime. Quit On !!!

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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #22 on: January 05, 2014, 04:33:00 PM »
Dude, you have been killing it and you're on your 5th day. No retreat. No surrender. You are not going back to day 1. You are not going to put yourself through this again. You are not going to cave. Why? because you are a badass quitter and you promised yourself and all of us on roll today that you would not use nicotine. Tomorrow, you will do the sameÂ….and we'll all quit with you again.
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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #21 on: January 05, 2014, 01:02:00 PM »
When you take off the leash, it's uncomfortable for a bit. Scary at times, in fact. And most will have a tendency to want to put the leash back on, because that's the life you were accustomed to...the leash is what YOU KNOW, and running free is UNKNOWN, therefore rather uncomfortable. This is where you have to have faith in what we are telling you... in what your gut is telling you... in the voice in your head that led you here....that there is a much better way to live. I'm telling you that that feeling is legit. Trust it. Remember it when you weaken. Ask us to remind you about it when you reminisce fondly about the old life. Remember that your old leash represented slavery, not comfort. Congrats on seeing the light. Now keep walking toward it.
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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #20 on: January 05, 2014, 12:15:00 PM »
Apo,

Nicotine is some nasty stuff. It's a neurotoxin and does a real number on your body and mind. Be patient it gets easier.

You can understand how bad that shit is for you by how horrible you feel right now. They hooked us on a poison and they knew they were doing it. They tailor the drug to make you more likely to become an addict. They advertised that shit on TV during my Saturday Cartoons as a kid. FUCKERS. but I digress.

The worse I felt the madder I got and the stronger my resolve.

They've been selling you poison and lies.
Enough. Get mad.

You can do this.

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Re: Apogeeammo - this is me
« Reply #19 on: January 05, 2014, 11:34:00 AM »
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Nothing I do feels right!  My face feels different when I shave, my mouth tastes different brushing my teeth and my skin feels like it belongs to someone else.  I'm periodically dizzy and angry. This sucks! 'Finger'
That is why it is referred to as "The Suck" Remember this feeling, you only have to do this one time if you quit for today.

It gets better I promise.

Get some cardio, and sip water all day. Don't chug it, sip. you want it to soak in.

It sucks yes, but you will get through it.

Don't let your mind play games with your will either. If the thought "just one" or "I've done well so far, I have this beat" occur, kick it out.

One is too many, and a thousand aren't enough.


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Deep breath my friend as your body is starting to heal. Just like when we feel that itching under that scab when it is healing and it drives us crazy, so too when we heal from poisoning us for so long there will be things that drive us crazy.

hang tight and fight through these times. reach out in your intro and the quit thread as you have. get it off your chest and be wise asking for help.

it will get so much better but you have to believe.

I quit with you today.