Almost there... Quit Date Dec 31st 2013

[Derk40]

So, I'm having a significant amount of oral discomfort, like havent had a solid meal in 4 days cause food hurts too much. I know this is normal with the quit. According to the internet I could have AIDS/HIV, Cancer, or Meningitis!
I know I don't have AIDS/HIV or Meningitis, we're all concerned about cancer, but I'm fairly certian I don't have that either. Knock on wood.

I made it a week. 7 days. I physically feel like shit. I mentally feel like shit. I'm having great difficulty taking shits. Haven't fallen asleep before 1:30-2:00 am since I quit. Then I get a power hour of sleep and then it's toss and turn in a pool of my own sweat til at get up at 6. Last night my body wanted some poison really badly. Was pretty grumpy but was able to focus the rage on staying quit rather than taking it out on my family.
All that aside and it's amazing. I didn't give in last night. I counld't have done that 7 days ago. My brain is sucking right now so I can't really explain how, when eveything feels so bad, I feel so good. It's awesomely difficult. Thanks for all your help and support!

Let me check my list:

Oral discomfort

Irritability

Inability to take a dump

Inability to sleep

Yep, you are right on track of becoming a quitter.

Hell, I will quit with you again today.

It does get so much better, hang in there.

To me it sounds like you are on track. This is a dramatic change going from a weak person enslaved to nicotine to a bad a$$ quitter.

If you weren't all in you would be typing something like... 1 week down and this quittin thing is a breeze. It is not ez and not for the weak. You can get thru this time. We all had to power thru this period.

When I read that you are in a battle then I know your going to fight today. In time things get better but you don't heal over night. Years of abuse takes time to heal. Remember this time and vow to not repeat it again.

Stay quit today brother.

[Mogul]

Neon, Wow, I was reading that and I honestly don't remember writing that.  I believe you now, you are on your way to freedom.  Let me say to you too, don't worry about your mouth.  If it was cancer you would know it.  I think many here worry about it needlessly.  I have had cancer, surgery cured it, but it was a big scare.  After going to an oncologist and seeing what all goes on there, I can say that we as Americans have a good handle on cancer.  We haven't cured it but we have beaten it if it is caught early.  Therefore, go see a doctor at your earliest scare and get the facts.  I do, still to this day.  I have now had 4 surgeries, mostly minor, but only the first was cancer. 

The fog, the headaches, the 2 month sore throat, and now the inability for my eyes to focus properly have all made me think it could be cancer.  However, I know better.  It is my body adjusting to no nicotine.  Still after 41 days my body is adjusting.  It's not like a hangover that goes away with a few advil and a good nights sleep. 

Stay quit, keep being a winner.  Im on your side and I understand what you are going through. 

Mogul

Good thing you're not a pilot or something like that with all those symptoms.... 'crackup'

You funny, vewwy vewwy funnie. haha like haha.

[Mjollnir]

Yes, it does get better. And yes, when I first quit I had trouble with my vision. I had just gotten a new pair of glasses too! I went back to the eye doctor and she told me to wait a bit. I did and yes, it did clear up.

You will be fine, but it is going to suck pretty bad for a while.

[ParadigmDawg]

Neon, Wow, I was reading that and I honestly don't remember writing that. I believe you now, you are on your way to freedom. Let me say to you too, don't worry about your mouth. If it was cancer you would know it. I think many here worry about it needlessly. I have had cancer, surgery cured it, but it was a big scare. After going to an oncologist and seeing what all goes on there, I can say that we as Americans have a good handle on cancer. We haven't cured it but we have beaten it if it is caught early. Therefore, go see a doctor at your earliest scare and get the facts. I do, still to this day. I have now had 4 surgeries, mostly minor, but only the first was cancer.

The fog, the headaches, the 2 month sore throat, and now the inability for my eyes to focus properly have all made me think it could be cancer. However, I know better. It is my body adjusting to no nicotine. Still after 41 days my body is adjusting. It's not like a hangover that goes away with a few advil and a good nights sleep.

Stay quit, keep being a winner. Im on your side and I understand what you are going through.

Mogul

Good thing you're not a pilot or something like that with all those symptoms.... 'crackup'

[ParadigmDawg]

So, I'm having a significant amount of oral discomfort, like havent had a solid meal in 4 days cause food hurts too much. I know this is normal with the quit. According to the internet I could have AIDS/HIV, Cancer, or Meningitis!
I know I don't have AIDS/HIV or Meningitis, we're all concerned about cancer, but I'm fairly certian I don't have that either. Knock on wood.

I made it a week. 7 days. I physically feel like shit. I mentally feel like shit. I'm having great difficulty taking shits. Haven't fallen asleep before 1:30-2:00 am since I quit. Then I get a power hour of sleep and then it's toss and turn in a pool of my own sweat til at get up at 6. Last night my body wanted some poison really badly. Was pretty grumpy but was able to focus the rage on staying quit rather than taking it out on my family.
All that aside and it's amazing. I didn't give in last night. I counld't have done that 7 days ago. My brain is sucking right now so I can't really explain how, when eveything feels so bad, I feel so good. It's awesomely difficult. Thanks for all your help and support!

Let me check my list:

Oral discomfort

Irritability

Inability to take a dump

Inability to sleep

Yep, you are right on track of becoming a quitter.

Hell, I will quit with you again today.

It does get so much better, hang in there.

[Spartanron]

the inability for my eyes to focus properly

^
THAT

I'm on my second brand- new pair of contacts in 7 days. I thought it was my contacts lol!

I like to understand the medical reasoning, or at least have some sort of an explanation for the symptoms I'm experiencing, so I decided to do some research on Nicotine withdrawals. I'm typing up findings; I think it might be helpful for others here. Reading thru some of this stuff... Nicotine/Tobacco is unbelievably terrible for the human body. Remember how I was advocating for using the gum? Yea, just reading a study on how NRTs, have been found to be linked to multiple terrifying health conditions, but NRTs have been directly linked to Hyperinsulinemia, a precursor to Type II Diabetes.
Symptoms I am researching;
Cravings
Mood related (anxiety, irritability, restlessness, depression, frustration, anger)
The fog/difficulty concentrating
Insomnia
Constipation/diarrhea.
Increased Appetite
Oral Symptoms
Visual Symptoms
If you have any other symptoms and you care you know more about why, let me know. I have access to a huge Online Medical library through the VA so I can try to find more in-depth information than what you might get from yahoo.answers :D

Welcome to the suck, sucks so bad you only do it once. I will never forget the insomnia and burning eyes. Not sure when exactly I snapped out of it, but it gets better....

[NeonPanther]

the inability for my eyes to focus properly

^
THAT

I'm on my second brand- new pair of contacts in 7 days. I thought it was my contacts lol!

I like to understand the medical reasoning, or at least have some sort of an explanation for the symptoms I'm experiencing, so I decided to do some research on Nicotine withdrawals. I'm typing up findings; I think it might be helpful for others here. Reading thru some of this stuff... Nicotine/Tobacco is unbelievably terrible for the human body. Remember how I was advocating for using the gum? Yea, just reading a study on how NRTs, have been found to be linked to multiple terrifying health conditions, but NRTs have been directly linked to Hyperinsulinemia, a precursor to Type II Diabetes.
Symptoms I am researching;
Cravings
Mood related (anxiety, irritability, restlessness, depression, frustration, anger)
The fog/difficulty concentrating
Insomnia
Constipation/diarrhea.
Increased Appetite
Oral Symptoms
Visual Symptoms
If you have any other symptoms and you care you know more about why, let me know. I have access to a huge Online Medical library through the VA so I can try to find more in-depth information than what you might get from yahoo.answers :D

[NeonPanther]

I'm glad you did say it Mogul, it was the kick in the ass 'arse' I needed!

My Spirit is strong that's what I was trying to say. Yea everything sucks, yea I'm suffering right now, but this time, instead of being an excuse to turn back to the poison, the suck is just more fuel on the fire of reasons to never, ever touch nicotine again!

You guys rock, thanks for all the support, and thanks for quitting with me!

[Diesel2112]

So, I'm having a significant amount of oral discomfort, like havent had a solid meal in 4 days cause food hurts too much. I know this is normal with the quit. According to the internet I could have AIDS/HIV, Cancer, or Meningitis!
I know I don't have AIDS/HIV or Meningitis, we're all concerned about cancer, but I'm fairly certian I don't have that either. Knock on wood.

I made it a week. 7 days. I physically feel like shit. I mentally feel like shit. I'm having great difficulty taking shits. Haven't fallen asleep before 1:30-2:00 am since I quit. Then I get a power hour of sleep and then it's toss and turn in a pool of my own sweat til at get up at 6. Last night my body wanted some poison really badly. Was pretty grumpy but was able to focus the rage on staying quit rather than taking it out on my family.
All that aside and it's amazing. I didn't give in last night. I counld't have done that 7 days ago. My brain is sucking right now so I can't really explain how, when eveything feels so bad, I feel so good. It's awesomely difficult. Thanks for all your help and support!

Right on track. The bitch is gonna play all sorts of tricks on you to try and get you back.

Do whatever it takes to keep turning her away.

Each time you do you break her spirit a tiny bit while building your own.

Especially in the beginning she has spirit for days, while you may feel at times you have none. But you do. You just gotta keep mustering it up. You have trouble finding it, come here and we will help you dig deep.

Great work making it a week, keep it going. You got this shit!!!

[Mogul]

Neon, Wow, I was reading that and I honestly don't remember writing that. I believe you now, you are on your way to freedom. Let me say to you too, don't worry about your mouth. If it was cancer you would know it. I think many here worry about it needlessly. I have had cancer, surgery cured it, but it was a big scare. After going to an oncologist and seeing what all goes on there, I can say that we as Americans have a good handle on cancer. We haven't cured it but we have beaten it if it is caught early. Therefore, go see a doctor at your earliest scare and get the facts. I do, still to this day. I have now had 4 surgeries, mostly minor, but only the first was cancer.

The fog, the headaches, the 2 month sore throat, and now the inability for my eyes to focus properly have all made me think it could be cancer. However, I know better. It is my body adjusting to no nicotine. Still after 41 days my body is adjusting. It's not like a hangover that goes away with a few advil and a good nights sleep.

Stay quit, keep being a winner. Im on your side and I understand what you are going through.

Mogul

[NeonPanther]

So, I'm having a significant amount of oral discomfort, like havent had a solid meal in 4 days cause food hurts too much. I know this is normal with the quit. According to the internet I could have AIDS/HIV, Cancer, or Meningitis!
I know I don't have AIDS/HIV or Meningitis, we're all concerned about cancer, but I'm fairly certian I don't have that either. Knock on wood.

I made it a week. 7 days. I physically feel like shit. I mentally feel like shit. I'm having great difficulty taking shits. Haven't fallen asleep before 1:30-2:00 am since I quit. Then I get a power hour of sleep and then it's toss and turn in a pool of my own sweat til at get up at 6. Last night my body wanted some poison really badly. Was pretty grumpy but was able to focus the rage on staying quit rather than taking it out on my family.
All that aside and it's amazing. I didn't give in last night. I counld't have done that 7 days ago. My brain is sucking right now so I can't really explain how, when eveything feels so bad, I feel so good. It's awesomely difficult. Thanks for all your help and support!

[Derk40]

Mogul. The last time you posted on my wall you called me a liar and said, "I don't trust you. Get out of my face or post roll and quit. "

I was laying in bed, thinking about all the posts during the day. There was like this raging fire of quit, but the addiction just wanted me to stay in bed. Couldn't sleep, so I logged on to KTC from my phone to see what feedback awaited me.

Mogul- "I don't trust you. Get out of my face or post roll and quit. "
Applejack- "You're failing. It's controlling you. This is so sad man... You don't even see it. It's telling you that you can't do it and you're listening."

It was exactly what I needed to hear. It was the final brick of sense I need to have slapped across my addiction addled mind. I kicked off the covers, threw out the stash, quit and posted roll.

So I'm not gonna lie, my feelings are a bit hurt that it took Channing Tatum, half nude reading 50 shades of grey while sucking an atomic fireball to get you to post on my page again. :D

Congratulations on 40 tomorrow man. And sincerely, thank you for saving my life.

Neo... Lovin' your attitude man.

Rock on...

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Yep. Just catching up on your quit. Keep at it ODAAT brother. Keep your eye on the prize. Prize is staying quit ADD!

[AppleJack]

Mogul. The last time you posted on my wall you called me a liar and said, "I don't trust you. Get out of my face or post roll and quit. "

I was laying in bed, thinking about all the posts during the day. There was like this raging fire of quit, but the addiction just wanted me to stay in bed. Couldn't sleep, so I logged on to KTC from my phone to see what feedback awaited me.

Mogul- "I don't trust you. Get out of my face or post roll and quit. "
Applejack- "You're failing. It's controlling you. This is so sad man... You don't even see it. It's telling you that you can't do it and you're listening."

It was exactly what I needed to hear. It was the final brick of sense I need to have slapped across my addiction addled mind. I kicked off the covers, threw out the stash, quit and posted roll.

So I'm not gonna lie, my feelings are a bit hurt that it took Channing Tatum, half nude reading 50 shades of grey while sucking an atomic fireball to get you to post on my page again. :D

Congratulations on 40 tomorrow man. And sincerely, thank you for saving my life.

Neo... Lovin' your attitude man.

Rock on...

[NeonPanther]

Mogul. The last time you posted on my wall you called me a liar and said, "I don't trust you. Get out of my face or post roll and quit. "

I was laying in bed, thinking about all the posts during the day. There was like this raging fire of quit, but the addiction just wanted me to stay in bed. Couldn't sleep, so I logged on to KTC from my phone to see what feedback awaited me.

Mogul- "I don't trust you. Get out of my face or post roll and quit. "
Applejack- "You're failing. It's controlling you. This is so sad man... You don't even see it. It's telling you that you can't do it and you're listening."

It was exactly what I needed to hear. It was the final brick of sense I need to have slapped across my addiction addled mind. I kicked off the covers, threw out the stash, quit and posted roll.

So I'm not gonna lie, my feelings are a bit hurt that it took Channing Tatum, half nude reading 50 shades of grey while sucking an atomic fireball to get you to post on my page again. :D

Congratulations on 40 tomorrow man. And sincerely, thank you for saving my life.

[Mogul]

Man you guys are AWESOME! Thanks for all the motivation and support. Thanks for all the texts checking in to see how I'm doing. Thanks for helping me survive this last weekend.

I think I may have ODed on Atomic fireballs. My mouth is a painful swollen mess of agony. But it's worth it. The fog is lifting, I think most of what is left is just sleep deprivation. Sounds like soon I'll go from no sleep to oversleeping. Can't wait for that. :D  Today has been pretty mellow, think it's going to be a pretty easy+1 but I'll keep vigilant, I made a promise today. It's a promise that I have kept every day, since the 1st day I made it. It the most humbling way, I am so proud of myself... If that even makes sense.

I appreciate you all. This KTC community is some Badass life savers. I couldn't do it with out you, and I am so so so happy to finally be quit with you.

OD'ing on fireballs is not possible.


I Tried.

Pretty sure I broke a tooth or two in the process.


Still worth it. Day 1,051, still chomping fireballs as needed. Still clean as can be.

Atomic fireballs are my bitch!
Odd... For the most part, during the days I have NO problem squishing the li'l pissant craves that come my way. Late at night... Different story. My wife is an early to bed gal, I'm not even close. This was dip-a-palooza for me for YEARS. Like, our entire marriage... 20 years. Even at 237 days this time of the evening is something I'm very careful with. A good book and my atomic fireballs... Damn. That sounds a li'l ghey. Anyway... You're rockin' it man. Pm me if you'd like another number bro!

Dude...I just had an image of a guy reading "50 shades of Gray" while sucking on an atomic fireball.

:channing:

THAT'S JUST WRONG!!