Hello, I have been wanting to quit for several months if not several years and I finally got the balls to go all in.
I have been dipping for about ten years. I started dipping every off and on while I was a smoker for 2 years but gave smoking up pretty easy (didn't like feeling like I could not breathe). After smoking I would buy a can every once and awhile. After I gave up smoking, I would have a can around and then go a few days with nothing and so on. But as I got older having a can around would start being a constant. I had a job at a secure facility so I would only dip on the way to and from work. But as the years went on the addiction hooked me and started to get worse.
About 5 years ago, I was hired at my current job. At this job I was given the freedom to make my own schedule and sort of do whatever I want. Because of this I just started dipping a lot and even all day. Drive around with a pack of dip almost at all times. On days off I would get up and start craving it as I woke up.
But today that will all change. I have made some attempts to quit in the past but nothing sticks after a month for me. I think I NEED the accountability and group mentality to help me get through this.
Yesterday at approximately 1:45 pm I took my dip out and threw it out. I threw out any paraphernalia of dip that was in the car (i.e. old cans and empty bottles). I went home and did the same thing at my house. I started getting real bad cravings after I ate dinner.
I went out to a store that doesn't sell dip (cant trust myself yet) and bought some seeds and a three pack of gum.
I want to quit, I need to quit for my health. And I wanted to say hi, because I want to make it through each day knowing that I can get up the next morning and go to roll call.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
- ChadPA
