I've benn here for a few days have been posting roll, just never typed an intro. I'll make it quick. I'm a 20yr addict - grew up on a farm in SD started in early teens. I liked it never stopped. My dad has a 30+ year habit, brother chews, almost all aunts uncles smoke, and there are some alcohol addiction issues in family. Tried to quit (not really) a couple times in college, but never was committed - even though I was an athlete who trained year round (football).
I have a beautiful wife 2 wonderful kids who deserve better. I I am a Christian, a science teacher and fb coach: all areas where I (as a man) must set be a better example. I've fought with the guilt, justified every excuse to myself, and continued to let nic have control. As a teacher/coach I can't stand excuses...kind of hypocritical on my part? 2 years ago I quit for a year, but then caved while working on my Education Specialists degree during the football season. We were on a playoff run and ended up in the Final 4, and I was back in full-blown user mode.
Things are better this time around - this community committment level not only to myself, but also the others here is something I didn't have before. It was too easy to lie to myself cave in to the temptation that is around me everyday. I approach it the same way we look at putting an offense together: put some plays together get a first down, get some first downs now you have a drive, put a drive together score some points, score more points and win a game.
I'm still putting days together, and will continue to focus on sweat the little things. Some day I can look back and see successful drives (months years) and that will contribute to winning the game - my LIFE!
I hate losing - pledging to fight my ass off each day to stay quit. Thank you for your support- sounds like a cliche, but y'all really don't know how much you've meant in only 7 days.
