I'm a quitter!

[jzzyzag01]

You can't call yourself a quitter yet...suffering must come first...lol....

You are in for one nasty fight but you have the tools here to make it.

Read everything on here, post roll call each morning and don't dip. Wow....that sounds so easy, doesn't it?

Go load yourself up with gum, mints, fake chew, seeds and beef jerky. Also get some member phone numbers right now, they will help you through the rough parts.

Next, exercise to exhaustion every single day and drink so much water that you feel like you may bust. Both of these will help. I am a cycling freak so during the first several weeks I lived on my bike and stayed overtrained. Surprisingly, you feel about the same when you are overtrained as you do during the fog so somehow, it made it better.

The wife part is tricky as she is going to see the changes in you. It's probably time to put your big boy pants on and come clean. Then make sure your wife reads about what you are going through. 99% chance that you are going to be a short fussed dick for the next 3-4 weeks. Try not to take it out on her and the kids. Get on here and take it out on us, we will be fine.

I quit with you.

Thanks Paradigm. I've been running like crazy this week to get over that crave first thing in the morning and it's actually helped. I'm so worried about my legs shaking I forget that I used throw a dip in around the same time.

Today I choose to quit because today is the only day I have control over today. Tomorrow is a new day and when tomorrow is today, I'll control it too, but not until then. I will win this fight with today...

I was the ultimate ninja addict. Started dating my wife 9/20/01, got married 9/4/04 and NEVER got caught once. I was like you; paranoid about her finding a can hidden in the back of a drawer, or finding a spitter burried in the center console of my car, or finding a shard stick in my teeth. Trying to hide my disgusting addiction was just as nerve-racking as worrying about cancer.

I used as a ninja and tried quitting as a ninja, but that didn't work out very well. Around day 28, Mrs Evil and my girls called me out for being a dick. My wife assumed I was leaving her since I was so angry all the time. At dinner, my daughter said, "dad doesn't look happy anymore with us". Fuck! I had talked to other former ninjas and they all said to come clean. "Get the wife on your side."

So, that night I came clean. Admitting my addiction went over like a loud wet fart in church. She was pissed and by "chick logic" said I had lied by omission, or something like that, for our entire relationship. Tensions were high for a few days but deep inside I felt relief. I wasn't hiding ANYTHING from her or my family for the first time EVER!

Now, 351 days later she is starting to get it. She knows that I have hundeds of numbers of quitters in my phone and that I will get raunchy, sick, and perverted texts at all hours of the night. She knows that if a quitter comes to Chicago I will drop what I'm doing and meet them in person. She now understands that KTC and the people that make this online environment a warm-blooded community are the main reason that I have remained clean.

Evil you pretty much summed up my whole existence for the last five years with my wife. In fact, as I was reading your post, I was also thinking about her saying the same things yours did and the back and forth.

Congrats on almost a year of quits and thanks for the support. It means a lot knowing so many other guys are going thru the same stuff each and every day just like I am. Together we'll make it.

This shit is tough, but KTC is tougher. I'm tougher. Today I'll win.

[Evil_Won]

You can't call yourself a quitter yet...suffering must come first...lol....

You are in for one nasty fight but you have the tools here to make it.

Read everything on here, post roll call each morning and don't dip. Wow....that sounds so easy, doesn't it?

Go load yourself up with gum, mints, fake chew, seeds and beef jerky. Also get some member phone numbers right now, they will help you through the rough parts.

Next, exercise to exhaustion every single day and drink so much water that you feel like you may bust. Both of these will help. I am a cycling freak so during the first several weeks I lived on my bike and stayed overtrained. Surprisingly, you feel about the same when you are overtrained as you do during the fog so somehow, it made it better.

The wife part is tricky as she is going to see the changes in you. It's probably time to put your big boy pants on and come clean. Then make sure your wife reads about what you are going through. 99% chance that you are going to be a short fussed dick for the next 3-4 weeks. Try not to take it out on her and the kids. Get on here and take it out on us, we will be fine.

I quit with you.

Thanks Paradigm. I've been running like crazy this week to get over that crave first thing in the morning and it's actually helped. I'm so worried about my legs shaking I forget that I used throw a dip in around the same time.

Today I choose to quit because today is the only day I have control over today. Tomorrow is a new day and when tomorrow is today, I'll control it too, but not until then. I will win this fight with today...

I was the ultimate ninja addict. Started dating my wife 9/20/01, got married 9/4/04 and NEVER got caught once. I was like you; paranoid about her finding a can hidden in the back of a drawer, or finding a spitter burried in the center console of my car, or finding a shard stick in my teeth. Trying to hide my disgusting addiction was just as nerve-racking as worrying about cancer.

I used as a ninja and tried quitting as a ninja, but that didn't work out very well. Around day 28, Mrs Evil and my girls called me out for being a dick. My wife assumed I was leaving her since I was so angry all the time. At dinner, my daughter said, "dad doesn't look happy anymore with us". Fuck! I had talked to other former ninjas and they all said to come clean. "Get the wife on your side."

So, that night I came clean. Admitting my addiction went over like a loud wet fart in church. She was pissed and by "chick logic" said I had lied by omission, or something like that, for our entire relationship. Tensions were high for a few days but deep inside I felt relief. I wasn't hiding ANYTHING from her or my family for the first time EVER!

Now, 351 days later she is starting to get it. She knows that I have hundeds of numbers of quitters in my phone and that I will get raunchy, sick, and perverted texts at all hours of the night. She knows that if a quitter comes to Chicago I will drop what I'm doing and meet them in person. She now understands that KTC and the people that make this online environment a warm-blooded community are the main reason that I have remained clean.

[jzzyzag01]

You can't call yourself a quitter yet...suffering must come first...lol....

You are in for one nasty fight but you have the tools here to make it.

Read everything on here, post roll call each morning and don't dip. Wow....that sounds so easy, doesn't it?

Go load yourself up with gum, mints, fake chew, seeds and beef jerky. Also get some member phone numbers right now, they will help you through the rough parts.

Next, exercise to exhaustion every single day and drink so much water that you feel like you may bust. Both of these will help. I am a cycling freak so during the first several weeks I lived on my bike and stayed overtrained. Surprisingly, you feel about the same when you are overtrained as you do during the fog so somehow, it made it better.

The wife part is tricky as she is going to see the changes in you. It's probably time to put your big boy pants on and come clean. Then make sure your wife reads about what you are going through. 99% chance that you are going to be a short fussed dick for the next 3-4 weeks. Try not to take it out on her and the kids. Get on here and take it out on us, we will be fine.

I quit with you.

Thanks Paradigm. I've been running like crazy this week to get over that crave first thing in the morning and it's actually helped. I'm so worried about my legs shaking I forget that I used throw a dip in around the same time.

Today I choose to quit because today is the only day I have control over today. Tomorrow is a new day and when tomorrow is today, I'll control it too, but not until then. I will win this fight with today...

[ParadigmDawg]

You can't call yourself a quitter yet...suffering must come first...lol....

You are in for one nasty fight but you have the tools here to make it.

Read everything on here, post roll call each morning and don't dip. Wow....that sounds so easy, doesn't it?

Go load yourself up with gum, mints, fake chew, seeds and beef jerky. Also get some member phone numbers right now, they will help you through the rough parts.

Next, exercise to exhaustion every single day and drink so much water that you feel like you may bust. Both of these will help. I am a cycling freak so during the first several weeks I lived on my bike and stayed overtrained. Surprisingly, you feel about the same when you are overtrained as you do during the fog so somehow, it made it better.

The wife part is tricky as she is going to see the changes in you. It's probably time to put your big boy pants on and come clean. Then make sure your wife reads about what you are going through. 99% chance that you are going to be a short fussed dick for the next 3-4 weeks. Try not to take it out on her and the kids. Get on here and take it out on us, we will be fine.

I quit with you.

[jzzyzag01]

My quit date is 9/22/13. The biggest reason for the quit is so I am around for my wife and two kids as they grow up. The Kern letter is truly a scary reminder of just how bad this thing can get before we realize what is happening.

I'll fess up that my wife doesn't know that I've used for several years so my quit will be mainly with the support of you guys. This is another reason for the quit as I'm tired of sneaking them and hiding the cans, bottles, etc., constantly worrying what she would say if she found them.

Gradually the chew has ingrained itself in many aspects of my life and I didn't realize just how many aspects until recently. I've found myself craving one in the shower, playing golf, watching TV, working, driving, etc. Just about every imaginable situation where my wife and kids weren't around, I had a dip in. The thing that really started to bother me at the end was how I was finding ways to get away from them so that I could have a dip. Enough was enough and I'm ready to put this thing away.

The toughest part will probably be my buddies that still chew. The addiction started and festered with these guys and hanging with them without a can will be tough, but I'm ready to do it. One quote I've found helpful on the main site is that cancer isn't worth the 10 minute buzz. Agreed.

Thank you guys for being here and I look forward to getting to that HOF with y'all and giving the can the "suck-it" in December.