Can I just say that there are some days that I just get tired of being quit its a lot of damn work.
I think back to when it was so easy to just throw a dip in and go about my day
when I would get overwhelmed I'd just let the nicotine wash over me making me numb to the emotions
to be honest there are days I miss it ........
That is why I know that I can NEVER have Just one that will never be an option in my life
there will never be a day that I can close my eyes and not keep tabs on what the little whore named nicotine is up to.
You're so right. Quitting is hard work. at least we have each other to support us through these shitty days. I would have failed the first day without this site and all of you. Super cool that you are so active in supporting others' quits so hopefully that energizes.
If it helps motivate your quit at all, this post helped me as it was a reminder to me that when I reach 70-80 days to stay super vigilant and involved.. Drome and others have mentioned what's happening to you will hit nearly all of us at or around 70-80.
Sorry you are having a shitty day. 'Finger' Nicotine and chew.
Proud to quit with you.
Thank you Viking
this is the second one I hit the first one around day 55 -56 was fog and cravings and this one is just a wall like my brain doesn't want to go forward I am trying to find a balance with supporting others except for a select few core people I am giving more than getting and I think that is part of my drain right now
I have an all or nothing personality and I am having to learn how to harness that energy and balance it out if that makes sense
Keep on Quitting on!!
Quit hard and Quit proud
DC, just read your intro. Great quit going on here!
You are on the quit roller-coaster. There will be some easier quit days, and even a couple or few/several easier days in a row, but then you will get back to cravings, fog, and the SUCK, and you will have to fight like hell to stay quit. Use the easier quit days to recharge for the next hard patch, and keep your tools sharp. There is nothing the nic-bitch can throw at you that you have not already overcome, and there is no reason, no excuse for caving. You have all the tools you need to kill a crave. You have all the tools you need to get through a fog, and a bought of the dreaded SUCK (embrace the fog and SUCK, they are signs of you winning). When you get into a hard stretch, and it takes everything you have to stay quit, remember that "it sucks until it doesn't" is a true statement. There will come a day when the roller-coaster quit ride is over, and you will find yourself in a way better place.
Have you had a crave free day yet? Keep drinking the KTC kool-aide and you will. You might have 100 craves the following day, but eventually you won't remember the last time you had a crave.
Have you had a day yet where you only thought about dip for the 2 minutes you were posting roll on KTC? You will if you keep killing it. You might go into a fog the next day, but you have proven that a fog can't destroy your quit.
There is a pattern of risky times in the early quit. 1 week, 1 month, around day 50, 70-80-90, post HOF, 120-130, 170s(lost a lot of people from the quit-group there), 220s... Knowing that it is common, and that it gets way better can help.
The SUCK was the worst thing I remember. It was the last major hurdle for me. I hit a point where I was quit and I knew I would never have another dip, but everything SUCKED. I think it lasted a few weeks, but it eventually went away. After that I don't think that I have had another hard quit day...
So just keep doing what got you here. If you have to fight like hell all day, then that is what you do b/c you know you can, and you own your quit. Know that you will have easy days to rest up and get ready for the next fight for your quit all day times. Don't be afraid to ask for help, and keep building your accountability.
You got this DC.
