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[Dieselchick87]

Day 84 I am not going to double up on my ramblings for today if you want to read them

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THE NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN

[Dieselchick87]

Just a reminder of why I am here


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~Thank you Cancrusher

[brettlees]

Day 83
****RANTING AND VENTING things in this post may not make sense I was having a melt down moment and the first thing I could think of was to come here and just let it all out and the reason that I hit Post is to remind myself in the future that even the littlest things can trigger the want to cave even a mistake that was not my fault ****


Today would have been a real bad day if I wasn't quit cause it would be a 2 can'er and I am broke as fuck.

I should have known that it was going to be a bad day when I dreamed about going to work and for some reason taking my husbands brand new pack of cigarettes with me (that should have been my first clue to stay home today) then a coworker
who has been off on sick leave came back and fell and broke a hip and I got blamed for his hip breaking (2nd clue) then on my way home from work I got into a wreck with my bosses new car (3rd and final straw)

I woke up "wow that was a fucked up dream"

I am 2 hours into my day and someone put a broom by my heater and it caught fire (its my fault) now my new nickname is Pyro. then I pissed off a friend and she canceled our dinner tonight I want to go home and hide under my blankets it seems like everything I touch I fuck it up

I give up I don't want to even try anymore its stupid and bullshit

my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now

^^^^^^^

here is a reason why people succeed. They lay it out there on the line for others to read. The get what is bothering them 'off their chest'.

Life throws quite a bit at us, and it is the learning how to handle it without the poison that shows us the way to a bright future.

Well done there lady. You have done well. You have used what has been taught. Just keep up the great work, learning each day as you go.

a huge win for you, and for others a path to see how they can too.

really great to share this. Keep it up! you really make your quit work by giving so much- and in return you get a lot of support. The model you provide is so so valuable. Learning how to deal with life unfiltered by the poisons we all used to ingest to numb it out takes time and is hard but i'm loving it and loving seeing others on the same journey and succeeding!

[SirDerek]

Day 83
****RANTING AND VENTING things in this post may not make sense I was having a melt down moment and the first thing I could think of was to come here and just let it all out and the reason that I hit Post is to remind myself in the future that even the littlest things can trigger the want to cave even a mistake that was not my fault ****


Today would have been a real bad day if I wasn't quit cause it would be a 2 can'er and I am broke as fuck.

I should have known that it was going to be a bad day when I dreamed about going to work and for some reason taking my husbands brand new pack of cigarettes with me (that should have been my first clue to stay home today) then a coworker
who has been off on sick leave came back and fell and broke a hip and I got blamed for his hip breaking (2nd clue) then on my way home from work I got into a wreck with my bosses new car (3rd and final straw)

I woke up "wow that was a fucked up dream"

I am 2 hours into my day and someone put a broom by my heater and it caught fire (its my fault) now my new nickname is Pyro. then I pissed off a friend and she canceled our dinner tonight I want to go home and hide under my blankets it seems like everything I touch I fuck it up

I give up I don't want to even try anymore its stupid and bullshit

my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now

^^^^^^^

here is a reason why people succeed. They lay it out there on the line for others to read. The get what is bothering them 'off their chest'.

Life throws quite a bit at us, and it is the learning how to handle it without the poison that shows us the way to a bright future.

Well done there lady. You have done well. You have used what has been taught. Just keep up the great work, learning each day as you go.

a huge win for you, and for others a path to see how they can too.

[Dieselchick87]

Day 83
****RANTING AND VENTING things in this post may not make sense I was having a melt down moment and the first thing I could think of was to come here and just let it all out and the reason that I hit Post is to remind myself in the future that even the littlest things can trigger the want to cave even a mistake that was not my fault ****


Today would have been a real bad day if I wasn't quit cause it would be a 2 can'er and I am broke as fuck.

I should have known that it was going to be a bad day when I dreamed about going to work and for some reason taking my husbands brand new pack of cigarettes with me (that should have been my first clue to stay home today) then a coworker
who has been off on sick leave came back and fell and broke a hip and I got blamed for his hip breaking (2nd clue) then on my way home from work I got into a wreck with my bosses new car (3rd and final straw)

I woke up "wow that was a fucked up dream"

I am 2 hours into my day and someone put a broom by my heater and it caught fire (its my fault) now my new nickname is Pyro. then I pissed off a friend and she canceled our dinner tonight I want to go home and hide under my blankets it seems like everything I touch I fuck it up

I give up I don't want to even try anymore its stupid and bullshit

my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now

[Dieselchick87]

Day 81

So I up until now have not had any major dip dreams that left me feeling guilty or confused I had a couple that left me pissed off at myself anywho
last night I had a smoking dream that made me add another goal to my New years list.......... I dreamed that I had picked up smoking "just one"
cigarette in the mornings so I had a few minutes to myself with a cup of coffee........

Well I woke up and realized that hmmmmm I must need to schedule some me time into my busy hectic life cause I can never do just one of any nicotine
substance this journey has helped me to realize the importance of self care time it doesn't matter what that looks like as long as it is a way for you to
recharge... for my husband that looks like a bunch of guys together wheeling their rigs or around a bon fire pouring shots (he is an extrovert social butterfly)
for me on the other hand it looks like a nice hot bubble bath with a book or curled up in front of the fire (shy introvert) fi we don't take time to care for ourselves
then we are opening a door for the Nic Bitch, we leave ourselves vulnerable to temptation and suggestions...

There is way more to staying quit then not putting cat shit in you lip you have to learn this new you and what your weak points are and what buttons need to be
kept guarded cause if they get pushed they activate triggers that are massive.....so the take away from these ramblings are.................

in order to take care of your quit you have to take care of you

[Steakbomb18]

I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip

78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter

78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)

I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.

You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.

I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.

That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!

I will most definitely do Proud to be Quit with both of you!

I love what this place does for us,
or more, what this place lets us do for ourselves.
All we have to do, is leave pride behind and follow the blueprint laid out.
I love that you are here, i love that you talk about your quit journey, so we can all remember what we've gone through, and new quit can understand they can also be successful .
DC, today you are stronger, tomorrow, you'll be stronger than today.
ILTQWYT!

Just got caught up on the last few days of your intro...Diesel, I think anyone who knows anything about quitting and what it takes to do this should be proud of you. I, for one, am in the same boat as those posting ahead...I'm really proud of you, and happy for you. That day 77 win was huge and a great personal milestone. You earned that. But,...BUT! It gets even better. I'm still high on quit euphoria unlike a drug,...the more I quit the easier it is to achieve that euphoric feeling. Keep it up DC...the best has yet to come.

[ChickDip]

I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip

78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter

78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)

I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.

You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.

I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.

That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!

I will most definitely do Proud to be Quit with both of you!

I love what this place does for us,
or more, what this place lets us do for ourselves.
All we have to do, is leave pride behind and follow the blueprint laid out.
I love that you are here, i love that you talk about your quit journey, so we can all remember what we've gone through, and new quit can understand they can also be successful .
DC, today you are stronger, tomorrow, you'll be stronger than today.
ILTQWYT!

[Dieselchick87]

I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip

78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter

78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)

I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.

You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.

I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.

That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!

I will most definitely do Proud to be Quit with both of you!

[pab1964]

I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip

78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter

78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)

I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.

You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.

I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.

That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!

[Stranger999]

I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip

78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter

78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)

I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.

You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.

I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.

[Dieselchick87]

I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip

78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter

[Dieselchick87]

For a second there, I thought the website was dead! Literally, it says its only me who's viewing the forum. Maybe its a wrong timing; since my time is (GMT +4) here. Which is 3:41PM right now.

But yeah,
I just wish this community could grow strong and spread around, making encouraging and motivational posts and advices. Because the target line was not met, since many are still going back to their disgusting habits!

Goodluck guys, God bless us all, and Merry Quitmas to anyone whose ready to quit! :)

When you posted this, were you:

a) Sleeping?
b) High?
c) Drunk?
d) Just released from the asylum?
e) Peering into someone's window?
f) answers b, d, and e
g) answers c, d, and e
h) all of the above

roflmao roflmao roflmao I love it!!!!!!!

[Viking]

For a second there, I thought the website was dead! Literally, it says its only me who's viewing the forum. Maybe its a wrong timing; since my time is (GMT +4) here. Which is 3:41PM right now.

But yeah,
I just wish this community could grow strong and spread around, making encouraging and motivational posts and advices. Because the target line was not met, since many are still going back to their disgusting habits!

Goodluck guys, God bless us all, and Merry Quitmas to anyone whose ready to quit! :)

When you posted this, were you:

a) Sleeping?
b) High?
c) Drunk?
d) Just released from the asylum?
e) Peering into someone's window?
f) answers b, d, and e
g) answers c, d, and e
h) all of the above

[Dieselchick87]

For a second there, I thought the website was dead! Literally, it says its only me who's viewing the forum. Maybe its a wrong timing; since my time is (GMT +4) here. Which is 3:41PM right now.

But yeah,
I just wish this community could grow strong and spread around, making encouraging and motivational posts and advices. Because the target line was not met, since many are still going back to their disgusting habits!

Goodluck guys, God bless us all, and Merry Quitmas to anyone whose ready to quit! :)

We are a very strong community here but we don't coddle or sugar coat anything the harsh reality of the matter is what wakes people up to the need to quit if all we talked about was butterflies and soft puppies
there would be far fewer quit then there are today because of KTC. Not sure what your post is all about but hey quit on

I Quit for ME Today!!!!! and I Quit right along side of all of my KTC brothers and sisters!!!!!!! 78 Days Strong!