Here Again

[pab1964]

What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!

'Birthday' DC!!!
:wub:

'Birthday' Hope it was a good one, DC!

Oh yeah baby girl! Happy birthday to you!

[FLLipOut]

What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!

'Birthday' DC!!!
:wub:

'Birthday' Hope it was a good one, DC!

[ChickDip]

What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!

'Birthday' DC!!!
:wub:

[Dieselchick87]

What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!

[Rawls]

Day 407

I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.

One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit

It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. ❤

Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.

I am so sorry to read this, diesel, but I know how you feel. Tired of seeing everyone getting what they want (what YOU want!) while you keep bumping into the same damn wall over and over. Then, of course, you feel bad because you want to feel happy for other people but being stoic and strong is hard to do sometimes.

Chick is right, of course (Chick is always right!)...it matters that you stay healthy because YOU matter. Pray, endure, push through it all and, above all, remain hopeful!

Prayers going up too. They never hurt. :wub:

Thank you for the words of encouragement I am not going to sacrifice my health for anything

I just find it hard to cope with disappointments sometimes so I will put my smile on a carry on

Stay strong girl...Its all about Trusting and ODAAT.
I quit with you.
Rawls 1097

[Dieselchick87]

Day 407

I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.

One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit

It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. ❤

Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.

I am so sorry to read this, diesel, but I know how you feel. Tired of seeing everyone getting what they want (what YOU want!) while you keep bumping into the same damn wall over and over. Then, of course, you feel bad because you want to feel happy for other people but being stoic and strong is hard to do sometimes.

Chick is right, of course (Chick is always right!)...it matters that you stay healthy because YOU matter. Pray, endure, push through it all and, above all, remain hopeful!

Prayers going up too. They never hurt. :wub:

Thank you for the words of encouragement I am not going to sacrifice my health for anything

I just find it hard to cope with disappointments sometimes so I will put my smile on a carry on

[FLLipOut]

Day 407

I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.

One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit

It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. ❤

Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.

I am so sorry to read this, diesel, but I know how you feel. Tired of seeing everyone getting what they want (what YOU want!) while you keep bumping into the same damn wall over and over. Then, of course, you feel bad because you want to feel happy for other people but being stoic and strong is hard to do sometimes.

Chick is right, of course (Chick is always right!)...it matters that you stay healthy because YOU matter. Pray, endure, push through it all and, above all, remain hopeful!

Prayers going up too. They never hurt. :wub:

[Thumblewort]

Day 407

I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.

One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit

It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. ❤

Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.

[ChickDip]

Day 407

I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.

One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit

It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. ❤

[Dieselchick87]

Day 407

I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.

One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit

[FLLipOut]

402 days quit 'oh yeah'

its a battle

Its not the battle of days 1-90 while the nic bitch rides on your shoulders
Its not the battle of 91-180 that bitch follows not far behind stalking your every move
Its a whole new battle that damn bitch is dragging up pleasant memories and telling me oh you can have just one its been over a year you can always quit again

To all the new quitters it gets easier but the battle never ends it just changes so never let your gaurd down keep your eye out for that nic bitches new tactics cause she will try anything to get you back in her control

Been thinking similar thoughts lately at Day 479.

You are doing great, diesel. You have gone through a lot and have been able to battle the bitch. Just keep making those promises and don't believe the lies. It was all a huge lie.

Quit with you today.

[Dieselchick87]

402 days quit 'oh yeah'

its a battle

Its not the battle of days 1-90 while the nic bitch rides on your shoulders
Its not the battle of 91-180 that bitch follows not far behind stalking your every move
Its a whole new battle that damn bitch is dragging up pleasant memories and telling me oh you can have just one its been over a year you can always quit again

To all the new quitters it gets easier but the battle never ends it just changes so never let your gaurd down keep your eye out for that nic bitches new tactics cause she will try anything to get you back in her control

[Dieselchick87]

DC congrats on your 300++ days quit girl!
Keep rocking it!

Thanks

[ChickDip]

DC congrats on your 300++ days quit girl!
Keep rocking it!

[Dieselchick87]

273


Welp it was bound to happen. 273 days in no nic and dumbass dr's and nurses. I hate this view the man I love who I swore to love in sickness and health laying in a hospital bed because M.S. wants to take him out, but just as bad I hate that my jaw is twitching because past visits would have me shoving a cat turd in my lip then spit in a bottle hide it from the doc and not kill the dumbass. I give my word that I will not use nicotine today (tuesday july 6th 2017) A whole new set of coping skills are coming into play ........ mindful relaxation of my jaw muscles peaceful meditation centering and grounding ....I dont need that poison in my lip to support my husband. He will push through and beat this flare up we are going to have a bad day tomorrow because the are going to want a new MRI which is going to show further progression of the disease but together we can conquer this its 2 am I am going to quit rambling
night night

1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems

It's never a solution only a detriment. Appreciate you showing us how to QLF in what could potentially be seen as a moment of weakness. You, on the other hand, have shown us how to turn it into a moment of strength. I'm QLF with you Diesel and will keep you and your husband in my thoughts as you plow through this.

Thank you