Have had a full can in my pocket all day, and will keep one with me, but I will not take another dip !!
For what? Just for ole times sake? To smell it? How about, to lick the label?
Nope, to prove to myself that I can do it. If not, all I'll be thinklng about is going to the store to get a roll.
I see your point, maybe it is a crutch, but I've got to prove it to myself that I can facedown the temptation.
I promise you that you're going to have thoughts of going to the store to get a roll whether you have a can with you or not. You are going to have to confront that urge and many others like it, but I know you can do it bro.
You mentioned you have the can with you, but you won't take another dip? Then I can only assume there is still dip in it, which makes this even scarier to think about. I'll tell you a quick story, my man, and hopefully it'll at least make some sense to you.
I thought EXACTLY as you did. But it wasn't about proving anything to myself. I was afraid to dump the can - and I'm not too big to admit that. I was terrified. See, I had declared myself quit, and said I'd just keep the can just to know it was there since I thought there was comfort in that. But, after being urged to dump it by the people in the chat room, I did. My hands were actually shaking as I did it, and I had a feeling of dread wash over me, as if I had just killed my best friend.
But, that feeling of dread was soon replaced by a tremendous sense of pride. It was THEN I had truly proven something to myself. It was THEN I actually began to feel as if I had taken control of my life back. Look, I can't come over to your home, wrench the can from your pocket, and dump it for you. All I can do is highly suggest to you that it's imperative that you do so. I sincerely hope you take my advice and just ditch it, dude. No good can come from holding onto it.
If you want the feeling of a can in your pocket, go get yourself some Smokey Mountain herbal snuff from Walmart, or order a can of that online.
- Invader