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Offline jeffw

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Re: done
« Reply #15 on: August 09, 2017, 05:16:00 PM »
so today was a bit of an awakening. We were discussing travel plans at work and the first thought that popped into my nic addicted mind was a road trip can. After the initial romanticizing of the road trip can, I got pissed that this poison has so much control over my thoughts... 'Finger' FU Nic and the can

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Re: done
« Reply #14 on: August 09, 2017, 12:01:00 AM »
ive heard the same thing about smokers...my wife admitted that she is different and that people usually struggle...this is my final quit...stupid worm dirt has controlled me long enough

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Re: done
« Reply #13 on: August 08, 2017, 05:26:00 PM »
Quote from: jeffw
In my original introduction i failed to mention that i have hidden my addiction from most people and especially my wife. I have been working up the courage to tell her about my deception, but this morning the cat was let out of the bag as she found my tablet with ktc opened up. Lots of questions were followed by a bit of anger and hurt, but she is behind me 100%. I still have work to but having that monkey off my back will be helpful
I've talked to many smokers over the time that I've been quit. These were 20 to 30 year smokers who quit cold turkey. All of them said they had no problem and never looked back. I think chew is a little different of an animal. It really takes a hold of you. For me quitting was something terrible. I felt like shit, had anxiety problems, couldn't sleep and all the other problems you read about on here. But if your focused and truly want to quit, this is the place for you. Welcome.

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Re: done
« Reply #12 on: August 08, 2017, 03:40:00 PM »
Married just 5 years here but hiding for the past 8 years of and off through failed pussy-shit quit attempts.

The lie did not go over well with the wife, she was more hurt by the fact i could so easily hide something from her than the actual chew (and she hated that as well!) She was absolutely devastated and I felt so bad that I had done this to the family. We just had our first child 2 months ago and I can't believe a stupid little can put any future with my wife and child in jeopardy.

I have to say this past weekend the best feelings came over me since i am now done with the can 'Finger' - Was not having to wonder where I could possibly get my next dip in and changing what we were doing to feed my beast.

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Re: done
« Reply #11 on: August 08, 2017, 02:35:00 PM »
Married 11 years, hiding it for the last 7 basically. She quit smoking (cold turkey) as soon as she was pregnant with our first and hasn't touched it since...I tried quitting at the same time and it worked for a bit but then I went fishing in Alaska for 10 days and caved big time. I have been ninja dipping ever since. Again, glad it is out in the open now as I was basically sneaking my quit behind her back as well.

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Re: done
« Reply #10 on: August 08, 2017, 02:30:00 PM »
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In my original introduction i failed to mention that i have hidden my addiction from most people and especially my wife. I have been working up the courage to tell her about my deception, but this morning the cat was let out of the bag as she found my tablet with ktc opened up. Lots of questions were followed by a bit of anger and hurt, but she is behind me 100%. I still have work to but having that monkey off my back will be helpful
I can relate to that one as well. Let me tell you that you are lucky to have that conversation. I am a part of the Nov Quit group as well but my wife found out about my addiction when the maid left a can on kitchen counter. We are currently working through our issues around my ability to hide something/anything form her, we will get through and be stronger but it will take time. I wish I would have told her myself and done it years ago! How long have you been married and hiding it?

If you need any help shoot me a note - available anytime lets kick this shit together !

11 Days here and feeling good

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Re: done
« Reply #9 on: August 08, 2017, 10:37:00 AM »
Quote from: jeffw
In my original introduction i failed to mention that i have hidden my addiction from most people and especially my wife. I have been working up the courage to tell her about my deception, but this morning the cat was let out of the bag as she found my tablet with ktc opened up. Lots of questions were followed by a bit of anger and hurt, but she is behind me 100%. I still have work to but having that monkey off my back will be helpful
I have had to have talks with my kids regarding my addiction several times over the last 3 years. It is good that they still know about the addiction, and that I need support to fight the daily fight. Honesty goes a long way to fight!
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Re: done
« Reply #8 on: August 08, 2017, 10:34:00 AM »
In my original introduction i failed to mention that i have hidden my addiction from most people and especially my wife. I have been working up the courage to tell her about my deception, but this morning the cat was let out of the bag as she found my tablet with ktc opened up. Lots of questions were followed by a bit of anger and hurt, but she is behind me 100%. I still have work to but having that monkey off my back will be helpful

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Re: done
« Reply #7 on: August 03, 2017, 04:49:00 PM »
Hey Jeff, welcome to the November quit group. I am a member there, I joined 10 days ago. You have just made the 3rd most important decision in your life. The other two are who to marry and what God to worship; come to think of it since all of us here were worshiping the dead plant, this might in fact be the number 1 most important decision.

Several tidbits I've learned since being here:
- Nicotine never solves anything. 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
- You should never lose an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You're much smarter than it is.
- If a thing is worth doing, it is never easy.
- You can in fact decide to do something for one day and succeed at it. Don't worry about tomorrow.
I will not be enslaved by a dead plant in a plastic can.

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Re: done
« Reply #6 on: August 03, 2017, 03:35:00 PM »
Welcome Jeff, glad to see you in here and on roll!

Reach out if I can help.

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Re: done
« Reply #5 on: August 03, 2017, 01:09:00 PM »
Hey Jeff - welcome! Just sent you a private message (PM). If you look at the upper right-hand corner of a forum page, there's an "Inbox" link - that's where you'll find your PMs.

Thirty-three years here as a slave to the can, 206 days free. Hang in there, stay the course, and lean on us here to get through your first days and weeks. Make sure you post first thing, every day, and then keep your promise. It may be rough, but it is so, SO worth it.
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done
« Reply #4 on: August 03, 2017, 12:04:00 PM »
I'm done after 27 years...I've tried quitting before and have had some success but always go back to the crap. I am committed to being done as I have finally realized that my life has revolved around this nasty crap. I joined yesterday, and after reading the stories, went and threw away every can I had laying around. Its not going to be easy but I am excited to use KTC to help me through it.

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Re: jeffw nov 17
« Reply #3 on: November 04, 2018, 01:26:04 AM »
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Re: jeffw nov 17
« Reply #2 on: November 03, 2018, 10:05:40 PM »
https://www.tapatalk.com/groups/qs_xtreme/done-t12252.html

Here's the link to archive of your old intro unfortunately everything isn't being transferred here but is still available on Tapatalk.
I like this☝️post
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done
« on: November 02, 2018, 06:32:51 PM »
I couldn't find my old intro from August of 17 but I will start this new journal...day 458 and still quit
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