My dentist recently sent me to an oral surgeon because my lower gums were so badly receded. The surgeon recommended a skin graft, but he won't do it until I've quit the Copenhagen.
So here I am. Won't be my first sojourn. Back in '05 or so, I quit with the help of another forum. The support on that site helped me reach the HOF, and I proudly wrote my acceptance post. On I went, dipless. Until, about 2 years later, I went through some shit and caved. The whole "a bad thing happened" bullshit is just an excuse. I had control over myself, and nobody shoved that dip in. I went on happily dipping ever since. Now, I'm here, because I'm fucking sick and tired of it. Sick of planning my day around a can. Sick of dipping at work and seeing my coworkers disgusted. Sick of panicking every time I notice a bump in my mouth. Sick of feeling fear every time I go to the dentist. Sick of being embarrassed at the bulge under my lower lip. Sick of spending $65.00 a week (10 cans) on this garbage. Goddam it, I am 44 years old, and I've got no business continuing this juvenile habit.
I was planning on using nicotine gum, but I saw the rule regarding posting and nicotine use. So, I threw the nicotine gum in the trash. I also canceled my Thompson Cigar Club membership and destroyed the cigars I had. I was bummed a bit, but posting my days quit is much more important than a nicotine fix. I've ordered some Smokey Mountain Straight (drove all over town and couldn't find any locally), it will get here on Tuesday. My quit date is Wednesday, the 16th, when I have the fake dip ready to go. I know it would be better to just quit today, but I really want the tools first, because I don't want any false starts. On Wednesday, I will post Day 1 on the corresponding quit group thread. I am nervous, but determined. I have enjoyed reading all the wisdom on here, thanks for that.
EDIT: Moved my quit to today. Posted Day 1.
