Anyone that has been around me knows that trouble does follow me. I never cause it, I never instigate it. It just happens. Recently it has been at least kind enough to happen on a Sunday. This last Sunday was no different. It started off with me getting ready for work and about to head out the door. I looked at my kids (my dogs. I can't have human kids) and gave them one last pat on the head and told them I love them and see them after work. Looked at my oldest boy and his left eye is bleeding. I immediately lookup emergency hospitals and choose the one in Springdale, Ark because it was 10 miles closer than going to Tulsa. I get him there and he is seen rather quickly. I thought it was just a scratch on his eye and it just needed cleaned and some antibiotics. It turns out that is not the case. He had a ruptured ulcer in his eye and needed immediate surgery. Of course, no one nearby does that. I have to drive to Stillwater, Ok. because that is the nearest place that does the surgery. So, so far I have already driven 2 hours then an additional 3 hours on top of that. The hospital is going to cost me 1700. Sold some things and had the money for it. Left him there and my parents were going to pick him up the next day because I had to get back home almost 4 hours away. I get a call that surgery went very well and he is in an oxygen tent to help him relax and it is a bit more sterile. I get home and there are patrol cars at my house. It turns out that a place I stopped at to call for directions was being robbed while I was there in the parking lot. They had me on camera, my Jeep license plate. But, they never seen me go inside (I got out to stretch my legs). So, here it is 9pm. I am tired. Emotionally drained. And these cops are bugging me about why i was there in Springdale and they dont see my dog with me so they don't believe my story. Long story short. I spend the night in the hokey, I am missing my boy like crazy, I haven't been home to feed my other dogs and to check their water yet, and I am being questioned for a theft that they didnt even see me enter the business on the camera! I eventually got out (of course, hence why I am able to post). I am so tired and worn out. I can't say that I haven't thought about it. I contacted one of my quit buddies that isnt on this site because he is doing a 12 step in Tulsa. He took my mind off of everything that was going on with just simply saying "No matter what happens. You worry about right now. What you have to do right now. No matter what it is. This too shall pass." The simplest words at the right time. Meant the world to me. I called someone. Not everyone has the extended network of friends like I do. But, I called. The daily promise to myself and to all of you. It helps. It works. I am glad I did. Had i not. I would be saying Day 2 instead of day 58.
