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Offline Bean

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Re: Enough
« Reply #15 on: April 04, 2011, 11:54:00 AM »
The fog can get thick at times. One thing that helped him is knowing that I wasn't alone. Everyone on this site has had to go through it.

There are no pills, no patches, no short-cuts, no free-passes...just plain old quitting.

You can do this, brother...you've got everyone on this site for support.

Drink lots of water, take a walk around the office, do whatever it takes...BUT STAY QUIT, brother!

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Re: Enough
« Reply #14 on: April 04, 2011, 11:21:00 AM »
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I'm sitting here at work looking at all the paperwork I have to finish. I have tried to get started but this fucking fog is thick.  I don't need my shit getting in the way of the people I'm supposed to be helping. Frustrated as hell this morning.
Yes, the fog is a terrible symptom. I remember sitting at work and not contributing. Get through it. It goes away. Addiction does not. Bunker down and get through it. This is when the nic-bitch will whisper in your ear that she can help. You want to be productive? I am hear for you. She is a liar.

Keep yelling on this board when needed.

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Re: Enough
« Reply #13 on: April 04, 2011, 11:03:00 AM »
I'm sitting here at work looking at all the paperwork I have to finish. I have tried to get started but this fucking fog is thick. I don't need my shit getting in the way of the people I'm supposed to be helping. Frustrated as hell this morning.

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Re: Enough
« Reply #12 on: April 02, 2011, 10:40:00 PM »
I appreciate all the support and advice. Makes a big difference for sure. Today wasn't as bad as yesterday but still sucked. My family and I went down to the Downtown Aquarium in Denver. I tried to enjoy it, but I was pretty much distracted and being a grumpy assed old man. My three year old drove me nuts when I was chewing, and he is even more fun now. I work on walking away and coming back when I'm more calm.

Thanks for the letter MOA, really brought it home

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Re: Enough
« Reply #11 on: April 02, 2011, 07:04:00 PM »
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Quote from: Miles
Quote from: minuteofangle
Dear Daddy-

I wish you could have been there today to see me in my Ballet Recital, I felt like a princess.  But your addiction was too strong for you to deny.

I wish you were here to hold me and tell me there was no “Boogie man” under my bed.  But you put your addiction first.

I wish you were here to teach me to drive a car.  But tobacco would not let you.

I wish you could have seen my high school graduation today, I sure missed you.  But you chose to continue to use tobacco over your family.

I wish you could have been here tonight and met my prom date, I think I am in love.  But your resolve to quit dip was not strong enough.

I wish you were here to help me move into my dorm room at college, I think I will like it here.  But you chose to continue to use tobacco.

I wish you could have been around to give me words of encouragement on my wedding day and walk me down the aisle, it would have meant the world to me.  But you were not strong enough to put down snuff once and for all.

I wish you were here today to hold your first grandchild, you know he has your eyes.  But tobacco was too important to you.

I wish you had never used tobacco daddy, my life would have been much happier.

I love you and miss you,

Your daughter


I am quit today and tomorrow....MOA




I wrote this some time back but I thought it might help your quit.  You got this thing my brother.

MOA
Strong medicine right there Kemo Sabe. Thanks for sharing MOA and write that down somewhere rustaf.

Stay strong Bro.
Agreed. Should be in Words of Wisdom.
Definite words of wisdom stuff here. That choked me up a bit.

MOA- you have made my quit stronger today. Thank you.

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Re: Enough
« Reply #10 on: April 02, 2011, 05:07:00 PM »
rustaf, you've got a lot of support in here already. And pay attention to what they have said...all sound advice.

Sounds like you are off on the right foot and have your marching orders...now it's time to show you know how to stay in step...

One of the key things that makes this site successful at helping all of us stay quit is by providing us a place to STAY ACTIVE IN OUR QUIT. In my humble opinion, the BEST thing you can do to help yourself in this quit is to stay as active as possible on this site - read, read, read. Post roll every day and post comments, bitches, thoughts, fears, dreams....whatever...just stay active in your quit and get involved in the quit of your brothers and sisters

If you need a number, ask...mine is there for you

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Blah...Blah...Blah...You keep TALKIN....I'll keep QUITTIN

I'm not here to make friends, I'm here to support YOUR quit.


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Re: Enough
« Reply #9 on: April 02, 2011, 03:19:00 PM »
Quote from: Miles
Quote from: minuteofangle
Dear Daddy-

I wish you could have been there today to see me in my Ballet Recital, I felt like a princess.  But your addiction was too strong for you to deny.

I wish you were here to hold me and tell me there was no “Boogie man” under my bed.  But you put your addiction first.

I wish you were here to teach me to drive a car.  But tobacco would not let you.

I wish you could have seen my high school graduation today, I sure missed you.  But you chose to continue to use tobacco over your family.

I wish you could have been here tonight and met my prom date, I think I am in love.  But your resolve to quit dip was not strong enough.

I wish you were here to help me move into my dorm room at college, I think I will like it here.  But you chose to continue to use tobacco.

I wish you could have been around to give me words of encouragement on my wedding day and walk me down the aisle, it would have meant the world to me.  But you were not strong enough to put down snuff once and for all.

I wish you were here today to hold your first grandchild, you know he has your eyes.  But tobacco was too important to you.

I wish you had never used tobacco daddy, my life would have been much happier.

I love you and miss you,

Your daughter


I am quit today and tomorrow....MOA




I wrote this some time back but I thought it might help your quit.  You got this thing my brother.

MOA
Strong medicine right there Kemo Sabe. Thanks for sharing MOA and write that down somewhere rustaf.

Stay strong Bro.
Agreed. Should be in Words of Wisdom.
"We shall not fail or falter; we shall not weaken or tire...Give us the tools and we will finish the job." - Sir Winston Churchill

"Not using gets much easier as time goes by, but the consequences of "just one" never lessen." - Me

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Re: Enough
« Reply #8 on: April 02, 2011, 02:13:00 PM »
Quote from: minuteofangle
Dear Daddy-

I wish you could have been there today to see me in my Ballet Recital, I felt like a princess. But your addiction was too strong for you to deny.

I wish you were here to hold me and tell me there was no “Boogie man” under my bed. But you put your addiction first.

I wish you were here to teach me to drive a car. But tobacco would not let you.

I wish you could have seen my high school graduation today, I sure missed you. But you chose to continue to use tobacco over your family.

I wish you could have been here tonight and met my prom date, I think I am in love. But your resolve to quit dip was not strong enough.

I wish you were here to help me move into my dorm room at college, I think I will like it here. But you chose to continue to use tobacco.

I wish you could have been around to give me words of encouragement on my wedding day and walk me down the aisle, it would have meant the world to me. But you were not strong enough to put down snuff once and for all.

I wish you were here today to hold your first grandchild, you know he has your eyes. But tobacco was too important to you.

I wish you had never used tobacco daddy, my life would have been much happier.

I love you and miss you,

Your daughter


I am quit today and tomorrow....MOA




I wrote this some time back but I thought it might help your quit. You got this thing my brother.

MOA
Strong medicine right there Kemo Sabe. Thanks for sharing MOA and write that down somewhere rustaf.

Stay strong Bro.
I quit with with you all!

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Re: Enough
« Reply #7 on: April 02, 2011, 11:24:00 AM »
Dear Daddy-

I wish you could have been there today to see me in my Ballet Recital, I felt like a princess. But your addiction was too strong for you to deny.

I wish you were here to hold me and tell me there was no “Boogie man” under my bed. But you put your addiction first.

I wish you were here to teach me to drive a car. But tobacco would not let you.

I wish you could have seen my high school graduation today, I sure missed you. But you chose to continue to use tobacco over your family.

I wish you could have been here tonight and met my prom date, I think I am in love. But your resolve to quit dip was not strong enough.

I wish you were here to help me move into my dorm room at college, I think I will like it here. But you chose to continue to use tobacco.

I wish you could have been around to give me words of encouragement on my wedding day and walk me down the aisle, it would have meant the world to me. But you were not strong enough to put down snuff once and for all.

I wish you were here today to hold your first grandchild, you know he has your eyes. But tobacco was too important to you.

I wish you had never used tobacco daddy, my life would have been much happier.

I love you and miss you,

Your daughter


I am quit today and tomorrow....MOA




I wrote this some time back but I thought it might help your quit. You got this thing my brother.

MOA

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Re: Enough
« Reply #6 on: April 02, 2011, 10:39:00 AM »
I really started to question myself about why I chewed when I ran a 10k race a couple of years ago with a chew in. I played league soccer last summer and kept a chew in most games.

It's morning of day two. My jaw is sore from chewing so much gum. Slept like shit, heading to Denver with the family to go to the aquarium. Might be a long one. Driving was always a must have chew time. Sunflower seeds and beef jerky are the in the works. Luckily it's only a couple hour drive down there.

Glad I found this resource.

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Re: Enough
« Reply #5 on: April 02, 2011, 07:25:00 AM »
Quote from: rustaf
Day 1 is almost over. I forgot how bad the withdrawals were at first. I started to chew in college with buddies. I was hooked right from the get go. I've been chewing for pretty close to 20 years now. I started with skoal wintergreen, progressed to kodiak and cope, I had been chewing grizzly up until today. I have attempted to quit in the past with some limited success after giving in to stress and not having enough support. I have always cheeked my chew which has kept a lot of people that I know from realizing that I chewed. It was convenient for working in an office because I just swallowed that nasty shit anyway.

I've had enough. I have a 3 year old kid who watches me put a big fatty in and I am teaching him everyday. My daughter will be a year old in June and I sure as hell don't want her seeing me chew. I will be 39 years old next month and I don't want to be at my kids wedding with one fucking jaw. It's enough. My wife is a great source of support and I have come clean to a lot of family and friends that I was chewing with the hopes that that will keep me honest.

This isn't for my wife, or my kids, or for my family. It's time I did this shit for myself. If they benefit from it great, but this is all about me having had enough of putting that shit in my mouth every waking hour for close to 20 years.
Whether you quit or not, the best you can hope for is to have one jaw at your daughters wedding.. just kidding.

You sound just like me, 20 year dipper...late 30's....toddlers...hiding it from people...

this isn't easy, but it is so worth it. I have been quit for almost 200 days and I have never felt better.

my only regret is that I didn't find this site sooner.

let me know if you need anything...you sound like you have your head in the right place. just post roll everyday and read everything on this site.
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Re: Enough
« Reply #4 on: April 02, 2011, 06:29:00 AM »
Quote from: rustaf
Day 1 is almost over. I forgot how bad the withdrawals were at first. I started to chew in college with buddies. I was hooked right from the get go. I've been chewing for pretty close to 20 years now. I started with skoal wintergreen, progressed to kodiak and cope, I had been chewing grizzly up until today. I have attempted to quit in the past with some limited success after giving in to stress and not having enough support. I have always cheeked my chew which has kept a lot of people that I know from realizing that I chewed. It was convenient for working in an office because I just swallowed that nasty shit anyway.

I've had enough. I have a 3 year old kid who watches me put a big fatty in and I am teaching him everyday. My daughter will be a year old in June and I sure as hell don't want her seeing me chew. I will be 39 years old next month and I don't want to be at my kids wedding with one fucking jaw. It's enough. My wife is a great source of support and I have come clean to a lot of family and friends that I was chewing with the hopes that that will keep me honest.

This isn't for my wife, or my kids, or for my family. It's time I did this shit for myself. If they benefit from it great, but this is all about me having had enough of putting that shit in my mouth every waking hour for close to 20 years.
Hey rustaf,

Welcome. You can do this. How do I know? Because I am doing this and I'm just an average guy who used skoal lc/ griz for 30yrs. I see you posted roll. That's important because it's more than just giving us your status, it's a promise that you make new every morning first thing. It's a promise to all of us that you will not use for today. Tomorrow you will wake up and post a new promise not to use. You see, quits happen one day at a time.

The most intense part of your quit is going to be the next 72 hours as nicotine leaves your system. You can do this. Read all you can on this site, go through the links that Scowick posted for you. Read "what to expect when you quit" and "symptoms of quitting dip and chew". Stick with it and keep your word.

Proud to be quit with you

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Re: Enough
« Reply #3 on: April 02, 2011, 12:06:00 AM »
Welcome to the quit club. Enjoy the pain of the suck and do it once this last time. Use the site and invest in the community.
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Everything is permissible for me but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible for me but I will not be mastered by anything. 1 Cor 6:12

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Re: Enough
« Reply #2 on: April 02, 2011, 12:05:00 AM »
Quote from: rustaf
Day 1 is almost over. I forgot how bad the withdrawals were at first. I started to chew in college with buddies. I was hooked right from the get go. I've been chewing for pretty close to 20 years now. I started with skoal wintergreen, progressed to kodiak and cope, I had been chewing grizzly up until today. I have attempted to quit in the past with some limited success after giving in to stress and not having enough support. I have always cheeked my chew which has kept a lot of people that I know from realizing that I chewed. It was convenient for working in an office because I just swallowed that nasty shit anyway.

I've had enough. I have a 3 year old kid who watches me put a big fatty in and I am teaching him everyday. My daughter will be a year old in June and I sure as hell don't want her seeing me chew. I will be 39 years old next month and I don't want to be at my kids wedding with one fucking jaw. It's enough. My wife is a great source of support and I have come clean to a lot of family and friends that I was chewing with the hopes that that will keep me honest.

This isn't for my wife, or my kids, or for my family. It's time I did this shit for myself. If they benefit from it great, but this is all about me having had enough of putting that shit in my mouth every waking hour for close to 20 years.
Here are some links you may find helpful...

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A how to get started by Remy:

index.php?showtopic=1360

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Quit Groups, What do they mean, by SOS

index.php?showtopic=88

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Roll call, why we do it your word by LOOT.

index.php?showtopic=120

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What to Expect when you quit.

http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp

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Symptoms of Quitting dip and chew

http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/symptoms.asp

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Contract to give up...

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp

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Smokeless alternatives

http://killthecan.org/yourquit/alternatives.asp

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Words of Wisdom, Read them all

index.php?showforum=41

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May 2008 TTFers

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Read this group from the very first post to the very last post.

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How to post roll.

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How to Post ROLL CALL - Roll Call Instructions
Step 1 - Find the last (MOST RECENT) Roll Call
Step 2 - Hit the "Quote" button in the upper right hand corner.
Step 3 - Click your mouse ANYWHERE in The bottom Box
Step 4 - Hit Ctrl and "A" at the Same time so it looks like THIS
Step 5 - Hit Ctrl and "X" at the same time so there is NOTHING in Either Box
Step 6 - Click your mouse in the TOP BOX
Step 7 - Hit Ctrl and "V" at the same time to Past the info into the top box AND ADD YOUR info to the bottom of the list
Step 8 - Hit ADD REPLY below the bottom box
Step 9 - Go back to the 1st unread post, check to see that the last few people to post are still on your roll call. Keep your word.

PM me if you need help. I am glad you joined us. Get ready for support.

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Enough
« on: April 01, 2011, 11:58:00 PM »
Day 1 is almost over. I forgot how bad the withdrawals were at first. I started to chew in college with buddies. I was hooked right from the get go. I've been chewing for pretty close to 20 years now. I started with skoal wintergreen, progressed to kodiak and cope, I had been chewing grizzly up until today. I have attempted to quit in the past with some limited success after giving in to stress and not having enough support. I have always cheeked my chew which has kept a lot of people that I know from realizing that I chewed. It was convenient for working in an office because I just swallowed that nasty shit anyway.

I've had enough. I have a 3 year old kid who watches me put a big fatty in and I am teaching him everyday. My daughter will be a year old in June and I sure as hell don't want her seeing me chew. I will be 39 years old next month and I don't want to be at my kids wedding with one fucking jaw. It's enough. My wife is a great source of support and I have come clean to a lot of family and friends that I was chewing with the hopes that that will keep me honest.

This isn't for my wife, or my kids, or for my family. It's time I did this shit for myself. If they benefit from it great, but this is all about me having had enough of putting that shit in my mouth every waking hour for close to 20 years.