Day 181
Wow, 6 months already. It's actually gone by quick. The first 100 were very slow, but the last 81 seem to be much quicker. Some of that is due to the short summer we have here in Maine. A lot of it is because I spend my free time now enjoying my family, instead of trying to figure out how to squeeze a dip in around whatever "obligations" I had. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that I don't still have thoughts of enjoying a dip, I just stop it right there. They are only thoughts. I still know the shame, anger, guilt and resentment will be the only things waiting for me if I have that dip, even just one. I am still 100% committed to my quit. The only complaint I have is that I have been much less involved with this site over the last 81 days then I was the first 100. My priorities have not changed, just simply what I am doing with my life. I have been spending more time repairing the damage I caused during the 23 years I dipped, instead of spending as much time here. I still try to post everyday, but usually only in June 2008/QWA (thanks my brothers!) and the alcohol quit. I quit both the same day, for similar reasons, along with some other things, all of which have caused me to start truly living my life. I wish I could give more to this site, as the nicotine is by far was the most constant struggle I had. I would like to help anyone who wants to quit, but I cannot compromise my own quit to do so. That being said, I expect as fall rolls around I will be making a comeback posting in other groups and being more supportive. I still believe in "paying it forward", and I always plan to keep some connection with this site. As I said, I am happy to help anyone I can with their quit. Right now, if someone needs my help, reach out and PM me. I have 181 days under my belt, I still struggle at times, but I have phone numbers and am not afraid to use them. If someone wants mine, all they need to do is ask. I may not be on the site but I am always willing to help anyone with their quit. Feel free to spread the word to anyone else you run into who may not have read this. My e-mail works well also.
Continued luck with all your quits!