Doofus Intro

[Doofus]

Day 118
From BlueManChew, posting 5/8/18 in August '18:

For as strange as we all are, we seem to conform to a norm. That norm is quit.

That norm is sleepless nights and dip dreams early on. That norm is anxiety and uncaused and intense anger, and slamming doors and breaking windows (me), and without any real provocation, chucking a griddle with half-cooked Sunday morning pancakes into the kitchen sink (me again.)

The norm is depression, worry, fog, and staring at a task for 30 minutes and not having lifted a finger. The norm is seeking just a moment of reprieve, and being painfully aware of the bitch who lurks just beyond the periphery.

The norm is feeling frustration after 30, 60, and a 100 days wondering why the fuck I still crave, or why is it still so goddamn hard? Or will it ever end?

The norm is the grind, e.d.d., a.d.d, and brotherhood.

The norm is peace of mind and health, of self-confidence, better sleep, calm, personal advancement, opportunity, and more productivity.

The norm now is winning.

Whether on day 1,000 or day 1, the norm is QUIT.

In QUIT, there are no strangers.

PTBQWY - BMC day 213

[Doofus]

Day 117

From my April Brother SKOL today in April roll:

Found this in words of wisdom, thought it was cool:

Authored by rkymtnman and posted in May 17...

It gets better by rkymtnman

"Been thinking a lot about this whole "it gets better" voodoo that we all parrot over and over. I know I didn't really believe it when I was just past the hall and trudging through the motions trying like hell to stay clean and watching my group lose quitters. Always lead me to think - if it is OK for them, why not me?

I remember another thing I did in these types of situations. Go find some "active", crusty old vet - I'd suggest a guy like Hydro because he is quit friggen YODA - shoot him a pm. Ask him questions about what it is like now. Find these 6, 7, 8 year quitters who are still here every day - though not overly active - and ask them. Don't take my word for it. Ask them what it is like. Ask them if it was all worth it. There HAS to be a reason guys like Hydro and others still post roll like it is their job. We are all pretty busy guys with professional lives and work responsibilities, with families and probably have FAR better things to do than troll internet forums for nic addicts. Yet here we all are - in the same boat.

I bet you'll hear the same story over and over. Take it on faith that shit gets so much fucking better you can't possibly imagine. I sure as shit didn't until one day, I realized it had. I challenge you all to keep the focus on TODAY - every day and everything will get worked out in time. Get rid of the thoughts of "by now, I should feel ______" because I can promise you those expectations will lead to let down. Instead, try "Today I will not use nicotine" and go live your life without thinking about where you think you ought to be at this point. You are exactly where you all should be. There is a reason I hate the hall...sure it is a bad ass benchmark but after that, it is just another +1. My worst days were AFTER the hall. My best days were ahead of me - I just didn't believe it.

Keep the faith brothers. You are all killing it - and winning - it just doesn't feel like it most days. I promise that changes."

[Doofus]

Day 116

HUMP DAY, feeling great, summer coming, fishing lots, Nic Bitch not riding with me no more....awesome

[Doofus]

Day 111

Fucking Friday, that's all.

I quit again today and I feel really good.....best I've felt in 3 decades, not a slave anymore.

[Doofus]

Day 110

I got nothing to report. Thursday. Almost Friday. Got good weekend going bunch of parties, dinner and my daughters competitive swim team banquet. I'm going to remain dry for the entire weekend. I find alcohol jeopardizes my judgement. Pondering when my next drink might be. . ..maybe the beach this summer. Headed to Sanibel, FL beginning of June with family, condo on the beach.....that's a good time to have a cold one.

[Doofus]

DAY 108

Shit, my company is re-orging. Back when I was using, these would be 3 or 4 tin days.....amazing what a difference now in how I cope, nicotine ain't your friend boys and girls.

1 problem + nicotine= 2 problems
That's a fact.

[SuperDave9000]

Day 105

Got my maiden fishing trip done last night, cat turd free, still quit!!! It wasnt as bad as I thought it could be.

Got two schoolies in the surf. Onward. ODAAT, BIG HURDLE DONE, CHECK 'Finger' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'Finger'

Hey Nic bitch, see how that works, u ain't ever going fishing with me again, go wipe your ass

Hell yeah! Fish on!!

[Doofus]

Day 105

Got my maiden fishing trip done last night, cat turd free, still quit!!! It wasnt as bad as I thought it could be.

Got two schoolies in the surf. Onward. ODAAT, BIG HURDLE DONE, CHECK 'Finger' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'Finger'

Hey Nic bitch, see how that works, u ain't ever going fishing with me again, go wipe your ass

[Rawls]

Day 100

Little late since today is Weds and day 102 but I posted this on Monday.

"So.......I did post twice intentionally.....wanted to be first on roll for bookend WUPPS of 99 and 100 both days.....so technically when I posted roll on those days first it was prior to midnight.....so a follow up WUPP was required each day to be in compliance! .....technically speaking

I'm going to put this in my Intro journal for DAY 100....bookend 99 and 100 double posts, see if I cant get some other newbee folks to do it on their HOF, my way of being unique and maybe starting a tradition

I'm competitive, always have been hence sports was a great fit for me, dont like losing, my quit was and always will be about ending a losing streak to nicotine....I had to turn this thing into a fucking game that you cant lose, KTC got me here by shining some light on things that I could use against the Nic bitch to beat her ass ODAAT.

TODAY IM PROUD TO WIN WITH ALL YOU GOOD PEEPS. THANKS FOR HELPING ME WIN EVERY DAY....thanks for helping save my life.

....and for the record, I ain't going anywhere. ITS WUPP AGAIN WHEN TOMORROW BECOMES TODAY"

That's how I felt on my HOF day.

Additionally, I've texted this to some. I swear to God being quit makes me more emotional, not like I'm a very emotional guy but who knows, I've been on nicotine most of my adult life....I cant remember the last time I've gotten misty....but in the last 100 days, I've had my moments watching my girls...being quit has made me more soulful.

The thoughts of what I've been doing to myself for 30 years, tugged on the big guy's heart strings.....these are the things you dont think about when trying it solo.....its why KTC way works, investment versus just being a half ass quiting fiend

.....now I gotta get HOF speech done

Well done.... Well Said
Congrats Bro.
I quit with you today.
Rawls 1256

[Doofus]

Day 100

Little late since today is Weds and day 102 but I posted this on Monday.

"So.......I did post twice intentionally.....wanted to be first on roll for bookend WUPPS of 99 and 100 both days.....so technically when I posted roll on those days first it was prior to midnight.....so a follow up WUPP was required each day to be in compliance! .....technically speaking

I'm going to put this in my Intro journal for DAY 100....bookend 99 and 100 double posts, see if I cant get some other newbee folks to do it on their HOF, my way of being unique and maybe starting a tradition

I'm competitive, always have been hence sports was a great fit for me, dont like losing, my quit was and always will be about ending a losing streak to nicotine....I had to turn this thing into a fucking game that you cant lose, KTC got me here by shining some light on things that I could use against the Nic bitch to beat her ass ODAAT.

TODAY IM PROUD TO WIN WITH ALL YOU GOOD PEEPS. THANKS FOR HELPING ME WIN EVERY DAY....thanks for helping save my life.

....and for the record, I ain't going anywhere. ITS WUPP AGAIN WHEN TOMORROW BECOMES TODAY"

That's how I felt on my HOF day.

Additionally, I've texted this to some. I swear to God being quit makes me more emotional, not like I'm a very emotional guy but who knows, I've been on nicotine most of my adult life....I cant remember the last time I've gotten misty....but in the last 100 days, I've had my moments watching my girls...being quit has made me more soulful.

The thoughts of what I've been doing to myself for 30 years, tugged on the big guy's heart strings.....these are the things you dont think about when trying it solo.....its why KTC way works, investment versus just being a half ass quiting fiend

.....now I gotta get HOF speech done

[Doofus]

'Popcorn'

Hey man, looking forward to the next hundred days with you. Let's get a wagon and collect dudes fresh to the site and show 'em how it's done!
xoxoxoxo
I love you
bye!

Athan, my friend....It is with profound pride that I can call you my brother. I thank you for your help in beating this sickness every day. I thank everyone here at KTC. I said it today, I'll say it to you, thank you for helping a total stranger like me, thank you for saving my life. I dont think I can ever re pay you. But here is what we can do;

When we see a guy, especially the young ones, we just share our experiences so he does not end up a user as long and old as us, lol. We'll help others too. Families, wives, children- its all a win. It's not possible to put a value on this deed but I have somehow kept my health and so have you even though we've teased the dragon and taken an awful chance. The best thing we can do is to use this opportunity afforded to us to help others. I know you and our brethren feel the same way. So we will do it, pay it back and that's that.

We will not cave, we will quit every day until 200, 300, 400, comma....forever. I am honored to complete these journeys with you. And someday we will meet but for now we stay quit.

Xoxoxo -but don't tea bag me, save that for Skol:)

OK
I LOVE YOU
BYE

DAVE

[Athan]

Hey man, looking forward to the next hundred days with you. Let's get a wagon and collect dudes fresh to the site and show 'em how it's done!
xoxoxoxo
I love you
bye!

[Batdad]

Congratulations on the first of many big milestones. Take a minute to enjoy this day bro. YouÂ’ve earned it.

^^^^ Double that!! Enjoy the hard work that got you here. Take your new tools and help the next quitter in line. On to the next milestone!!

[worktowin]

Congratulations on the first of many big milestones. Take a minute to enjoy this day bro. YouÂ’ve earned it.

[Doofus]

Day 99

Last day of double digits, tomorrow will soon be today, I'll WUPP and ODAAT

Some humor on a nice weather day here in RI:

Not every flower can say love, but a rose can.
Not every plant survives thirst, but a cactus can.
Not every retard can read, but look at you go buttercup little buddy!
Today you should take a moment and send an encouraging message to a fucked up friend, just as IÂ’ve done.
I donÂ’t care if you lick windows, or screw farm animals. You hang in there cupcake, cause youÂ’re fucking special to me, youÂ’re my KTC friend, look at you smiling at your phone!
You crayon eating motherfucker! Happy Spring!