I had my first dip my freshman year in college. Got sick, didn't really like it. had another one, two years later, and essentially had been addicted to nicotine since that second dip (~9 years).
I've "quit" before, obv... I've had 6+months before I was really addicted in college. I've had 1 month or so about 2 years ago. Then I had "just one"... which in turn led to "I'll just buy a tin, have 1 dip and throw the can away". This inherently leads to, "well I'll just keep the tin"... yada yada back to 1-2 tins a day.
I've found this site or the other one, the last time I went 3 days. (~ 6 months ago). I'm still on the fence as far as how effective this will be for me. Part of me wants to get gung ho about "the quit", the other part of me just wants to quit. I feel like endlessly posting about it, will just have me thinking about dipping constantly.
some point on friday, i just said to myself that I'm thru with nicotine. I finished my tin, but found half of one, so I dipped until Saturday morning. It does nothing for me at this junction of my life. I get nothing out of it, other than it stops the onset of nicotine withdrawal. I really hope this go around I stay quit.
In the past, I know that mental moment of caving. That split moment, when I have bought the tin, I promised myself I wouldn't buy just a few days earlier. Am about to put the pinch in. THis moment is the truest form of failure. I hate this moment so much. I get this slight hesitation. LIke an acknowledgment, "sigh". I have a feeling that I will be faced with this moment again, I will not cave.
