Today is day 7 for me. I actually found this site at around day 3 or 4 can't really remember. I have been doing lots of reading and have already found my place in the Feb 17 quit group
Anyways I haven't really told my story so I figured I would write few brief words. I have been dipping for 24 years at around a can or more a day for the last 15 years or so. It started out as just a hobby ....I would only dip if I went fishing or hunting, other than that it wasn't even a concern. I never had to sneak to the bathroom in high school or cut classes just to run and get my quick fix or anything...I would just wait until school was out. Occasionally I would hit the library or student council office during study hall bc k knew nobody were ever at either place and if somebody showed up then I would know them and I wording have to worry about getting ratted out
Funny story from high school....I played golf for 3 years and made all region twice and all state my senior year and had a chance to go to lots of big schools to play golf, I didn't go, but anyways If anybody needs help with their gold game, I'm still a scratch golfer so just ask. Anyhow we would go to the range at least twice a week during practice and I got to chunking the ball pretty bad mid season. All my teammates knew I dipped and so did the coach, he a,ways just ask me to keep it hid bc if another school or player seen me dipping he could get me DQed according to High School rules....well I was hitting ball after ball chunky and chunky and chunky and coach walked down to where I was at and told me to quit dippin.....he said that ,that was my problem and I needed to quit. Well of course he was referring to me dipping my lead shoulder during my swing. Thus making me hit it chunky and fat, but me along with my buddies were acting like he was talking about dip as in skoal dip LOL. Long story short....I REALLY wish I would a listened to ol coach back then and I coulda saved over 20 years from being Dr Nics patient
I quit once for almost 9 months....I know people here say that I didn't quit because I started back but sorry I quit that shit cold turkey for 8 months and 22 days...it was only after a brief stop at a gas station on the way to the hunting club when I went in to grab a drink and saw the Skoal guy inside stocking the shelves and he gave me a free roll. I told him that I quit and he said ok just give it to somebody else you know. I took the bait and went on back to the truck and headed on down to the hunting land. I got everything ready and loaded up to head in the woods and thought " hell i wonder what it would even feel like to dip now that I been quit for so long" I thought it would be nasty as hell...or that maybe I would like it. At any rate I was thinking " what could 1 little dip hurt for old time sakes" I felt like I was way past the hooked part but one dip was all it took for my mind to completely reprogram itself into the constant lies and deception and before you know it I was back to being one of Dr NIcs best patients again
This is getting to long plus I don't like typing on iPad bc it appears that's I'm illiterate and don't know proper English. Anyways here's the reasons that I quit
I have a 4 year old a 2 year old and another on the way in January I'm already tired of having to make up and hide stuff from my 4 year old and it's only gonna get worse with the next ones
Honestly I'm just plain sick and tired of it. It really is some nasty shit...always having to lug around a water bottle and a spit bottle with you everywhere you go....and God forbid if you ever were to get somewhere without your dip....I mean I got to the point to where I was PATHETIC!!! I had become the very person that I would make fun of. The one who nobody could ever help because they refused to first try and help themselves. I would put In a dip and then spit most of it out through the normal process and then put another in right on top of it. Hell I could dip half a can without letting up.
Once I got to thinking and realizing that there wasn't ever a time during the day , unless I was eating of course, that you could ever find me without a dip in. Then I knew I was over the edge and needed to do something ASAP
Along with the normal heartburn and acid reflux caused by this shit , I also just started to be increasing more fearful of the dreaded C word or any other kinds of health issues that may be related to the years if abuse I put my body through. And I don't know about you guys but I REFUSE to live my life on pins and needles or walking on eggshells not ever knowing for sure when and if some thing is going to be wrong with you. . I've got to be here for my kids....my wife...my family....
Lastly my business and everything that I've worked so hard for my entire life....I own a huge business that I built from the ground up ....I mean I had nothing and I cam from nothing but I also never went without. My parents split when I was like 6 and it was always just me, my brother, and my mom. She always put food on the able and we never went without and man looming back ,that speaks volumes. I grew up in like a 60s model 2 bedroom trailer where me and my brother shared a bedroom that was so small you had to go outside just to change your mind....it was just big enough for a bed, in which we shared and that's it. I say all that to say this, I started and built my business with no help and hardly any money and I worked my fingers to the bone 7 days a week, year after year, taking my lumps until I finally MADE My own luck!! I don't believe in luck, I do believe it's when preparation meets opportunity however, anyways I worked and worked and finally got the little crack that I was needing to sneak through the proverbial door and then I never looked back.....I'm not bragging at all bc that's not me or the way I am but I'm retired today, at age 40 ,and my company is valued at over 10 million and all I had when I started was a small pickup truck and about $400...I say all that to say this...all I needed was a little crack to sneak through in order to put my determination to work to build that business and I never looked back....and all I needed was to find the right little reason or crack to sneak through to quit the dipshit and never look back again....I'm not saying I'm quitting because of my business either but I just retired this year and I want to be able to be around for many many many years on down the road to reAlly get to enjoy everything that I built along with my family and children
This has gotten way to long but as I head into day 8 tomorrow don't even sweat me bc I know that there ain't nothing in the whole world that would ever make me visit Dr Nic again.....some people say what they mean, I mean what I say!
Stay strong peeps....I've never liked the word quitter either.....that always just kinda makes me think of a loser...I've got a few words in mind but they just won't come to the end of my tongue right now.. Thanks for listening and thanks for all the support and if I sound stupid, ignorant or arrogant please tell me bc those are the least of my intentions.
