Dude, I read this and I started laughing. You are me around a week before new years. ITS OKAY. Everyone here has went thru what you are going thru. I am 24days into my quit. Not safe, not secure, but I am strong in my quit, cuz everymorning I get up and post roll. I have a few friends on here who I talk to, text, and message. Go read intro from nevada. It's pathetic my first few posts. People here are intense with their quit, they are waiting for you to post roll, then they are gonna form a circle around you and help you at any second of any day. Your quit sounds like you have made it along ways on your own. Thats big dude, just think how much bigger if you post roll. Then when you are done and in the HOF, you can badger, or nicely uplift the next quitter. Whatever your style of conversation is. Don't take things personal in here, cussing and verbal smacking are part of it. Post man, you won't regret it. If you want PM me and we can exchange numbers and talk.