day zero - tired of the lies

[Seth]

been in meeting for a couple hours. Just hit the 24 hour period were she busted my ass. another 2hours and will be at the 24 hour time.
Anyone experience stiff neck?  is it part of suck or something else.

Big time stiff neck and stiff sore jaw, definitely full blown suck. Don't ever forget this.

I had neck stiffness so severe and long lasting that I eventually had an MRI done to make sure I didn't have a cancerous tumor. It's hilarious to me now. That's why guys say to remember the suck. There is NO WAY I'm ever going through that again. But all I need to know, is that I'm not dipping today. Can't. I gave all you guys me word at roll this morning. It's just that simple.

You can get through this. You will get through this. You know how I know? Because I see you signed your name to roll today.

[CleanFuel]

On the bottom end of the afternoon suck.

I've have made it 23hours, and wish i could close off the world and sleep through the suckiness.

Go for an hour walk. Hour by hour bro......you got this.....

[nebraskadad58]

On the bottom end of the afternoon suck.

I've have made it 23hours, and wish i could close off the world and sleep through the suckiness.

[cbird65]

water and exercise in heavy doses - wash out the toxins - sweat out the rage

Go find the spousal support - link is on the killthecan.org page - print it out ~ then sit down with your wife and ask for her help.

Wake up and post roll

[DennyX]

been in meeting for a couple hours. Just hit the 24 hour period were she busted my ass. another 2hours and will be at the 24 hour time.
Anyone experience stiff neck? is it part of suck or something else.

Big time stiff neck and stiff sore jaw, definitely full blown suck. Don't ever forget this.

[nebraskadad58]

been in meeting for a couple hours. Just hit the 24 hour period were she busted my ass. another 2hours and will be at the 24 hour time.
Anyone experience stiff neck? is it part of suck or something else.

[DennyX]

just got back from lunch and "got the call"
trust is blown out the friggin' window..
'bangin'

I know someone can tell me it comes back but right now i feel like playing handball against the curb.

She said to tell her if I use, I guess that's fair. I don't want to have to tell her that.

Was sucking major when she called sounded like 10 yr old boy busted with smokes. Sick SICK SICK

An addict is an addict. No matter if it's a 10-year old with smokes or a 40-year-old with a dip. Same shit, different dude.

Hang in there bro, hopefully your wife will come to realize that your addiction was lying to her, instead of thinking you were doing it voluntarily. We were all lying addicts. We can fix that.

I know it sounds strange but congrats. Tear it down so you can build it back stronger than ever. You're closing the door to this addiction that has held you hostage for YEARS. Take your life back and do it with your wife by your side. Damn proud if you brother.

[Radman]

just got back from lunch and "got the call"
trust is blown out the friggin' window..
'bangin'

I know someone can tell me it comes back but right now i feel like playing handball against the curb.

She said to tell her if I use, I guess that's fair. I don't want to have to tell her that.

Was sucking major when she called sounded like 10 yr old boy busted with smokes. Sick SICK SICK

An addict is an addict. No matter if it's a 10-year old with smokes or a 40-year-old with a dip. Same shit, different dude.

Hang in there bro, hopefully your wife will come to realize that your addiction was lying to her, instead of thinking you were doing it voluntarily. We were all lying addicts. We can fix that.

[traumagnet]

do what Radman said get her to the spouses section. That is a huge difference this time is that I have involved my fiance...she is onboard she has helped me daily. she sends me texts saying you are doing great I am proud of you. she knows what day I am on better then I do. Point being get her dont let her give you that statement "She said to tell her if I use, " that is an opening slam the door hate the NIC Bitch

[nebraskadad58]

just got back from lunch and "got the call"
trust is blown out the friggin' window..
'bangin'

I know someone can tell me it comes back but right now i feel like playing handball against the curb.

She said to tell her if I use, I guess that's fair. I don't want to have to tell her that.

Was sucking major when she called sounded like 10 yr old boy busted with smokes. Sick SICK SICK

[Radman]

Nebraska, sorry I missed all this yesterday. I had become a ninja with my wife before I found this place. We've been together 20 years, and she knew I dipped and chewed. Problem was that she thought I quit in early 2010, but I just became a ninja. So, when I finally actually quit in September of that year, things got rough. My rage was unpredictable, and of course she noticed that because my wife and I have always been very close. I think she thought I was having an affair or something. I didn't find KTC for the first 50+ days of quit, so the bottom line was that I was quitting alone. Nicotine was absolutely destroying my life. I remember the day I hit the wall. There was some drama at work, and I was just about to walk over to the c-store for a can. Instead, I hit the internet and wound up here. My whole mindset changed. I eventually came clean with my wife and brought her to KTC, where she did a lot of reading. That was the turning point for me. She became my biggest supporter and has helped me in more ways than I can list here. The problem is that our spouses don't realize this is an actual addiction.

If you haven't already, get your wife to read The spouse's section and let her know what's going on. Help her to understand that you are suffering through a legitimate withdrawal, so that she can help you.

PM me if I can help, sir.

[traumagnet]

Its your quit protect it at all costs. When she gets home she might be upset with you this is not an excuse to cave. I am telling you this because this last weekend I had some tough issues come up, in the past I would have been thats it fuck it I cant hang I need my NIC BITCH. Not now with the site with the people and what I have learned the tools I have caving wasnt an option. I grabbed my sac of seeds went at sat on my end gate and reflected on everything I have learned here and got through the tough time without her.

YOU CAN DO THIS we all have

[nebraskadad58]

erussell and oflyer thanks for the PM's and ##..

Just on the down side of a big freaking suck, the paranoia about wifey was kicking my ass.

[Erussell]

Also don't forget to go post roll in August quiters.

[Erussell]

Great conversation with you last night Nebraskadad. I am glad you called. I am glad to see you alive this am lol. All jokes aside I know how it feels. Lot of good advice for you with all these quiters reaching out to you. Remember what I told you last night you may also have some paranoia, I did, and this will make you worry too much about your wife. Focus on your quit, no one else, this is all about u dude!