I come here today to tell a short story. Read the whole thing before passing judgment.
Last night I caved. On the way home from work I grabbed a tin and the rest is history. I wasn't even sure if I believed it. I was so unsure that I went back out to my car to see if there was really a tin there. There was. You know what I did? I snuck another one in, walked into my house, walked past my mother -- ashamed -- and dumped the rest into the toilet.
Then I woke up.
Yes, this was a dream nightmare that I had after 130 days quit.
Am I still quit? You're goddamn right I am. Is KTC and the people on here the reason I'm still quit? You're goddamn right they are.
Why do I think this is so important? Because of the illusion of 100 days -- or the Hall of Fame as it's called -- being the be-all end-all of your addiction.
It's not.
100 days is an admirable goal and a solid accomplishment. But there are other day counts that are also huge achievements... like day 1, or day 2, or day 5, or day 101. The real purpose of this post is to get people (if they read it) to understand that they still need to strive for that +1 after they hit 100 days, because the threat of temptation is still there. Do not become complacent with the quit. Why give up on something (your quit group) that has helped save your life just because you hit a 100 day mark? Why not stick around and pay it forward, or at the very least stick around and give your brothers and sisters that daily promise.
I know I will.
