Listen here fucksticks. I have a little something to say about making that little extra promise of 200, 300, 400, and so on.
It's true, all that is asked here is to make a daily promise and to keep that promise. That's it. But those two things are wrapped in the greater idea of ACCOUNTABILITY.
The more accountability, the stronger the quit. That's why I choose to let 15 assholes flood my inbox with nonsense and pictures of tonka trucks mining vaginas. That's also why I made the more overarching promise of 200 days to add to my daily promise of quit. ACCOUNTABILITY.
Now, onto the subject of life after 100. A lot of people seem to think it's ok to leave after day 100. Some are even claiming that it may be better for their quit! Crazy right!
Now in my early days of quit (first month) I didn't come on here every day, I wanted to block dipping from my mind completely and obviously being on here would be counter to that. That was a dangerous move on my part, however I feel it would be even more dangerous now. If I don't come here every day and post roll I could easily slip into the mind set that 'hey I've got this' which morphs into 'I'm not an addict' which eventually mutates into the devil spawn of 'I can have just one.'
At this point it would be easy to say 'I don't need the site anymore.' Afterall, I don't have physical craves, it's all mental. In fact I can't remember my last crave that laster over 5 minutes. But the craves are there.
Even those of you with 1000 days know what I'm talking about. You're standing there at the counter of your local convenience store. Picking up your special ordered extra large magnum condums with triple reservoir tip. You glance over the shoulder of the cashier who's been undressing you with her eyes and see that row of cans. Just looking to see if they still carry your particular brand. You see it and you're mind pauses for a minute or two. It happens to all of us.
Now what happens next depends on the person.
For me, my next thought is 'what kind of fucking hell would I have to go through if I took a dip and didn't post roll tomorrow.' Notice that I didn't say what kind of hell would I get if I posted a day 1, I'm just talking about the hell I would get from not posting at all!
For some, the next thought might be 'fuck it, I can have just one.' Nothing to be accountable for and no one to be accountable too.
Now I'm not saying hang out here all day. I understand needing a break. But all I ask is that you come once a day. Post. Keep your promise. Come back tomorrow.
How hard is that.
That's all I got for now mfers!
