Well I'm just baout at the 10 day mark now and realized I haven't done a proper introduction. My name is Chris, I grew up in the Buffalo area and currently reside in the Baltimore, Maryland area. Yes, the tke in my name is for the fraternity. I guess I should've capitalized it so my name doesn't look like some variation of Christ. Anyway, I guess I started dipping around 10 years ago. Never really did it consistently, just here and there, and I always told myself I could quit whenever I wanted. Problem is, I guess I never wanted to quit bad enough. Sometime in the last couple years I started dipping more frequently and it started to become my crutch for dealing with stress at work. Even then, I would say I would go through maybe a can every 3-4 days at most. The last 6 months or so it started to get worse. I started chewing the Skoal pouches and I would easily go through 1 or 1.5 cans per day. I got my wisdom teeth taken out in January and I thought that would be what would make me quit. Wrong. 4 days later I had the shit back in my mouth, holes still in my gums. I can't tell you how many times in the past 6 months I've "quit" only to find myself standing in line at the 7/11 for another tin the next day. Anyway - I'm 9 days in and going strong. Would I still love a dip? Absolutely. But now, the reasons not to dip outweigh the reasons to. This would seem obvious to the casual observer, but as all of you can attest, you know when you're buying it, packing it, and lipping it that it's bad for you, but you find a way to rationalize it.
This website and community has been a godsend. I would not have made it more than a couple days without the accountability this community demands which was lacking on all my previous quit attempts. There is not a doubt in my mind that I have had my last dip and I actually look forward to the daily challenge of not caving, and proving to myself that I am stronger than the nic bitch.
