OK ... July '14 lost a fairly reliable brother to the nic bitch this weekend. Here was a guy who took part in the HOF conductor process ... he had our digits. He caved while drunk, as have many before him There has been some good, at times heated discussion regarding this. I wanted to copy my post from there into here, because I'm curious if it rings true for others. Does everyone here ONLY look at this battle one day at a time? At what point does that progress into a "different" mindset? Am I over-confident? I definitely have the capacity to use again. But my choice is a resounding fucking NO!!!!! Here it is:
A different thought here ... from my perspective only:
For me, after 33 years ... this is the only time I have ever tried to quit. Sure, I thought about it in the past ... all the time with a turd in the lip. So this is my first quit, and my ONLY quit! I understand the ODAAT mentality, and embraced it early. However for me I think it truly pertains to the early part of my quit. Personally, to go along thinking I would spend the rest of my life depressed about the occasional pangs or cravings is now ridiculous. Why? Because at this stage in my quit I refuse to let them dictate my journey. I know it is the doubt and uncertainty about the quit that makes it difficult for some. I have no doubt, I have no uncertainty ... my mind-set is that this is FINAL and I do not doubt it, nor do I question it ... I celebrate it. I AM FUCKING QUIT, I've made that decision! On top of that, I make my daily promise to you guys, and all the other groups I post in. I am a man of integrity, and I mean what I say! For me, thatÂ’s ownership of my quit, and confidence in my quit. If I am found with a chew in my lip ... I was murdered, and someone for some fucked-up reason placed it there. FYI, same thing goes if you ever hear of me dead on a jogging trail ... call the investigators, I was murdered and placed there!