This will be the 4 or 5th time I have tried to quit. I started with the Camel Snus pouches and evolved in to Skoal Wintergreen. Got sick of that and moved to Grizzly. I have dipped for 6 years now. This is hard. I have always been a strong person. Strong minded and motivated to do well in life in general. This stuff makes me feel weaker then I have ever felt before. My mom and dad always smoked when I was a kid. In the car, in the house, outside, inside, pretty much everywhere. I always told my self I would never do this and couldn't understand why they couldn't, or wouldn't quit. I totally get it now. My addiction doesn't bother other people in the way that they are joining in my dip as compared to second hand smoke. It does in ways only known to me. I am ashamed to be in public and asking for a cup, putting it in and letting everyone see me spitting into a cup. Its gross. I am 30 years old and I have a great job, a beautiful girlfriend and everything is going really well. She smoked for 14 years and just quit one day and it will be a year in April. Im proud of her and I want her to be proud of me. She supports me either way because she knows how hard it is quit this addiction. I am on day four. The longest I have made it before is 22 days. I would rather be on 22 days of quitting then on my 22nd day of cancer. I have to tell myself why waste my life away feeding this addiction that the tobacco companies have purposely placed there for me and everyone to fail. Fuck them and Fuck dipping! Im glad I found this group and I know this will be the time where I gain my freedom from nicotine. It will be tough but I can persevere!
You know what they say..."The 6th time's a charm".
Seriously, Kubiak is 100% correct. There are a lot of bad as mama jammas on this site that can show you the way to quit, FOR GOOD. All you have to do is follow the program.
254 days ago I came in hear like a little bitch ass pussy. I was convinced I was that one guy who couldn't quit. Bullshit. I wasn't special. Nobody is. Anybody can quit if they really want it, and are willing to go Andy Dufresne and crawl through 3 football fields full of shit to freedom.
Good news for you is, you don't have to do it alone. We might be some bad ass mofos, but we get off on helping others quit. We are willing to share out secrets and experiences in order to help total strangers quit. Kind of fucked up, when you think about it, isn't it? I wouldn't wish nic addiction on my worst enemy.
Like I said, 254 days ago I crawled in here like a spineless jellyfish. Today I stand tall and proud as hell, and would like to help you do the same. Need anything, EVER PM me and I'll do all I can to help you out.
