cold turkey?

[srans]

So what a fucking day at work...i'm leaving here pretty stressed and about half pissed off at just about everything related to work! Got a nice long drive to think on it too...sometimes dealing with people that try to make life more complicated then it already is, is just maddening...arbitrary rules and regulations that cost me fuckin money really pisses me off. But not once did even think about walking down to the store...fixing problems and handling problems without nicotine eliminates a complication to the problem. Going to spend money on a pesticide isn't going to make me more money nor is it going to calm my nerves. Its going to cost me money and fray my nerves even more. Yelling at a lending agent without a dip is going to get my point across better than yelling at with a cat turd in my mouth. So fuck it....fuck dip, fuck smoke fuck it all...i'm going home for the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy a beautiful indiana spring weekend, eat some meat drink some beer and play with the kiddos...i'll be texting in my posts early on so i won't be able to keep big nasty in line like normal but quit the fuck on boys and girls.

Best post yet jayd. If you were a girl and not so damn ugly I think I'd be in love. Lol.

Those are just minor details Worktowin! You can get past them. :P

Why am I suddenly jealous?

[rdad]

So what a fucking day at work...i'm leaving here pretty stressed and about half pissed off at just about everything related to work! Got a nice long drive to think on it too...sometimes dealing with people that try to make life more complicated then it already is, is just maddening...arbitrary rules and regulations that cost me fuckin money really pisses me off. But not once did even think about walking down to the store...fixing problems and handling problems without nicotine eliminates a complication to the problem. Going to spend money on a pesticide isn't going to make me more money nor is it going to calm my nerves. Its going to cost me money and fray my nerves even more. Yelling at a lending agent without a dip is going to get my point across better than yelling at with a cat turd in my mouth. So fuck it....fuck dip, fuck smoke fuck it all...i'm going home for the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy a beautiful indiana spring weekend, eat some meat drink some beer and play with the kiddos...i'll be texting in my posts early on so i won't be able to keep big nasty in line like normal but quit the fuck on boys and girls.

Best post yet jayd. If you were a girl and not so damn ugly I think I'd be in love. Lol.

Those are just minor details Worktowin! You can get past them. :P

[worktowin]

So what a fucking day at work...i'm leaving here pretty stressed and about half pissed off at just about everything related to work! Got a nice long drive to think on it too...sometimes dealing with people that try to make life more complicated then it already is, is just maddening...arbitrary rules and regulations that cost me fuckin money really pisses me off. But not once did even think about walking down to the store...fixing problems and handling problems without nicotine eliminates a complication to the problem. Going to spend money on a pesticide isn't going to make me more money nor is it going to calm my nerves. Its going to cost me money and fray my nerves even more. Yelling at a lending agent without a dip is going to get my point across better than yelling at with a cat turd in my mouth. So fuck it....fuck dip, fuck smoke fuck it all...i'm going home for the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy a beautiful indiana spring weekend, eat some meat drink some beer and play with the kiddos...i'll be texting in my posts early on so i won't be able to keep big nasty in line like normal but quit the fuck on boys and girls.

Best post yet jayd. If you were a girl and not so damn ugly I think I'd be in love. Lol.

[jayd41]

So what a fucking day at work...i'm leaving here pretty stressed and about half pissed off at just about everything related to work! Got a nice long drive to think on it too...sometimes dealing with people that try to make life more complicated then it already is, is just maddening...arbitrary rules and regulations that cost me fuckin money really pisses me off. But not once did even think about walking down to the store...fixing problems and handling problems without nicotine eliminates a complication to the problem. Going to spend money on a pesticide isn't going to make me more money nor is it going to calm my nerves. Its going to cost me money and fray my nerves even more. Yelling at a lending agent without a dip is going to get my point across better than yelling at with a cat turd in my mouth. So fuck it....fuck dip, fuck smoke fuck it all...i'm going home for the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy a beautiful indiana spring weekend, eat some meat drink some beer and play with the kiddos...i'll be texting in my posts early on so i won't be able to keep big nasty in line like normal but quit the fuck on boys and girls.

[jayd41]

MtThomas...while i appreciate your post it was in reply to my very first post on this site ever...which was last year in may...that post invariably has changed my life as i've gathered the strength to quit today.

[Mthomas3824]

Excuse me. Still learning my way around and messing up your journal.

[Mthomas3824]

Censored 'boob'

[jayd41]

SO day 35 here...as i've tried to get involved with some other quitters i've learned a few things about the accountability and the support. I have got a handful of guys on here that i KNOW i can count on. I have reached out to them, they have done the same to me. Its good stuff...my quit is fuckin rock solid today. I've got 6 cans of hooch in my desk drawer if it ever gets shaky and i've got a handful of numbers.

To you noobs...get your handful of numbers. Besides posting, it is the most important thing you can do on this site...you'll actually make some friends over it...like real friends. You don't need 25 numbers, but it doesn't hurt.

[slug.go]

I have a wonderful wife...like i mentioned in an earlier post we are expecting our second child (my fourth!). With pregnancy comes hormones...oh the hormones...this weekend was just plain stupid. Went to bed with a happy wife on Friday...woke up to an irritable wife on Saturday and dealt with that pretty much all weekend...at least until about 4 pm Sunday...holy ballsack was that no fun. Anyhow...that normally was excuse enough for me to say fuck it. And honestly had a few moments when the bullshit was flying...but I made it through...THEN on top of all that I had a fucking crazy dip dream last night where there was hot ass women dipping passing a can sitting around the fire on a beach somewhere...then ended up driving down the road with one of those women and got pulled over for DUI...thats when i woke up in a huge panic! What a freakin weekend! Cheers mates

It's almost like you're an addict or something... Sarcasm

[jayd41]

I have a wonderful wife...like i mentioned in an earlier post we are expecting our second child (my fourth!). With pregnancy comes hormones...oh the hormones...this weekend was just plain stupid. Went to bed with a happy wife on Friday...woke up to an irritable wife on Saturday and dealt with that pretty much all weekend...at least until about 4 pm Sunday...holy ballsack was that no fun. Anyhow...that normally was excuse enough for me to say fuck it. And honestly had a few moments when the bullshit was flying...but I made it through...THEN on top of all that I had a fucking crazy dip dream last night where there was hot ass women dipping passing a can sitting around the fire on a beach somewhere...then ended up driving down the road with one of those women and got pulled over for DUI...thats when i woke up in a huge panic! What a freakin weekend! Cheers mates

[Doc Chewfree]

Day 30---1 month. 1 month ago i was sitting having supper with my 8 year old son at BW's and i remember looking at him and i almost started crying right there. You see my first time around here on KTC i told him all about my addiction. He had seen me dip his whole life and even caught me smoking a few times...but i don't think he ever understood what it was or what it was all about. Anyhow, i told about how it kills you and its very hard to quit but Dad was trying one day at a time. So fast forward to a month ago..we'd ordered our wings and i was having a beer when i looked at him...i was craving like a motherfucker and my only thought was how much i would have let him down if he knew that dad had caved. I was ashamed...anyhow...i was going through my phone and i still had Jake's number and Eddie's number. Eddie had sent me a text right around the time that Jake had caved and i never responded because well i was probably dipping when he sent me that text and i was very shameful. Anyhow, i decided to text Jake just to see how he was doing and he let me know his story...he had just hit the HOF for the second time. The one text i remember sending was, that i felt trapped...that was the best word to describe my addiction. I was told what i knew, that i would get my balls busted but i needed to come back...so i did. And 1 month later i know i'm quit for 30 days straight. I know i won't use nicotine today because i said i wouldn't. I'll worry about tomorrow when i get there but I am quit today and have been for 30 in a row! I feel better then i did the first time around, i have so much energy and no where really to direct it (selling cars doesn't burn a lot of calories). So i come on here...bitch at those that are jackasses and try to support those that want/need it. I know now, there is no finish line. There is just today. And today, is a good day because i am quit.

I think... now... you get it.

That's what makes the difference.

Rock on brutha...

yep it appears that you are getting that change in mindset that you need to help you win this fight against addiction. There is a turning point its different for everyone but when you hit it you know it. That's not to say that there wont be struggle instead of sharp edges they will be blunted. rock on JayD have a good weekend hope the ether/ruffie bunny doesn't catch you sleeping....hahaha

You make MY quit stronger! Thank you for that! When you text me a month ago, I wasn't sure you would post your new day 1. I am so glad you did. And even happier to see what kind of person you are this time around. (though I miss some of our behind the scenes instigating).... LOL poor people. Trauma is right. (and he was the one who i text the day I came back, funny how the circle goes....)We all have a point in our quit when we GET IT. I remember that moment, it was when I was in GA with Eddie, And so many more moments since. I have all the faith in the world in the strength of your quit. Keep rocking it bro!

Thanks you guys...nice to have my own band of quit brothers! And jake, don't you worry, we'll do a little instigating i'm sure! It's how i roll man!

Congrats on 30 jay. That is awesome. You are doing your son proud so hold your head high and quit on.
I quit with you.

[jayd41]

Day 30---1 month. 1 month ago i was sitting having supper with my 8 year old son at BW's and i remember looking at him and i almost started crying right there. You see my first time around here on KTC i told him all about my addiction. He had seen me dip his whole life and even caught me smoking a few times...but i don't think he ever understood what it was or what it was all about. Anyhow, i told about how it kills you and its very hard to quit but Dad was trying one day at a time. So fast forward to a month ago..we'd ordered our wings and i was having a beer when i looked at him...i was craving like a motherfucker and my only thought was how much i would have let him down if he knew that dad had caved. I was ashamed...anyhow...i was going through my phone and i still had Jake's number and Eddie's number. Eddie had sent me a text right around the time that Jake had caved and i never responded because well i was probably dipping when he sent me that text and i was very shameful. Anyhow, i decided to text Jake just to see how he was doing and he let me know his story...he had just hit the HOF for the second time. The one text i remember sending was, that i felt trapped...that was the best word to describe my addiction. I was told what i knew, that i would get my balls busted but i needed to come back...so i did. And 1 month later i know i'm quit for 30 days straight. I know i won't use nicotine today because i said i wouldn't. I'll worry about tomorrow when i get there but I am quit today and have been for 30 in a row! I feel better then i did the first time around, i have so much energy and no where really to direct it (selling cars doesn't burn a lot of calories). So i come on here...bitch at those that are jackasses and try to support those that want/need it. I know now, there is no finish line. There is just today. And today, is a good day because i am quit.

I think... now... you get it.

That's what makes the difference.

Rock on brutha...

yep it appears that you are getting that change in mindset that you need to help you win this fight against addiction. There is a turning point its different for everyone but when you hit it you know it. That's not to say that there wont be struggle instead of sharp edges they will be blunted. rock on JayD have a good weekend hope the ether/ruffie bunny doesn't catch you sleeping....hahaha

You make MY quit stronger! Thank you for that! When you text me a month ago, I wasn't sure you would post your new day 1. I am so glad you did. And even happier to see what kind of person you are this time around. (though I miss some of our behind the scenes instigating).... LOL poor people. Trauma is right. (and he was the one who i text the day I came back, funny how the circle goes....)We all have a point in our quit when we GET IT. I remember that moment, it was when I was in GA with Eddie, And so many more moments since. I have all the faith in the world in the strength of your quit. Keep rocking it bro!

Thanks you guys...nice to have my own band of quit brothers! And jake, don't you worry, we'll do a little instigating i'm sure! It's how i roll man!

[jake frawley]

Day 30---1 month. 1 month ago i was sitting having supper with my 8 year old son at BW's and i remember looking at him and i almost started crying right there. You see my first time around here on KTC i told him all about my addiction. He had seen me dip his whole life and even caught me smoking a few times...but i don't think he ever understood what it was or what it was all about. Anyhow, i told about how it kills you and its very hard to quit but Dad was trying one day at a time. So fast forward to a month ago..we'd ordered our wings and i was having a beer when i looked at him...i was craving like a motherfucker and my only thought was how much i would have let him down if he knew that dad had caved. I was ashamed...anyhow...i was going through my phone and i still had Jake's number and Eddie's number. Eddie had sent me a text right around the time that Jake had caved and i never responded because well i was probably dipping when he sent me that text and i was very shameful. Anyhow, i decided to text Jake just to see how he was doing and he let me know his story...he had just hit the HOF for the second time. The one text i remember sending was, that i felt trapped...that was the best word to describe my addiction. I was told what i knew, that i would get my balls busted but i needed to come back...so i did. And 1 month later i know i'm quit for 30 days straight. I know i won't use nicotine today because i said i wouldn't. I'll worry about tomorrow when i get there but I am quit today and have been for 30 in a row! I feel better then i did the first time around, i have so much energy and no where really to direct it (selling cars doesn't burn a lot of calories). So i come on here...bitch at those that are jackasses and try to support those that want/need it. I know now, there is no finish line. There is just today. And today, is a good day because i am quit.

I think... now... you get it.

That's what makes the difference.

Rock on brutha...

yep it appears that you are getting that change in mindset that you need to help you win this fight against addiction. There is a turning point its different for everyone but when you hit it you know it. That's not to say that there wont be struggle instead of sharp edges they will be blunted. rock on JayD have a good weekend hope the ether/ruffie bunny doesn't catch you sleeping....hahaha

You make MY quit stronger! Thank you for that! When you text me a month ago, I wasn't sure you would post your new day 1. I am so glad you did. And even happier to see what kind of person you are this time around. (though I miss some of our behind the scenes instigating).... LOL poor people. Trauma is right. (and he was the one who i text the day I came back, funny how the circle goes....)We all have a point in our quit when we GET IT. I remember that moment, it was when I was in GA with Eddie, And so many more moments since. I have all the faith in the world in the strength of your quit. Keep rocking it bro!

[Erussell]

JayD,

I am proud to be quit with a badass quitter like you and the rest of our HOF group. You and I are both at the 30 day mark, but you sharing this story will help me not make the same mistake. Thank You! Quit with you EDD.

You might want to get on the cool aid with Splenda, your drinking it so fast the carbs are gonna make you fat. All jokes aside, I am glad to see you taking this approach. Keep drinking the cool aid. I quit with you.

[E&C's Dad]

JayD,

I am proud to be quit with a badass quitter like you and the rest of our HOF group. You and I are both at the 30 day mark, but you sharing this story will help me not make the same mistake. Thank You! Quit with you EDD.