Withdrawal sux

[30yraddict]

ahem...

you folks that come back under a new name know that the magic of this site is accountability, right???

without it you might just as well try to paint the wind. Man (or woman) up ferfucksake! Come clean, take your lumps, and be a man (woman) of your word!

(*30 goes back under the porch, muttering to himself*)

[cbird65]

Bump for some awesomeness

bumped again for someone's reading assignment as an example of badassaery

[wastepanel]

Bump for some awesomeness

[eric71]

Thursday night into yesterday I was quite sick with a stomach bug. I was very uncomfortable, couldn't sleep.  I actually lost my patience a bit and thought to myself how I couldn't WAIT until it was over, until I felt better. I was kinda feeling sorry for myself.  Thankfully, today I am feeling a little bit better, and I'm pretty sure I'll be "back in the saddle" tomorrow.

In the middle of it I thought about my brother's battle with cancer and how he had no "better tomorrow" to look forward to.  The only way he felt remotely comfortable was when he was medicated to the point of incoherence.  Same is true of many people battling cancer... people like randy, Sean or Tom

There are many reasons to quit and stay that way.  Some of these are seen fairly quickly... things like healthier gums, better blood pressure, reduction or elimination of acid reflux.  Some you will never know - Like if the next dip would have been the one that started cancer. To me, it puts the mild discomfort of a crave into perspective.

thank you 30.. I needed that. always the right words for me. I was craving lately feeling sorry for myself. once in awhile I need to put things in perspective. I completely forgot about acid reflux. I used to get it bad, not anymore.. :)
thanks again for sharing..

Thanks for that 30.

Get on the mend soon, brother.

Well wishes and thanks for the perspective thoughts. You are right, we just never know that is why committing to quit daily takes that chance and discards it

QLAFM

[Nolaq]

Thursday night into yesterday I was quite sick with a stomach bug. I was very uncomfortable, couldn't sleep.  I actually lost my patience a bit and thought to myself how I couldn't WAIT until it was over, until I felt better. I was kinda feeling sorry for myself.  Thankfully, today I am feeling a little bit better, and I'm pretty sure I'll be "back in the saddle" tomorrow.

In the middle of it I thought about my brother's battle with cancer and how he had no "better tomorrow" to look forward to.  The only way he felt remotely comfortable was when he was medicated to the point of incoherence.  Same is true of many people battling cancer... people like randy, Sean or Tom

There are many reasons to quit and stay that way.  Some of these are seen fairly quickly... things like healthier gums, better blood pressure, reduction or elimination of acid reflux.  Some you will never know - Like if the next dip would have been the one that started cancer. To me, it puts the mild discomfort of a crave into perspective.

thank you 30.. I needed that. always the right words for me. I was craving lately feeling sorry for myself. once in awhile I need to put things in perspective. I completely forgot about acid reflux. I used to get it bad, not anymore.. :)
thanks again for sharing..

Thanks for that 30.

Get on the mend soon, brother.

[kana]

Thursday night into yesterday I was quite sick with a stomach bug. I was very uncomfortable, couldn't sleep. I actually lost my patience a bit and thought to myself how I couldn't WAIT until it was over, until I felt better. I was kinda feeling sorry for myself. Thankfully, today I am feeling a little bit better, and I'm pretty sure I'll be "back in the saddle" tomorrow.

In the middle of it I thought about my brother's battle with cancer and how he had no "better tomorrow" to look forward to. The only way he felt remotely comfortable was when he was medicated to the point of incoherence. Same is true of many people battling cancer... people like randy, Sean or Tom

There are many reasons to quit and stay that way. Some of these are seen fairly quickly... things like healthier gums, better blood pressure, reduction or elimination of acid reflux. Some you will never know - Like if the next dip would have been the one that started cancer. To me, it puts the mild discomfort of a crave into perspective.

thank you 30.. I needed that. always the right words for me. I was craving lately feeling sorry for myself. once in awhile I need to put things in perspective. I completely forgot about acid reflux. I used to get it bad, not anymore.. :)
thanks again for sharing..

[30yraddict]

Thursday night into yesterday I was quite sick with a stomach bug. I was very uncomfortable, couldn't sleep. I actually lost my patience a bit and thought to myself how I couldn't WAIT until it was over, until I felt better. I was kinda feeling sorry for myself. Thankfully, today I am feeling a little bit better, and I'm pretty sure I'll be "back in the saddle" tomorrow.

In the middle of it I thought about my brother's battle with cancer and how he had no "better tomorrow" to look forward to. The only way he felt remotely comfortable was when he was medicated to the point of incoherence. Same is true of many people battling cancer... people like randy, Sean or Tom

There are many reasons to quit and stay that way. Some of these are seen fairly quickly... things like healthier gums, better blood pressure, reduction or elimination of acid reflux. Some you will never know - Like if the next dip would have been the one that started cancer. To me, it puts the mild discomfort of a crave into perspective.

[Scowick65]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support.  I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life.  She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady.  I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to.  So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch.  The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more".  That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction.  Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way?  Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

1 year ago today....Rest in Peace, Keith. Thinking of you today.

Another one of the countless victims of nicotine addiction.

Never Again. For Any Reason.

Prayers and thoughts with you 30.
I'm with You, never again for any reason.

Watched and lived the same thing with my father. This addiction is a wicked bitch, proud to be clean with you !!

Yes. Thoughts and prayers with ya, 30. Proud to be quit with you, too.

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been craving lately and this made my quit stronger today. Thoughts with you, and thanks again for sharing.

You and yours are in our hearts and prayers! Thanks for all you put out here...

Thanks for the reminder of the responsibility of free will.

[mfkuss]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support.  I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life.  She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady.  I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to.  So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch.  The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more".  That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction.  Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way?  Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

1 year ago today....Rest in Peace, Keith. Thinking of you today.

Another one of the countless victims of nicotine addiction.

Never Again. For Any Reason.

Prayers and thoughts with you 30.
I'm with You, never again for any reason.

Watched and lived the same thing with my father. This addiction is a wicked bitch, proud to be clean with you !!

Yes. Thoughts and prayers with ya, 30. Proud to be quit with you, too.

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been craving lately and this made my quit stronger today. Thoughts with you, and thanks again for sharing.

You and yours are in our hearts and prayers! Thanks for all you put out here...

[luby]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support.  I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life.  She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady.  I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to.  So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch.  The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more".  That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction.  Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way?  Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

1 year ago today....Rest in Peace, Keith. Thinking of you today.

Another one of the countless victims of nicotine addiction.

Never Again. For Any Reason.

Prayers and thoughts with you 30.
I'm with You, never again for any reason.

Watched and lived the same thing with my father. This addiction is a wicked bitch, proud to be clean with you !!

Yes. Thoughts and prayers with ya, 30. Proud to be quit with you, too.

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been craving lately and this made my quit stronger today. Thoughts with you, and thanks again for sharing.

[BG]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support.  I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life.  She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady.  I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to.  So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch.  The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more".  That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction.  Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way?  Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

1 year ago today....Rest in Peace, Keith. Thinking of you today.

Another one of the countless victims of nicotine addiction.

Never Again. For Any Reason.

Prayers and thoughts with you 30.
I'm with You, never again for any reason.

Watched and lived the same thing with my father. This addiction is a wicked bitch, proud to be clean with you !!

Yes. Thoughts and prayers with ya, 30. Proud to be quit with you, too.

[Greg5280]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support.  I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life.  She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady.  I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to.  So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch.  The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more".  That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction.  Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way?  Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

1 year ago today....Rest in Peace, Keith. Thinking of you today.

Another one of the countless victims of nicotine addiction.

Never Again. For Any Reason.

Prayers and thoughts with you 30.
I'm with You, never again for any reason.

Watched and lived the same thing with my father. This addiction is a wicked bitch, proud to be clean with you !!

[30isEnuff]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support.  I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life.  She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady.  I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to.  So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch.  The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more".  That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction.  Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way?  Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

1 year ago today....Rest in Peace, Keith. Thinking of you today.

Another one of the countless victims of nicotine addiction.

Never Again. For Any Reason.

Prayers and thoughts with you 30.
I'm with You, never again for any reason.

[30yraddict]

Thanks again for the overwhelming support.  I am deeply moved by it.

My sister-in-law (the wife of one of my other brothers) has been my brother's caregiver for the duration of the illness, which became a full time job for the last 3 months of his life.  She wanted to do it, she is one very special lady.  I owe her a huge debt of gratitude. She spent her time over the last 3 months granting his every wish, making him as comfortable as possible, cleaning, feeding, taking care of all of his medical needs, running out for ice cream to make milkshakes that she knew he would only take 1 sip of, She is truly physically and mentally exhausted at this point. Yesterday she told me this:

One night Keith decided that he wanted to sit up and watch movies downstairs like he used to.  So she virtually carried him downstairs (at this point he didn't weigh much) and sat him up on the couch.  The next morning she came back and he was asleep, Tv on, cigarette in the ashtray. Even in the midst of the terrible illness, big tobacco still had him hooked for "one more".  That is why there is no "one more" for me- or for you.

There is nothing that will make me go back to active addiction.  Is it "hard" to quit and stay that way?  Yes, bit it is a whole lot easier than the journey my brother was forced to go on for the last year and a half of his life.

Stay Quit

30

1 year ago today....Rest in Peace, Keith. Thinking of you today.

Another one of the countless victims of nicotine addiction.

Never Again. For Any Reason.

[kana]

Day 668

I was saddened to learn that a guy that I grew up with passed away last night, He was 46, one year older than I am. He left a wife and two children. He predeceased his own mother and father.  Cause of death was officially a heart attack, although I am quite sure the 6 or so year battle with throat cancer and the associated chemo, operations, and radiation were the major cause.

Our paths to addiction ran parallel: We both started to use dip at about the same time.... about 10 years old or thereabouts. We both dipped in sports, at boy scouts, at our respective Jobs (even those were similar- both of us worked for utility companies. There was a difference of when we quit, however.... As far as I know, he quit chewing about 6 years ago, when he was diagnosed with Throat Cancer.  I Continued to dip another 4 years. For him, his quit came to late.  For me, time will tell.

This hits close to home, really close.  It could have just as easily have been my family making funeral arrangements. It could have been my kids with tears in their eyes... It could have been my wife, left alone by my singularly selfish addiction.  It could have been my father, burying a second son in less than a year. Sobering, to say the least.

Never Again.

I am sorry for your loss. Prayers for his family.

Sorry about you loss. Prayers go out.

So sorry to hear about your friends' suffering and your loss.

Very sorry for your loss brother....

Will pray for all of you.. so sorry about your friend.