You didn't quit before, you stopped.
You didn't go back like a dumbass, you went back like an addict.
I know, and so does everyone else here, because we are all addicts too. We will always be addicts. It's why I'm here every day posting roll and reading and pitching in. I remind myself constantly with this site and all the other crazies here that I am an addict. When I forget that, I fail.
I see you've already found your way to your quit group and posted roll. Bravo. That's the first step.
"But what are the other steps, epayne?..." You might find yourself thinking. Allow me to expound:
1. Post roll
2. Keep your word like a man
3. Repeat
Simple? Yes
Easy? No
You'll have to bring 110% to this fight. It will take everything you have to beat this back. You can never let your guard down. The nic bitch is a relentless enemy. No matter how many times you send her packing, she'll always be back. She'll bring the fight to you in so many different ways I can't possibly prepare you for them. You'll have to be ready. Being ready is as simple as posting roll. Even if you're caught without your toothpicks, seeds, gum, jelly beans, etc... You still have your word. If you didn't post roll, you haven't promised anyone anything. Then you're left with only willpower. Being an addict myself, I can tell you almost certainly that it won't be enough.
Above all remember to quit one day at a time. Fuck forever. It will take care of itself.
PM me if I can do anything to help. Welcome aboard.