Derk40

[B-loMatt]

88 days in and the quit is strong.  Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.

Had a dip dream last night.  First one and it was a weird dream.  I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something.  I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically.  The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed.  It looked like hooch but it had a different name.  I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open.  A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door.  He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room.  Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine.  He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along.  This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar.  I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it.  He said thanks and left the room.

Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen. 

Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit.  I wanted no part of the dip.  That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!

This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction.  I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself.  Each day I am earning back some of that honor  respect that I had trampled on for so long. 

Today, I am a free man.  Free of nicotine  not turning back.  Today I R quit!  And will stay quit ADD.  QLF folks!

M R Ducks...O S M R!

Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!

I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!

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Good stuff Derk. Knockin' em down, even in your sleep.

Keep up the great work derk. The train is coming my friend. Quit with you all day bro.

Nice Derk! I was quit in my first dip dream, but I have had a few since, where the first thing I remember I already have a dip in. Do not freak out if this happens to you. I had several dip dreams days 80-100. See you on that train in 2 weeks.

[Felcie]

Those dreams can seem sooo real....powerful stuff!!

[AppleJack]

Dude... you're killin' it!

Look at how far you've come bro. It's amazing isn't it? Don't change a thing ~ keep doing exactly what you're doing. See you tomorrow...!

[Mike from AB]

Wow, you're quit strong even in your dream! I haven't had a dip dream yet, but have been having more bizarre dreams so I know one's due up soon.

[KC_Guy]

88 days in and the quit is strong.  Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.

Had a dip dream last night.  First one and it was a weird dream.  I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something.  I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically.  The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed.  It looked like hooch but it had a different name.  I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open.  A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door.  He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room.  Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine.  He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along.  This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar.  I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it.  He said thanks and left the room.

Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen. 

Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit.  I wanted no part of the dip.  That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!

This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction.  I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself.  Each day I am earning back some of that honor  respect that I had trampled on for so long. 

Today, I am a free man.  Free of nicotine  not turning back.  Today I R quit!  And will stay quit ADD.  QLF folks!

M R Ducks...O S M R!

Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!

I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!

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Good stuff Derk. Knockin' em down, even in your sleep.

Keep up the great work derk. The train is coming my friend. Quit with you all day bro.

[CaliforniaSlim]

88 days in and the quit is strong.  Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.

Had a dip dream last night.  First one and it was a weird dream.  I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something.  I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically.  The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed.  It looked like hooch but it had a different name.  I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open.  A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door.  He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room.  Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine.  He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along.  This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar.  I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it.  He said thanks and left the room.

Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen. 

Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit.  I wanted no part of the dip.  That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!

This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction.  I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself.  Each day I am earning back some of that honor  respect that I had trampled on for so long. 

Today, I am a free man.  Free of nicotine  not turning back.  Today I R quit!  And will stay quit ADD.  QLF folks!

M R Ducks...O S M R!

Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!

I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!

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Good stuff Derk. Knockin' em down, even in your sleep.

[JayDubya]

Man that's strong. Keep on keeping on.

[Pinched]

88 days in and the quit is strong. Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.

Had a dip dream last night. First one and it was a weird dream. I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something. I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically. The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed. It looked like hooch but it had a different name. I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open. A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door. He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room. Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine. He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along. This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar. I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it. He said thanks and left the room.

Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen.

Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit. I wanted no part of the dip. That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!

This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction. I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself. Each day I am earning back some of that honor  respect that I had trampled on for so long.

Today, I am a free man. Free of nicotine  not turning back. Today I R quit! And will stay quit ADD. QLF folks!

M R Ducks...O S M R!

Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!

I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!

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[Derk40]

88 days in and the quit is strong. Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.

Had a dip dream last night. First one and it was a weird dream. I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something. I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically. The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed. It looked like hooch but it had a different name. I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open. A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door. He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room. Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine. He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along. This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar. I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it. He said thanks and left the room.

Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen.

Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit. I wanted no part of the dip. That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!

This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction. I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself. Each day I am earning back some of that honor  respect that I had trampled on for so long.

Today, I am a free man. Free of nicotine  not turning back. Today I R quit! And will stay quit ADD. QLF folks!

[CaliforniaSlim]

Day 80... QLF and not turning back.  Life here is a lot different than before quitting.  I can now actually drive in my car and not be worrying about getting my next fix of poison.  I can have an evening with the family  not be worrying about when I will next stuff my face full of poison.  I can drive to work and not need to make a pit stop for the evil weed.  I can go into a store and not be eying the rack of death looking for Copenhagen.  Feels absolutely great.  But I have a deep anger for what this addiction has taken from me.  Money, time with family and friends, possible health issues,,, basically 20 yrs of my life being owned by a senseless addiction.  I want to pass on a heartfelt FU to big T.  I will beat this addiction today and EDD from here on out.  That is just how it will be. 

Glad to be amongst a group of quitters that want this quit as bad as I do.  I am winning.  We are winning. The accountability here is critical and I am proud to be quit with y'all today.  QLF ODAAT!!

Great job on the 80 derk. Your help on the intros is great brother. Your advice sound and encouragement inspires. It's great to see people paying it forward. I went back through your intro,, just to get a look at the difference. Wow brother!! You went from a losing addict to a winning quitter. Damn glad to be quit with you friend.

Excellent. I agree with everything SRANS said (I often do) you are a real quitter, an inspiration. Proud to be quit with you.

[srans]

Day 80... QLF and not turning back. Life here is a lot different than before quitting. I can now actually drive in my car and not be worrying about getting my next fix of poison. I can have an evening with the family  not be worrying about when I will next stuff my face full of poison. I can drive to work and not need to make a pit stop for the evil weed. I can go into a store and not be eying the rack of death looking for Copenhagen. Feels absolutely great. But I have a deep anger for what this addiction has taken from me. Money, time with family and friends, possible health issues,,, basically 20 yrs of my life being owned by a senseless addiction. I want to pass on a heartfelt FU to big T. I will beat this addiction today and EDD from here on out. That is just how it will be.

Glad to be amongst a group of quitters that want this quit as bad as I do. I am winning. We are winning. The accountability here is critical and I am proud to be quit with y'all today. QLF ODAAT!!

Great job on the 80 derk. Your help on the intros is great brother. Your advice sound and encouragement inspires. It's great to see people paying it forward. I went back through your intro,, just to get a look at the difference. Wow brother!! You went from a losing addict to a winning quitter. Damn glad to be quit with you friend.

[Mike from AB]

Congrats on 80 days Derk!

[Derk40]

Day 80... QLF and not turning back. Life here is a lot different than before quitting. I can now actually drive in my car and not be worrying about getting my next fix of poison. I can have an evening with the family  not be worrying about when I will next stuff my face full of poison. I can drive to work and not need to make a pit stop for the evil weed. I can go into a store and not be eying the rack of death looking for Copenhagen. Feels absolutely great. But I have a deep anger for what this addiction has taken from me. Money, time with family and friends, possible health issues,,, basically 20 yrs of my life being owned by a senseless addiction. I want to pass on a heartfelt FU to big T. I will beat this addiction today and EDD from here on out. That is just how it will be.

Glad to be amongst a group of quitters that want this quit as bad as I do. I am winning. We are winning. The accountability here is critical and I am proud to be quit with y'all today. QLF ODAAT!!

[gorilla1]

Day 71... It is September  that is the month I will hit the HOF.  On Day 1, I thought about this  my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013.  That is the day I would hit the HOF.  Nice right??

Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days.  I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY.  Posting ROLL today  staying quit today.  The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters.  Qutting is not a long term strategy.  I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future.  I control the here and now.  What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today  being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.

On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple.  Post ROLL today - done.  Now, I must stay true to my word today  stay quit on September 1st, 2013.  I know I can do this!  I will do this!  I am QLF today!

Congrats on adding another +1! I've discovered this is all I can do, if I start to worry too much about what the future holds it gets to be too overwhelming, but I can control today  keep to my word in the roll call. Great job doing that 71 times!

Thank you sensei.

[Mike from AB]

Day 71... It is September  that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this  my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??

Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today  staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today  being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.

On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today  stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!

Congrats on adding another +1! I've discovered this is all I can do, if I start to worry too much about what the future holds it gets to be too overwhelming, but I can control today  keep to my word in the roll call. Great job doing that 71 times!